I'm watching a movie in a large concert hall. I'd come to see live music. When I arrived I was disappointed to see a guy I know to be very competetive with me, no matter how uncompetitive I am. I feel my body shiver from his horrible energy, I walk past with my head down hoping he doesn't try talk to me. I'm annoyed they are putting on a movie, I was looking forward to the music, I didn't want to see a movie. It's a horrible one too. It's about a serial attacker who goes around cutting people's tongues out.
There are lots of close ups of tongues being dropped onto tables etc, but there is no blood and they look very healthy and clean and I think one at least is covered in fine grains of sugar. Now I'm a part of the movie, I'm outside in the late evening, it's cold, getting dark. I'm sitting at a small table and a young sinister man in his early twenties is standing nearby. He's the attacker. I do my usual 'kind person' thing, worry he is cold and try to get him to sit with me, where there is shade from the wind and where it is warmer.. of course I feel good about myself as I do this..
When I wake I'm scared and angry, here I go again, being oblivious to danger, inviting connection where other people would run a mile. 'Give what you wish to receive' those simplistic philosophies are hard to shake, and cause a lot of trouble. My instincts, my compass around danger, broken. And all those tongues, so disturbing.
Tongue..I'm just a piece of meat. Eat me. I'm a childhood sweet. Nothing to see or hear here. Now I'm free out in the light and fresh air.
Man.. I hate, I hate, I hate. Everyone just shut uuuup. I'm the king around here. Shut your mouths.
Me the woman.. I'm afraid. Afraid afraid. The only way I can keep safe is not to anger this man, try pconnect with him somehow, otherwise he'll kill me next.
Ok now I feel differently about the dream behaviour, in fact it was probably the best approach. If someone very dangerous is near, better not show your fear, better try make things normal, nice etc.. offer them a cup of tea. Try neutralise their aggression.