Omega – You are certainly coming over more strongly, and expressing feelings showing what you want. Excellent.
Embody – embody – embody. I usually name it ‘integrating’ more of your potential. All the new found parts make you bigger and stronger.
I often feel that being competitive when one says, “I will trample on and even kill any bugger who stands in my way,” doesn’t do anyone any good. But certainly feeling and allowing your own living strength and expressing it in creative action doesn’t hurt anybody except those who work in the competing game. They are so lost in the game of competing they are not taking hold of what makes those who feel the wonder of their own inner genius. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/genius-2/
When I was 68 I took an opportunity to ‘get education’ because up till then I had not had the questionable advantages of being taught – except when I had to do national service in the RAF and was taught nursing. I got a pass at an Oxford college and while studying there wrote three books which were later published – all without education of the normal kind. My secret was, if it could be called that, I never waited for anyone to tell me what to do or give me permission or pieces of paper called diplomas, etc. I simply got on with what was burning inside me. (But if you need diplomas, get them).
While I was being ‘educated’ I met a woman student who assured me that as a woman she was almost paralyzed by restrictions due to her sex. She told me she couldn’t get work. I then thought of my mother from an older generation who never ever had such thoughts and always got work, or created it.
So dear Omega – simply get up and do what is burning inside you.
In every human being, I seemed to be told, there is a fire that burns, a creative fire. When that fire is permitted to burn freely, the human being is healthy and creative, whether he be farmer, artist, mother, workman. But when the fire is blocked, as it is by this pain, then the person is crippled, just as I had been crippled for most of my life. As a child, I had felt worthless because I did not have my brother's masculinity and intelligence, nor my sister's grace and beauty. And because I had felt worthless I had withdrawn into non-identity and non-feeling. Quoted from Myself and I by Constance Newland
Tony