I had a dream a few nights ago that I've been meaning to share. In my dream was a series of plane crashes. The planes would come apart midair, actually very high in the atmosphere, and in one of the crashes, another planes wing shreds the fuselage. I was an observer in this dream. I wasn't in the planes.
Life's generally pretty good right now. My fiance seems to be happy with me for the first time in a long time. I've been doing more around the house lately. I'm also looking in to going ahead and getting my CPA. I just worry, because my heart's not in it. It sounds good and I'm in a position where I have the time and resources to accomplish it. Maybe I just need to do it, but I think I'm afraid I'll get lost in it or it will lead to bigger problems down the road. Right now, life is simple for me and I kinda like it that way. Maybe, it's also the idea of change that scares me. I just now feel like we're getting in to a groove. Then again, maybe getting back into Accounting is exactly what I need to do to keep the groove going.
But I'm also motivated to do it as a way of revenge. I worked for 6 months with a local accounting firm and it didn't end well. I was fired. I didn't mesh well with the office manager. She ran the day-to-day operations and was very authoritative, even with the partners. I honestly believe she was intimidated by me. In the same breathe she was firing me she was also telling me how stupid I am. In the moment I was too worked up to think about what that meant. To me that just shows that I make her feel insecure. It's one thing to fire someone, but another to insult them in the process. And, on top of that, she said they would give me a recommendation, but not as an accountant. I took cuts on pay and hours for the opportunity to work there. It was suppose to be a career builder. And they sent me out the door in a worse position than when I started. So yeah, a large part of me wants to obtain my CPA strictly to smear it in their faces.