Leopold - Perhaps what was being exposed was not what you had accomplished with your mother, but what you had forgotten about those little black spiders.
For example, did you realise that even if you had dealt with being independent of your exterior mother you cannot get rid of your inner mother. Many people do not realise that they have an inner mother equally as powerful as an external mother. You have taken in millions of bit of memory, lessons learnt, life experiences along with all the feelings or problems met by loving and living with your mother, and they are what makes you the person you are. This is true even if your mother was never there for you – you still have all the memories of her not being there for you filed under ‘Mother’. The memories and experience we gather unconsciously change us and are not lost. It is part of you and is symbolised in dreams as a person or event. Such an inner mother can appear in dreams because you are still deeply influenced by what you hold within you. The inner mother can also signify what has been received via genes passed on or ancestral influences
What you can do is recognise the effect your inner mother has on you. The usually are recognisable as inbuilt habits, views, sexual preferences, also projections. In projection thoughts, motivations, desires, and feelings that we tend to avoid taking responsibility for as one’s own we tend to see them – project them – onto other people. This is sometimes called transference. This is a defence we use to avoid seeing the negative side of ourselves. So instead of seeing that we ourselves are an awful spreader of critical talk, we accuse others of doing it.
Try being the black spiders and see what you feel. Use
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/acting-on-your-dream/#BeingPerson You can also use
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/acting-on-your-dream/#BeingPerson Let me know if you hit problems, because you can meet the negative influences f your inner mother. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/individuation/Tony
