Hi Tony, I hope you are well.
I have a lot of trauma dreams, so when I have a dream that's neither stress nor trauma it stands out, but this one actually had awe and wonder.
I met yet again this same guy who has been entering my dreams for three years now, he is always either leading me somewhere or trying to connect with me and I keep him at arms length as I don't know if he is trustworthy. Also I feel I'm not pretty enough for him and he's successful and I'm not. I just can't believe he would want me.
This dream he is incredibly warm and chatty, we are sitting at a hotel bar, it feels safe and not too flirtatious. (This is the first dream I've actually had such close intimate engagement with him that lasted more than a minute) I feel attracted to him but insecure. To protect myself I get up to leave 'oh no you're not leaving?' He says 'I have to go home' I say. 'I have no home, he says, they won't even give me the keys to my hotel room' I don't reply. A woman comes excitedly calling my name and says I really should go to a backtoback play that's on. I go, its in the location of a literary festival I attended recently, a huge estate house, but instead of a play, it's two courts taking place simultaneously, the high court and the Supreme Court, I go into a huge hall with lots of wood to watch the supreme first.
Then I'm back walking out of the hotel where I'd been leaving the guy, outside its moonlight clear, bright. A small old man is walking in front of me. I look up and I'm awestruck by what I see, I can't understand it at first.. but then I shout 'it's an eclipse!' The old man doesn't even look up just carries on walking in front of me. Above me there is a lunar eclipse just passing, at the point of eclipse it's like a dark grey smoke is emitting from it, inside the smoke/across the eclipse rainbow colours shimmer. Then a coloured disc flies out from it and dissipates in the air near me, it's exactly like a piece of art work I had done to promote my last major creative work seven years ago. I look up then and the moon is huge and really bright and the eclipse slowly slips across it. I think 'oh I wish x (the guy I'd been chatting with) was here to see this with me.. but I feel elated to have seen something so surprising. I feel the energy of the rainbow colours as something deeply magical. The whole thing like I'd just witnessed some sort of cosmic ritual being used perhaps to cleanse and create. The happiness stays with me for a few days when I think back on seeing the eclipse.