Golden Wolf

A quote from my book House of the Ancestors

Within a couple of weeks I experienced a dream which shows the level of my involvement with Dakota. In the dream I was in a hospital ward holding a beautiful child born to Dakota and I. Instead of hair it had downy feathers on its head, and even in the dream I knew this was because our child was gifted with the winged mind. I kissed him on the head feeling the soft feathers with my lips.

Dakota was in an adjoining ward, but only separated by a low wall. So as I held the baby she talked to me telling me something about her mother-in-law.

I woke from the dream with a very good feeling. It showed that something special and beautiful had already risen from our relationship. When I told Dakota about the dream she said, “My God, you didn’t take long to get me knocked up.” Such is her humour.

The separating wall clearly indicated the nature of our relationship. We can talk to each other but have no visual or physical contact. That was clear enough without the dream, but the talk of the mother-in-law took my attention more fully to things I needed to be aware of at that time. Dakota was married, and any attempt on my part to draw her away from her husband and child would not only deeply affect them, but would include all the other family connected to their marriage. Our love needed to be tender and caring in a way many relationships are. We needed to be non possessive without seeking immediate gratification.

Fortunately neither Dakota nor I are jealous people. So we could give real support to each other’s individual needs. My own jealousy had been burnt out in a previous relationship. I had found that a love which allows the other person to live their own life in their own way, is much more satisfying and less painful than the grasping, controlling love of what appears to me as a long drawn out childhood form of relationship. See

When I explored the feelings involved in our baby, was when I felt the core of the dream. As I as the baby, I knew myself to be what my parents had brought forth through their love. In fact I was something not only living in them, but something that had separate existence also. I knew myself as the power of a love that can exist despite distance, despite great age difference, despite the difficulties of one partner being married. I am an expression of a love that has created a spiritual dimension, a form of awareness and connection that exists beyond the body. I am the winged mind, leaping beyond the body’s limitations and boundaries. I am a force independent of my parents, and will touch many lives, helping to create a meeting point beyond time and distance. Dakota and I named our child Golden Wolf.

This morning I entered the inner lodge to spend time in prayer and meditation. I felt the peace and power of what we have created and sought to link it to all who have connections with me.

I sat on the buffalo robes, but before I could enter into any depth of meditation, Golden Wolf stood before me. He said to me, “Father, what are you doing here?”

I told him I had come to share what I have found with others through the spirit link. He took my hand and said, “This is not where you should be at the moment. There are other things for you to do.” And he led me out of the lodge till we stood before a city on a hill. “You have entered upon a new cycle of your work, and this is where you should be now, among people.”

And looking at him, so sure and strong, I asked him, “What of you? What are you in the life of myself and your mother?”

He stood in front of me without speaking, looking directly into my eyes, and vanished. But in moments he reappeared, and walking with me towards the city gates, for it was a walled city, and rising in levels, he said to me, “I am the winged mind that has come to birth more fully in yourself and mother. You came together because of the love you both needed of each other. But other things have drawn you together also. There is a quality you generate in each other that calls out the life of the spirit. This is a living thing that grows, and in your togetherness you feed and water it. The intensity of your meeting has created a link between you that has leapt beyond the space that separates you. The time of your physical togetherness cemented this link. And now the space between you does not interfere with what grows and flourishes through that link.”

We entered the city and I realised I knew this place from the past. It was a place of initiation, where one could only enter the different levels of the city as one learned certain lessons. And here, I realised, in the outer and the inner life my work was now to be a teacher. “And what of you my son?” I asked. He too looked around at the city, and after moments said, “As the winged mind I move through dimensions of which you are as yet only barely aware. Through your love of me I will bring you both awareness of these places within the scheme of things. You gave me life. I will give you greater freedom and a creative gift.”

In Dreams The Mind Has Wings


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