Jason explored the dream himself:
Recently I have woken at about 2am to do a pee, and then an explosion of insight and information occurs. In that way, I saw what the dream meant, that I had entered a state of mind that put me in touch with my basic natural feelings; and with my inner female – my wife.
The bull was my own sexual drive and power, which I was still avoiding. I ran from this but of course I cannot escape from myself, and so meet it again. This time there was no fear.
The road ahead was very clear, but instead of taking it I got fixed in narrow viewpoints, the small lane.
Later in visualisation I took the road and quickly arrived at the meeting. I found and remembered the many times I had dreamt of the farmhouse, and also the wonderful marriage or merging with my female self- why do I keep overlooking ground already covered? See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/archetype-of-the-great-mother/ Last night was extraordinary in the torrent of realisations that were pressed into my memory. Especially about crucifixion not being about Jesus’s pain, but a meeting with experiencing the pain, trials, sickness that comes from living in our body, which we are nailed/fixed to because we were born to it. When we realise that the pain is caused by our fixation that we are our body, and that our personality is us, then we experience a death of our ego. See
https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/death-of-ego/ Jason
