Dan69 – I cannot see how your dream links with any suggestion you are going to die.
You start in the bedroom, and there is no mention of a partner sharing the room with you. Also you are sitting suggesting you are in a passive situation but not sleeping, so I wonder what you are waiting for. Are you hoping thins will change instead of actively doing something about them?
Then you notice the water coming though – holes in your roof – meaning your coping strategies are not what they should be. In a literal sense if you had holes in your roof you would straight away try to fix them- showing your passive attitude?
The reply to your father is very revealing, considering that all the people, animals, places you see in your dreams, are simply your own feelings, fears, hopes and wonder projected onto the screen of your sleeping mind as images. You said that you don’t know what is happening – showing you have not paid enough attention to keeping aware of yourself. Observing your own ebb and flow of thoughts and feelings, your own habits and responses to things, is one of the most powerful of tools to use in transforming your life. This also leads to a fuller connection with your intuitive connection with your core. See
http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/self-observation/ But your dream changes because; having seen the holes in your roof you can see sunshine and trees. Then you are observing yourself, no longer passive. I am not sure, but I think that is saying that through seeing and exploring your anxieties, you can break through to finding sunshine and growth. But that is still just a suggestion for activity, for you are still just watching. You could try taking a yoga class, of joining a hiking group – just suggestions.
Tony