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Tony Crisp

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I Don't Want to Hope
« on: March 10, 2021, 03:20:17 PM »
I have lots of dreams with the guide. He gives me mixed signals saying that now he is not ready and feels insecure about himself but I see how he looks at me. I don't want to hope for something which will be futile anyway, maybe I do project something onto him and he knows that's the part of ayahuasca integration and he is scared to be involved? So my dream was quite strange.

I was on the top of the tree. He was close to the trunk in the dark and I tried to reach him. I tried to be a tree as one of your techniques advice and i felt it may mean stability. But I also checked the meaning and it also may mean luck in love.... M.

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Re: I Don't Want to Hope
« Reply #1 on: March 11, 2021, 12:16:50 PM »
M - The tree is your life as it unfolds - with all its strengths and weaknesses. It is certainly stability - luck in love? To see that you have been looking at trash because people make up things without experiencing them. Love is a word thrown about to get people feel their need for love - it is not the meaning of tree.

The dream shows you at the top of the tree - the point of growth, but also the point of tenderness because the new growth can be your highest self but it can be torn apart because it hasn't hardened. Your dream shows this as your uncertainty.

The guide is shown at the foot of  the tree in the dark showing that he has no experience of your growth, has not been able to climb the tree, meanning he has no experience of your inner personal growth and your urge to grow.

Your dream is your truth, shown as the guide who is insecure. After my searching for external help from many guides for 50 years, I found that the greatest guide who knows every part of you from babyhood through teenage, and on through your future is within you. That is what I was trying to help you find, the inner energy of your personal highest self. For within each of us lies a radiance that enriches us if we can meet it. This radiance, from its vastness using things we might understand, says that we too must reach beyond our often pitiful understanding to move toward and touch the wonder of Life within us.

As for hope - T. S Elliot sees the truth of that: 

I said to my soul, be still and wait without hope 

For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love 

For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith 

But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting. 

Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought: So, the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing. 

Tony
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