V – Thank you so much for giving so much information because it helps so much. But it was also very moving for me to read, because I have lived your story – but being 81 I can see it in perspective, and for the past 40 years have been self employed.
The earliest dream you were actually flying, but you were a passenger on someone else’s confidence – because flying is about personal confidence. So I feel you have inherited both a measure of confidence but also a good lump of anxiety about your own worth.
That’s OK because becoming independent takes time and is a part of ‘growing up’ and many never make it. But independence is a strange state, because we are never actually wholly independent, because we are part of a whole system called society, which provides the background for us to be independent in. If we can see that it makes it easier.
In the recent dream you crashed an Air Europe plane showing in dream terms that the ‘society’ that is the background to your ability to fly is from your upbringing in a European community.
Dreams tend to have a much larger view of who we are than we are raised to believe, so to really mature we need to accept and then grow beyond what we had been handed – part of what was given you was a narcissistic mother and a suicidal father. Such difficulties are put in your way to help you to develop the strength to be yourself. Read that again - the strength to be yourself!
What you crashed into was an airport building – maybe representing officialdom – so maybe part of what you face is apprehension about the power of the guys in charge – WOW that is a big one we must face up to if we/you are going to stand on your own feet and say to the world, “Well you old farts, I am going to f******* well do it, so watch out.”
Because you are a goddess of an old and wonderful life, but you keep forgetting who you are. So wake up to it, because it is true. Please read
https://dreamhawk.com/dream-dictionary/seed/ A bit of my own story may help, see
https://dreamhawk.com/tony-crisp/biographical-information/ - I was thrown out of school at 15 not knowing my ABC, couldn’t write a readable page of text. I gradually learn step by step, how to deal with the huge rocks in my way. But in my forties I decided to work for myself and had this dream:
“I was in the town where I grew up, and a man came up to me and placed a small piece of electronic equipment on top of my head. I understood it tested or showed the quality or state of one's being by giving out sounds. With me it gave a base rhythm, like a signal of brain activity or bioelectrical pulses. But above the base sound was a lovely higher theme that was very unusual. The man said this was the best response so far in the area. I knew that this gave me the opportunity to go to have some training, or at least, opened doors of opportunity for me.
Then I was standing looking along a road edged each side with jungle, stretching straight off into the distance. I knew that lions sometimes waited hidden to capture travelers walking the road. I stood trying to decide whether I would take the road.”
I worked on the dream using
https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/acting-on-your-dream/#BeingPerson and I saw the equipment meant it was a form of self-assessment saying I have an unusual ability - to collect information and see the overview of it; to look at dreams and social events and see what information it gives about collective society or humanity. As my wife said, that was my very first enthusiasm at our first interview with a person offering me a job with a national news paper.
That ability opens opportunity to me - the offer of doing an article about our findings from the dreams so far. There is no need though to get into a competitive spirit about this. That is, somebody else might be better. Everybody’s awareness is useful in the world at present. Also, because I have no degrees, official training, or backing, I have to decide whether I have courage enough to say what I see - i.e. take that road alone, despite the possibility of attack or censure from others.
So I sat and imagined walking that road, and sure enough lion after lion attacked me, but with each lion I realised they were all fears of failure, and fear is simply a feeling, not a prediction or a fact, so I walked on to a city ahead.
To quote parts of Kipling’s poem IF with slight changes –
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too
If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think-and not make thought your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And-which is more-you’ll be a Goddess, my daughter!
It might be worth looking at
https://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/opening-to-life/ - -
https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/integration-meeting-oneself/#Life Tony