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« on: June 30, 2018, 11:49:49 AM »
Hello Tony.
Had a really strange dream the other night.
Here are my current personel circumstances...
I recently went on a trip to Holland and Amsterdam with my girl friend of 4 years. Shes a good few years older than me and i have had it in the back of my mind for a long time that at some point it will have to end, Also she has a 12 year old daughter who can be difficult to say the least. My girlfriend has so many responsibilites that theres very often little time for us. And I do all the things like cooking buying food ect. We are still independent with our money ect and live in different houses though across the road from each other but when its time for 1 of us to stay at the others house more often than not I stay at hers. I often feel very angery when she cant do the couple thing with me because of all her responsibilities. Mother in a care home, job, just bought a house, ex husband, property, Yoga centre with ex husband whos trying to push her out of her higher percentage ect ect. So anyway we went to Amsterdam and smoked some grass and hash. First time for me in 20 years, her too I reckon. We had a great time and in a way id say we kind of went on some kind of shamansitic journey together and really bonded. I was singing on the karioke and people were asking if I was a professional musician. Have studyed music some but have also dropped it a few times also. When we got back to spain, where we live, there was no hiding anymore and the relationship ended. Also on the holiday we went to a cat cafe in limburg, holland, there were cats walking about the place, very strange. When we got back it felt like there was a weird cat energy and that that was keeping us apart after we parted. It was like there was a type of cat for me a shorted haired mongel street cat and a type of cat for her a more refiend long white haired pedigree. She always let me travel alone as she is always busy but the last time i went home to England she told me there was a red cat hanging about around outside my apartment and said to her daughter that it was a Mernell cat. I dont know if what we were smoking made us more in tune with these energies or it was just what we were smoking but im glad to say the effects of the drug have worn off now. After our apprupt break up, I didnt want to stay where we live, so I got on a plane and Im now in Berlin, with a guitar having a time out, in order to give us both the space we need. So on to the dream...
I was at my house, I think she was there, it wasnt my house it was more like a rustic spanish casa from 200 years ago. Suddenly all the people ive met on my travels whom ive thought were really interesting started arriving at my house. I invited them in but there were too many of them and maybe some I didnt even know and I said to someone to let them in to my bedroom to accommodate them all. they began to wreck and destory everything, I think just by the sheer volume of people. I left the house. When I returned everyone was gone and everything was destroyed only dust and parts of a sort of cottonish foam stuff that resembled what is found inside a quilt. My bedroom was realativly OK, I knew it would be, just that there was dust everywhere and the bed had come slightly away from its postion aginst the wall. Then I remembered my girlfriend.
I thought that she had been destroyed too. I began frantically calling her name and running around the house looking for her, fearing that I had lost her. I ran up stairs and found her in a state of confusion. I began hugging her, overjoyed to see her and that she hadnt been lost and also very relieved.