WarriorQueen – It is so good to hear of another copy of my book. I often wonder what they get up to out of my sight

. And in NewYork too!!
What you say about menopause touches me. I too have had a hard time with it because of what it did to my marriage. Also I entered a dream from a woman that really taught me so much. Please read
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/questions/#Meeting Menopause
If you wish to learn more about interpreting your own dreams I would suggest starting with the entry as follows, and slowly work through the other chapters/pages/sections.
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/practical-techniques-for-exploring-your-dreams/ Having so many dreams to look at and ponder upon I have learnt a great deal that was not included in the published book. So I would also suggest reading
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/dream-yoga/ Sorry – if am putting too much in front of you. I was quite moved by what you wrote – “I sensed the depth of trust in the world of dreams that I share”. So I am like a little boy rushing around trying to show you all my new toys. (I know I’m silly. I get worse the older I get).
As far as or dream is concerned, I feel it is a step toward meeting the difficult feelings you are in. Phillip is not someone you know, but is a part of your emergency medicine course. So it suggests that he is a part of you that is needed to meet the emergency you feel you are in life.
He was low on the list because you didn’t feel as if it was so important for you to meet and kiss him. And kissing can be many things, but I feel it relates to the fact that a kiss is always a merging with the person or creature that is the dream character. Because we are always, inside of ourselves, male and female and also everything we dream about, it may therefore be show you merging more fully with these other sides of you; or in your case a more full meeting with the male side of yourself. It is possible that although we may be born a white female, we also have within us the characteristics not only of the opposite sex, but also of the other racial types, animals, plants, and even minerals. So meeting Phillip is important way of becoming more whole.
The doctor aspect of you is also about healing. Her swinging stethoscope tucked into her chest pocket is, I believe, showing you that she is looking into you, into your heart, where you will find the answers to who you really are – not an ageing female.
Then the journals – Phillip can never leave you unless you kill him out, because he is your male self, and can be called on whenever you need him. Also he may appear in many guises – such is the nature of dreams and of course your own real nature, for you are a shape shifter.
You can find your way to a vital life by living your true self, and not all the illusions we usually take as truths. The truth is that you are a projection of Life itself in a body. Look around you at the flowers. They like you were young and showed their sexuality in all its colour and beauty. But then they changed and that is what Life wants us to do. It is your true nature to age and change as you get ready for your next journey. And believe me, it isn’t awful when we are in touch with Life that grew as and knows what it is doing.
Tony