Thanks Tony. Maybe the blue room is about 'feeling blue' too; maybe I also need to spend time acknowledging feeling blue........
It's interesting that you say what you do about grief; I think my issue is really that I have not been grieving enough: I haven't allowed the space and time to acknowledge the loss in order to move on. Whilst I agree that death is a marvellous thing, the reality is that when someone physically dies, there is a loss (in all sorts of ways: relationally, socially, physically) and, for me, I know that loss has to be acnowledged, embraced and let go in order to move to the new relationship with the person who has died.
The irony is that I am working with the dying, death and bereavement all the time with other people and I discuss these things with them - I can support other people in their struggles, losses and grief but it's when it's personal that it becomes a whole new ballgame; I can't teach myself through my 'head' I have to learn it with all of me.
I have been spending some time with the blue room........the decoration needs repairing before I can really sit and enjoy it's peace and coolness.........you're right; it has its rewards.
Thank you!