He doesn't really exist....

[Arquillius]

So I just woke up from dreaming. Apparently I slept for 2 hours over what my wife did, and she didn't wanna wake me because I looked peaceful, where in reality, I was having a conversation... in a dream.

In the dream, I had just found out a female friend had just gotten herself out of a bad situation. Mind you this female friend, does not exist. I'm an agoraphobic and don't see people outside of my house for the most part. The only time I leave the house is to shop. But lets get back to it. I got a call from an old friend, an old man who had some side work for me... again who doesn't exist, general labor stuff, mind you I haven't done that stuff since I was a teen... a young man at the latest. I've been working in IT out of my home for the past couple years. Anywho, I agree to this work and am told to bring a lunch, consisting of a sandwich and a beer... because you know, a cold beer after hard work is a good thing, and a recovering alcoholic should drink... my dreams are confusing. Regardless, I start talking to this old friend regarding this female friend who doesn't really exist and life in general, and his basic view on it all was to relax cause it would all work out. I'm paraphrasing that, I don't remember his words or his stories he told me, that's just the feel I got from it. I'm sure you're all gonna tell me that the old man was my subconscious telling me to stay the course, but I don't understand who the young woman was... Why did she have relevance?

Didn't line up with my dream just before that, which was about playing with Kittens... which was nice. I love kittens... Yeah, a 32 year old guy likes kittens... what of it?

SO thoughts?

[Tony Crisp]

Arquilius - I am a 78 year old guy who rescued kittens abandoned in a roadside hedge - and loved them as kittens and now as adults. What of it!

You use the word subconscious, a word I never use, but it relates to sub, which when linked with conscious seems to refer to a lower strata or level of awareness. Perhaps it would be worth seeing http://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/the-unconscious-2/

Why don't you explore something of your unconscious/subconscious by being the old man - if you do it you might find a huge field of awareness you didn't realise you had. See http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/acting-on-your-dream/#BeingPerson

You didn't say what you felt when you encountered the woman in your dream - pleasure, curiosity, desire, repugnance. Feelings in your dream are what dream images are built around, lacking your description of these I have to guess.

So from the clues in what you have written I see the female friend as subtle feelings you are barely aware which have proved difficult for you in the past. For she/you have gotten yourself out if a bad situation, a situation which may be reflected by your remark "I love kittens... Yeah, a 32 year old guy likes kittens... what of it?" It may be that you see your softer feelings as feminine but are beginning to express them - thus the dreamt of female - female friend who does not exist.

The old man appears to be a side of you that has a longer life experience and is okay about the female in your inner life. To get more understanding of this please see - http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/autonomous-complex/ - http://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/inner-world/#MakesInner - http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/archetype-of-the-anima-jungs-view-of-the-female-in-the-male/

Tony

[Arquillius]

Thanks for the objective view tony. The female in my dream.... I felt contempt for her. Like I didn't want to deal with her at the time, but the old friend, when i talked to him, I felt..... Acceptance, understanding, and something about his willingness to help.

My inner female is something I've been struggling with a lot lately. I do consider myself transgender, and have been working to bring my female side out more.

I've always considered the wiser person I talk to in my dreams whether it's the old man friend or another image as my subconscious only because I have nothing else to call it.

I'll read your links and Post about any more dreams I can remember.

My dreams often confuse me, mainly because I have huge chunks of missing memories here and there that are either repressed or lost due to... chemical abuse (not something I chose to do on my own mind you).

Thank you again,

Arquillius

[Tony Crisp]

Arquillius - Thanks for sharing a bit more about yourself.

Lost memories are only a sign of that - lost memories - and fortunately we are more than our physical  brain.  I had a great hole punched in my brain when I suffered a major stroke and here I am still. See http://dreamhawk.com/forums/index.php?topic=618.0

Also it might be too early to suggest this, but read http://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/water-wonderland/ and http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/lifes-little-secrets/

Tony