Dreamy - The biggest question - I tried to answer here -
https://dreamhawk.com/inner-life/big-bang-and-god-are-the-same/ Also you gave birth - "Like any mother, you can dream and create something that wonderfully adds to you. You create it from all that you have gathered of life, as if you have reached up to the sunlight, the clouds in the blue sky, and added the moon and stars, and pulled them into you and brought forth through the blood and tribulation of your body's life, the wholeness of body, soul and spirit shown as the spheres.
Captain of your big boat, “I had a very powerful sense of knowing I was never wholly an individual."
I had an experience of feeling the enormity of the forces and influences that brought me into being. Like a huge organisation that one can resist, but never win, because of its enormity. So one can uselessly fight, or join. I felt this to be like a massive Corporation or company - perhaps like Fords. But it was a company that was behind everything everywhere in the world. So there was no way to avoid it by joining another company. It represented life itself and whether we are going to work with it or try to avoid it.
I had an image of a merry-go-round with different places on the outside, like the different horses. Each might think it is making its personal movements, because as one goes up, and another goes down. But they are all moved by the same machinery. So we too like to believe we are individuals, but underneath we are all moved by the overall organisation - or company. This was so scary at first I wanted to resist it, even though resistance is pointless. But then I decided to join. I saw myself as a tube, a brain cell, fitting in, taking my place amidst other cells. It felt good.
I then had an experience in regard to my decision to enter the company and asked what I needed to do. I thought I would be pushed into being like factory workers and felt somewhat defeated. But a manager came to me and said that what I was already doing in life was fine. I could do whatever I wanted, as a part of this immense company I had the freedom to do what I liked. The Company encompassed everything. All it asked of me was to wear a little gadget like a mobile phone. It represented intuition. I was told that if there was a big move within the Company I would be told what it was, and if I wished to I could cooperate.”
You, the boat and the ocean are simply different ways of looking at what you are – it is all you in the biggest sense. Also while lucidly dreaming – I did not confuse the nameless with the name - or the name with the nameless. “I became lucid in my sleep and was witnessing all the processes in my body, not as dream images, which I had passed through in another lucid experience. I held the question is there another level beyond what I am experiencing? Immediately I was in a state where I was nothing and yet everywhere, the ultimate state. Then suddenly it became known that there was a level beyond this condition. Then I was in the new level, where I was at the same moment myself in everyday life and in a body, and in a state without any sense of self and without shape or form. Everything, all opposites transcended, I was everything at the same time.”
Tony