Well – Of course I am willing to share. Remember that while I ran and organised groups I never staid in the leader position but always joined in the action as a participator. It was always a learning situation.
At the moment I hardly ever dream in images. I think I explained previously somewhere that there are two types of dream state, the REM state which is full of images, emotion and action. Then there is the NREM state that is without images and is a long stream of thinking or problem investigating/solving. My sense is that for ages I am in a half sleep half-awake state and cannot remember any dream – or at least, not recently - in the past I usually remembered about three of more dreams a night, now I remember about one a month.
My last experience was - May 13th 2016
Last night I was suddenly awoken by the sound of a woman's voice calling my name. I realised as I awoke that it was an inner voice calling me, but it felt exactly as if a real person had called me and the calling woke me.
This led me to remember when I last heard a voice call like that. It was while working with a friend, John, who owned a hotel. I was mending something for him on a flat roof of his private house. Meanwhile he had driven away to the hotel. About twenty minutes after he had gone I heard him shout my name with great urgency. In fact, he called me twice. I was puzzled and thought he must have returned without me noticing. As the tone of voice carried urgency I climbed off the roof and went in search of him. Moments later the telephone rang in his house. It was John, still at the hotel. He had just turned the water on for the first time after a spell of cold weather, and pipe bursts were apparent all over the hotel. He had rushed to the phone to call me for help. In some way I had ‘heard’ him call before he reached the telephone.
The hotel was about a mile away on the other side of the town. There was obviously no way I could have heard his voice with my physical ears. So whatever signal John’s anguished desire for my presence created, my mind had turned it into what appeared to be his actual voice calling me.
I have often hear voices from within talk to me. They usually give useful information.
The one before that was - April 15th 2016
Last week I dreamt I saw a new nasturtium, the first one this spring. I remembered the dream as I walked into the garden, so I went to look, and there is was, with its first leaves open and proud.
This morning I remember dreaming I was in relationship with a woman, and was probably living in her house, but it seemed like a fairly new relationship. Her brother wanted to talk with me and me with him. I believe I wanted his opinion of his sister, and he wanted to talk about his problem of getting an erection. We both appeared to be about in our thirties. I explained to him that I had experienced it twice and it was often because it was with a new partner and so one was a little nervous. I said that I remained confident and loving and humorous in the relationship and the problem disappeared; once in such a situation I sang the song – there goes another rubber tree plant – we both laughed at the time. I meant that if one didn’t think or feel the situation was an awful problem, but saw it simply as a result of being nervous it had a different feeling. The situation is usually about being nervous, not about having an awful problem.
But a lot of experience happens while awake – like the dream process breaking through into waking life. I don’t know, but great rushes of feeling and realisation occur a great deal, and so I wonder if perhaps I do not need to dream so much because I dream while awake. This might be because the years of practising LifeStream allowed so much material breaking through it is easier and happens often. See
http://dreamhawk.com/body-and-mind/peoples-experiences-of-lifestream/ Last night I was with a friend and we opened up together. It arose that I felt that I had lived such a varied life, had changed enormously and dared to experience great journeys in the inner world/unconscious, that I can relax now as I am getting nearer to death. It might be several years before I leave, it doesn’t matter, because I can rest and relax – a good feeling. But of course I still love writing and trying to respond well to your communications.
But big themes – well maybe a great desire to synthesise what I have gathered and write about it, to add my part to the many others who are trying to do the same.
Tony