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« on: December 09, 2017, 09:27:04 AM »
Hi again Tony
Would love some advice on this.
I often go through phases (usually over several consecutive nights) of feeling under-attack in a physical sense. I used to suffer from sleep paralysis which I was able to rationalise quite easily, however I have had several lucid dreams since the summer and I think there might be some astral projection going on. Without doubt, my dreams are a little out of control and sometimes they information comes through so fast and is so nonsensical that they often don't feel like my dreams at all.
More disturbingly, during these times I experience a type of sleep paralysis which is much more localised and I sometimes feel as though my energetic body is somehow being touched e.g. my head being turned from side to side, my legs being moved apart, even occasionally it has felt a bit like I'm being strangled. Sometimes there is a sexual nature to it. I say energetic body as I'm certain my physical body lies there as normal, but as with a lucid dream it feels completely real. As though there's an invisible human with me. It replicates sleep paralysis as I have to fight to break out of it. Even on once occasion, biting! Of course, like any other dream, I try to shout but I can't get the words out. Which adds to my perception that this is something which happens energetically. (For sure, there is no actual person in the room with me!) Most of the time I have my eyes open when it's happening but it's always when I'm drifting in or out of sleep.
I wouldn't say there were any very specific emotions accompanying this. I'm shocked by it and perhaps there is fear but it doesn't feel as palpable as I would expect. It still feels quite dream like. It has sometimes left me feeling quite "haunted" the day after and saddened by it. I've experienced similar things for years but only this year has brought these lucid dreams and this human-like "tustle". I've had a pretty great year for self healing and wellness. Stress has been there for sure and I've had to face some difficult times, but I'm feeling very open, very happy and grounded. I'm certain my mental health is fine.
I really hope you can advise. As you can imagine it's not easy to think where to go with this! (I have spoken with a Shamanic healer, and a medium just for opinions)
Many thanks, Kate