Sharlee – When you think or feel anything about someone – your husband for instance – your thoughts and feelings are never actually that person, just your own thoughts and feelings. Dreams do exactly the same thing, so you are not dreaming about your husband, but ARE reviewing what you feel, hope, and think about him.
I guess you had something of a ‘bible’ background, along with meatloaf feelings; but they are no longer any great influence in your life.
You are obviously ready to make it up with him, but from what you say, he finds it hard enough to cope with his own inner world, and dealing with another person in overload. See
http://dreamhawk.com/approaches-to-being/lifes-little-secrets/Your dream illustrates that you have the ability to survive by not killing out your feelings for him, but letting him be – as at the end of the dream. Keep the feeling, that nothing has happened going, like a meditation, as in the dream. It may sound unreal, but it is really saying that despite all, you are okay, and there is no blame on you.
Tony