I have an old love appearing in my dreams almost every night. I am partnered with children but I recently have been in contact with this person after a 13 year absence. We live in different countries.
*Dream-My home was in a small village where the houses were connected by water. People travelled between houses freely in small canoes and there was a warm, community feeling to the village. 'Old Love' just appeared and I knew he had come from a long way away. I felt a deep happiness and contentment wash over me just to feel his presence. He was silent and very steadfast and confident in his presence in my world, just having him there was a huge comfort to my soul. I felt a lot of things relax inside me. I felt safe and seen when he looked at me. We attended a family dinner and some members of my extended family questioned Old Love's presence, they were asking me who he was and why he was there. I felt very strongly and spoke up assertively about how right it was that he was in my world, after that there was a feeling of all encompassing love and acceptance coming from everyone for him and he looked very much at home, as if he knew everyone. We wanted to be alone and go for an explore so me and Old Love jumped into a canoe. I paddled. It was very peaceful, we didn't talk but there was a feeling of complete and utter understanding, we just looked at each other and smiled. We arrived at a small rocky mountain and we played on it for a while jumping around the rocks and having fun. We hopped back in the canoe and paddled some more. The water was very calm and still but I'm not sure how deep, I don't think it was neither very shallow nor very deep. Some sort of sea creature kept swimming up to us, about 4 or 5 of them. In my dream I couldn't identify the animals to myself, I was perplexed by them but not scared. It had fur and a friendly face and if I had to relate it to something in the real world I would say a beaver. Then we came to a bank and there were friendly looking stingrays lying on their backs eating some sort of other sea creature that was being thrown directly into their mouths by some people, I was perplexed by this in the dream because the creatures they were eating resembled sharks and seemed bigger than the stingrays mouths but they gobbled them down easily. The stingrays seemed like very peaceful, happy creatures to me, they seemed comfortable with our presence. We kept paddling and then I noticed that my end of the canoe was slowly submerging in the water and my bum was getting wet. The canoe was made of a woven cane material, when I looked at it I wondered how water hadn't entered up until now. I didn't feel in danger as we could easily make it safely to a shore line and I could keep us afloat by thrusting my body upwards and paddling harder. Old Love was across from me still smiling, he didn't seem worried. In the dream it seemed so normal that I was the only one paddling and he was just watching me.
-When I woke up from this dream I felt very sad and I cried a lot. I felt a deep sense of yearning for that 'knowing' look of love that you share with a person. It says 'I get you' and the feeling of 'getting' another person and being 'gotten' gives both such a sense of wellbeing and desire. In waking life it made me question whether I should be in contact with this person or not, I love talking to him but I feel that it is disruptive to my life.