Lately I've been feeling confused and heartbroken. For the past two years I've been involved in an online relationship. I was never sure if he was sincere, but he said he was, and as time went on he became less and less interested.
So, I had this dream of him. We were in a bathroom and I was hugging him, then caught his reflection in the mirror. He was a demonic looking vampire. I wasn't shocked or afraid. In my dreams I'm not emotionally reactive like I am in real life. I didn't want to let him know that I knew this about him so I pretended like I didn't see it in hopes that I could later help him. What I felt during the dream was deep compassion and love.
Why would I be so calm in my dreams, yet in real life I get panic attacks and surges of doubt and confusion? I think it's because in my dream i have access to all knowledge and it's the lack of not knowing for sure that stresses me out the most. If I only knew I could take a steady approach, but when you don't even know the full truth your mind plays all these tricks on you.