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Tony Crisp

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A Series of Dreams
« on: Today at 08:45:11 AM »

Hi Tony,

Hope all good at your end.

Seeking your expertise after a long time.  Just to put some facts here, so that the interpretation might be easier.  I left my job in advertising 7 months ago, because of stress, health issues and boredom. My mom's death two months ago was another big thing that happened during this period.  My relationship with my mother was rough, but her death has still been difficult to accept on many levels.  I am having disturbing dreams post her death, and I am not sure if all of these are inter-related.   

1. My elder sister, (who was Mom's care taker in her last couple of years) and I enter a white room, expectantly and excitedly. Its a bare room, there is no furniture there. We look around, and I see that even the paint/wall paper on the wall has been peeled and taken away by my mother and elder brother.  Then I am running around to ensure that my sister is alright and taken care of. When I get to her place, she is lying on a white bed with neat white quilt on top of her. Completely covered from head to toe. When I approach her, she removes the quilt from her face, and looks happy.  She has sparkling eyes and is wearing a teal coloured shirt. We exchange dialogue that I don't remember.

2. Its the old house, where I grew up. In the dream its still in its semi constructed state.  It has two rooms. The better room is occupied by a younger brother and elder sister.  And I am in the other less developed room. It has rained heavily and it has flooded the "better" of the two rooms.  The water is muddy. There is muddy water standing around the back of the house too. My elder brother, wearing white, goes to inspect it.  Somewhere I am trying to attract attention of a modern woman, that someone should do something about the flood, but she says what can she do?!  From the less developed room I see white, bright clouds have parted and I can see the blue sky. I can also see an orange arc (like a rainbow) on the sky.  I ask myself if its the sunset or is the sun is still out.  And I feel that the sunlight behind the clouds became stronger!

3. I am in my current apartment. In one of the actual rooms, I am changing clothes. My attire includes starched white trousers (that I wear in real life too), and on top of it, I wear a brown, loose, starched shirt, with long sleeves.  The end of the long sleeves has embroidered pattern with gold, silver and maroon. Kind of sequined. And its a design pattern that I never wear in real life. As I adjust the sleeves around my wrist, I realize the sleeves are stiff (like metal), and the end of the sleeves (the entire design pattern) has rusted and becomes dust in my hand.  Simultaneously, cracks appear on the peach coloured floor tiles of the room, and it gets so bad that one can see the dark earth underneath the broken pieces of the tile.  I am scared with the embroidery turning into rust, and as the floor starts cracking, I run to my sister in the lounge, asking myself whats happening? Mom wearing white is standing in the lounge too, more like a spirit than a human. But before my sister could give a response, I wake up.

Looking forward to your insights Tony.

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Rumana

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Re: A Series of Dreams
« Reply #1 on: Today at 08:47:47 AM »
Rumana – You start by writing, “My relationship with my mother was rough, but her death has still been difficult to accept on many levels.” I think that in itself is worth commenting in, for I know from losing my father and then my mother without any negative feelings or grief that what you felt or still feel is most likely due to early traumas, unexpressed pain, things that were missing in your upbringing.
   
The truth is that that the person is dead and is out of your physical life, but we carry all the memories, hurts, unexpressed anger and even murderous rage in us. We usually blame our parent for what we now face, as I did for years, for I carried revenge in me for years. But it is us that hangs on to or hasn’t found a way to express it all. Fortunately I was shown a way to express my misery and pain, my murderous rage, my heartbreaking cries and tears before their death, so I was left calm. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/the-healing-experience/ and https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/abreaction/

Many people do not realise that they have an inner mother equally as powerful as an external mother. You have taken in millions of bits of memory, lessons learnt, life experiences along with all the feelings or problems met by loving and living with your mother, and they are a major influence in your early life, and in a few cases the child never becomes independent from its mother at any age. This is true even if your mother was never there for you – you still have all the memories of her not being there for you filed under ‘Mother’. The memories and experience we gather unconsciously change us and are not lost. It is part of you and is symbolised in dreams as a person or event. Such an inner mother can appear in dreams because you are still deeply influenced by what you hold within you.  The inner mother can also signify what has been received via genes passed on or ancestral influences.

The first dream: The enter an experience in your life where what you knew has been stripped bare – meaning you are feeling a great change in yourself. I am not sure but your sister seems to represent the aspect of you that is an example for you and is taking care to explain something to you. When people are lyingdown with a white sheet covering them it often says that the person has died. So the example is saying the you need to let your past self die because a new you is emerging through the great changes you are facing. See River

Second dream: This is about the changes taking place in your life. The place where you lived is the psychological and experienced past you grew up in and it is still being altered by present experience. At the moment it seems to you that you may be experiencing a lot of emotions that are causing you not to be seeing clearly – the muddy waters – but your dreams says that this will change and everything will be better – the sun coming out.

Third dream: This is pointing the way ahead. The clothes you wear show the way you see yourself, the image – self image – you have of who you are. Clothes can depict the stance or attitudes we use to meet other people or special situations such as work or danger. They can also indicate a period or phase of ones life when you wore those clothes, and so associate with the activities, problems, or things you were experiencing at that time.

Things in you are undergoing change, even the ground you walk on is cracking up – it represents the ‘ground we stand on’; attitudes and relationships we have taken for granted; everyday life; the past.

You ask yourself/your dream sister, “What is happening?” Death coften confronts us with great change, so seeing your mother in white shows a new view of the afterlife and of your life. Although change can cause some people anxiety, everything is shown as good. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/the-healing-experience/

Tony