Hello,
Few days ago, I experienced the most realistic dream I ever had in my entire life.
It was very colorful, very detailed, very "real". And what's really weird about it is that, when I woke up, a problem I was living during the last 3 months felt like resolved, and I was ready to move on.
Let me start by stating the problem:
3 months ago, my GF and I broke up in very difficult conditions. I wasn't convinced at all of the break up, and I kept on trying to get her back in every possible way. Until, few days ago I had this dream - I will indicate in parentheses what I think the details in the dreams were making reference too, and I hope you will be able to clarify this whole dream to me.
In the dream, I was aware that I'm going to a certain destination where Rebecka (my ex) would be. (although I didn't see this in my dream, but this is what I was aware of). She was there because of a camp with a scout group (we both are scouts in real life) and when I felt her presence near me, I felt sadness because I couldn't talk to her, although we were very close (location wise). This part was all an assumption, but I didnt actually see it in the dream. Next thing that happened was that I was walking on a road that begins in a farm (I know that because this specific road is one that I actually visited in real life, few weeks ago during a spiritual retreat in a monastery) so I was heading out of the farm sadly, and I was walking when suddenly, a red van passed by me, heading toward the farm (her presumed camp location), in which Rebecka was sitting next to an old, handsome man. I knew it was her, although her face looked more like my first Ex, Sarah, with whom I had a long relationship that was mainly based on sexual feelings that back then I thought were love. She passed by me, looking at me, and I turned for a moment and saw her, and I felt weird because I saw her in Sarah's face, but I knew it was Rebecka. I felt a strong feeling of sadness, and said to myself : I should let her go. And I kept on walking until I crossed a metallic fence that was widely open. Then just after that, I found myself in my room, inside the monastery (not the same room I actually had during my real stay) with my 2 best friends. They were both laying down as if they were sleeping, and I was watching television on a chair. The TV program was weird (it was an election of Miss France but in the form of a game/talk show). While watching, I looked up from my window, to see Rebecka's clean laundry hanging from the 4th floor of a building (that was not there in real life). The balcony was closed with glass, and the laundry line was outside of the glass. I immediately knew that this is Rebecka's laundry, washed by her aunt although i didn't see the aunt and there was no way I could relate this scene to her aunt. Still I saw them hanging there, and I was sure it was Rebecka's laundry because I saw after that her picture on a shirt, that turned out to be her picture cut on a foam board that was hanging along with the laundry. When I saw these, I said to myself: How am I supposed to forget about her, when her picture is following me everywhere. But then I saw Rebecka walking on the same road I was walking on, and this time she was in her real body, dressed in a very relaxed manner, passing by my window, and I knew she was heading towards us. She looked like she was filled with regrets, and was coming to talk to me, but I said to myself I will ignore her. Then she knocked on our door, and that's when I realized that my friends are here. I went and opened the door, saw her but totally ignored her and let her in. She immediately asked my friends to come join her for a game, and she looked at me. In the meantime, I decided to continue the show I was watching, and realized that the chair I was sitting on when I was first watching the show, is now in front of the TV, and I was sitting far from it but I was laying my foot on the arm rest, and I wondered how my friends were able to watch if this chair was blocking the view. It was a rocking chair. My friends asked me to come and join them, so I agreed to join them, and we all went out, and started walking again on the same road towards the farm, with a group of people i didn't recognize, but during the walk, Rebecka was doing her best to talk to me and make me forgive her, but her attitude was clear with her actions not her word. And I kept on ignoring her although I felt a very strong feeling of love towards her, and this is where I woke up from the dream.
Can anyone explain to me what this means?
Many thanks.
