Chris – The end of what you wrote about feeling insignificant reminds me of a time in my life when I was in the middle of an intense and painful depression. At that time a friend of my wife was visiting and I could not bear being around her jolliness and sureness in herself. So I hid in our junk room sitting on the floor. I had been there for some time and the woman came into the room smiling talking to me like a child who was sulking and she would jolly me out of it. All I wanted was to be left alone till she had gone, and such a rage rose in me her coming in was like opening the door to a fire letting the air in. I started to rise and the woman could see she had made a mistake and ran out of the room.
Looking back I can see that we are all creatures who have been conditioned, and you had been born and conditioned by being made to feel inferior. I had been conditioned to be made to feel like a castrated male, who had become a passive female character – apart from other things. It takes a long time to recognise and change such conditioning. But every effort we make toward it is a step toward wholeness. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/what-we-need-to-remember-about-us/#VictimsYour dream tells a different story. It appears to be an entrance into your inner world beyond any harm – a ceremony to allow a different part of you a chance to live and be known. Also it was a return to childhood – the small you beneath the skirts. Some times we have to regress to grow again undoing the damage done.
You have a very creative side of you that is still passive but has such riches of creativity that can be awoken. And then the full healthy woman that you are under any damage done is shown to you to strive for.
It is about a future that can be achieved.
Tony