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We are in the middle of several great wars, but unlike past wars using bullets and bombs, these use far more subtle yet devastating methods.

A war that has been happening for thousands of years is that between the ruling class, the governing body, those with great wealth – and the workers, slaves, the ordinary population.

Governments ask you to vote on anything except this – an even and fair sharing of the nations wealth. It is unfortunately true that those we vote into power often end up millionaires. Or if they are already millionaires their wealth is increased.

But things are much worse than you think – so please see this report – it is extraordinary.   Click on the image below to see it –

It sometimes means that the impoverished cannot even care for their babies.

I guess the dog had a sense that some people cared even for street dogs and so took the baby there where he had found someone who could be trusted with living things.

What can we do about it? All I have to share are my own responses.

As mentioned, many battles are not fought with bullets any more, they use things like our uneducated tastes, heightened by advertising and films that use incredibly powerful suggestions – such as, if you are really living an enjoyable or creative life, or is you need to deal with stress you are shown people drinking whiskey. Strange because all spirits are poisonous, but obviously a slow one.

There is that old joke about a man who is obviously drunk, and a doctor says to him, “Don’t you know that drinking is a slow death!” To which the drunk says, “That’s okay. I’m not in a hurry to die.” See health risks of Alcohol.

Another battle we need to fight is the way the majority of us are literally eating our way to serious illnesses. Several nation wide studies has pointed out that we are literally giving ourselves cancer, diabetes and other serious illnesses by daily eating what we do. If you watch this video it shows exactly how our illnesses are caused. Also it shows cases of serious cancer cured by a change in diet without the use of medical drugs, that are literally poison.

To me the video shows that if a change in diet can cure a serious cancer, then our normal diet is the cause of most of our illnesses. The video The Magic Pill was originally available on You Tube but was blasted of by many law suites, and is not only available on Netflix https://www.netflix.com/watch/80238655?trackId=13752289&tctx=0%2C0%2Ceaa3de7eea5facb4220ef02d7f995bc3d726afad%3A4e116d5cd1c98820d8d4e97d0d04b0d54356dc61%2C%2C

The reason it was harshly criticised was shown clearly in the video in following the case of a South African doctor. He found that many of his patients were ill because of their diet, and he suggested eating

• Whole and organic foods
• Eliminate processed foods, grains, and legumes
• Edge out bad fats (vegetable oils) with healthy fats (olive and coconut oils, animal fats, eggs, and avocados)
• Aim to consume free-range animals and wild caught seafood
• Introduce bone broths, organ meats, fermented foods, and intermittent fasting into your diet
• That means stop buying or eating manufactured foods. Most of us do not realise white flour, white rice and white sugar are highly manufactured, eating them causes the body to make up the huge deficit they cause, because all the goodness has been ripped away from them. So eating white bread and all white flour products like pancakes, biscuits, cakes, is like taking in spoonfuls of sugar, for as soon the white flour or white rice starts digesting it turns into sugar. We have been lied to that avoiding natural fats such as butter and full fat milk was what causes overweight. It is not, it is all the massive sugar intake from manufactured food.

This caused so much criticism from other doctors he was ridiculed and so was knocked out of the doctors clique. But he fought it and in the major law court proved them wrong and was reinstated. But of course the opposition which are the producers of the artificial food we eat, companies earning millions, are trying to down him again.

I switched to the diet promoted by the video in May 2018. I was not fanatical about eating exactly as suggested, partly because I am a low wage earner and cannot afford all it suggested; also I love dark chocolate and occasional sweet things. But in 20o8 I experienced a serious stroke which paralysed my right side; I recovered my speech and most movements, but in 2018 my walking was difficult, leaving my right foot dragging. Also all my life I had an irregular heartbeat, and at 81 had developed a middle/old age spread and a domed abdomen. But after just three months of the diet my heart beat is apparently regular, my domed belly has slowly gone down – still a bit to let go of; my walking has improved enormously and heal and toe walking is developing instead of dragging, and generally feel more alive.

So fight the good fight. Illegitimi non carborundum – A rough translation is – Don’t let the bastards wear you down.

Ask yourself which giant corporations are earning billions and are not putting it back into the community, but have massive savings, often overseas. If they are doing it, why are you still buying their goods?

Or maybe you might try:

The Funding Circle (https://www.fundingcircle.com/uk/) – Recently saving has seemed pointless because banks pay almost zero interest. But my son introduced me to Funding Circle, which brings interest between 6% and 10%. It does this by loaning money to small businesses –  what I save helps.
In the UK even your ISA savings can earn this higher interest.
Links for FC are –

UK = https://www.fundingcircle.com/uk/
USA = https://www.fundingcircle.com/us/
Germany = https://www.fundingcircle.com/de/
Nederland = https://www.fundingcircle.com/nl/

That is a huge one sided battle that has been lost by even the middle classes, but it is only one of many. For many have been infected with the nihilistic modern philosophy, feeling they and their lives are meaningless. There is a huge idea being presented that we are nothing but a meaningless dot lost in the immensity if space.

So there is also a battle going on between those who feel connected with life, living creatures and the universe, and those who fight against such feelings and ideas.

“I woke early his morning to pee. As I woke I was aware of having been dreaming, but I could not remember what the dream was. However, I was experiencing a strong feeling of being connected with all things. I had a deep sense of being part of everything, and of everything being a part of me. It was very real and I had a spontaneous image of standing in a great garden, an immense place of creation and unity – the Garden of Eden feeling. As this happened I had an insight that most of the people in the world do not have, and perhaps do not want to be a part of this unity. This thought, in the way it was experienced was completely new to me. I couldn’t understand why anyone would not want to experience this wonder and communion. I knew I was at the wedding feast, the celebration of life or creation. It was a wonderful feeling to be a part of this mystery. Therefore the realisation that many people did not want this was slightly shocking or unnerving. It made me ask myself the question of whether I was naive, perhaps not seeing or realising something. This realisation went on to the sense that in fact a sort of battle was going on between those who were part of the celebration, and those who didn’t want it. I thought that those who didn’t want it were perhaps frightened of losing the control they thought they had over their life and the world. I knew I was playing a part in this battle or struggle.”

I do wonder whether the nihilistic philosophy is part of a war on any living creatures motivation to exist and fight against any opposition. I see that many, many people are certain that if their brain is injured badly or they suffer Alzheimers they as a person ceases to exist.

But having suffered a serious stroke so that I could not move, I couldn’t speak and had lost control of my body, to the extent that I wet the bed until a nurse put a catheter in my body. I wasn’t ‘with it’ at all. Also I probably looked a mess, as due to the stroke the right side of my face, so I have been told, was still sagging. But in fact all I was aware of was just peace and calm love.

In that wonderful state of mind I looked at the faces of my family and friends and ‘read’ what they felt with extraordinary awareness. I could see and respond to the deep panic at their thought that I might be dying; the sureness and love in the face of death, the strange struggle between loving and holding back, and the tender presence. But because of my brain damage I could express none of that, so I see the brain as a method to express through the body, but the body is not us.

Here is an image of a brain known to be in a vegetative state, and yet the brain activity is vast

Signs of consciousness in People who are Considered Vegetative

I know it is not thought of as usual, but I remember being in my mothers womb. At the time I had no sense of being a person but was a living creature.

I felt like a life form existing in a pond of water, and something threatening me was attacking me. (I was born with jaundice). Of course at that time I had no words or clear thoughts to attach to such an event. All I can say is that the integrity I felt was me, so I felt what I imagine a tree or a plant might experience in being attacked by bacteria or bugs. The plant doesn’t have a centre of awareness giving it an identity, but it does respond, it does attempt to defend itself in various ways. It does try to preserve the integrity of its own form and function and fights against anything attacking it. So I believe when I was a baby, even as a foetus in its early stages of development I was faced with attack or disease, I believe the life form I was felt threatened and did battle against attack.

That is a basic instinct in living beings, and anything which undermines that is an attack against the person is felt as an attack, something we need to do battle with.

But many, as this young man says, “I feel that I haven’t any meaning, that there is no point to my existence. I am really feeling my “drop out” self is taking over. There must be so many people just like this, who feel they have no point, nothing to do, no point for doing it, no reason for existing.”

But it is a realisation many come to in this time of great change, that there isn’t any reason. We know there isn’t any reason, any god. But if the do not run away when you realise that, they may come to see that, “I am my own life and strength”.

One day I experienced that my self. and described it as, “The path I had chosen led me to a hill, and when I reached the top I was on the edge of a precipitous drop. The view was extraordinary, like looking into a vast void. It was like seeing into everything, and with a sinking heart I could sense no being, no God, just a huge impersonal space.

The feeling floored me and I sat there and gave up on any hope of finding what I had hoped for – a sort of wonderful welcome. But as I sat a deep quietness grew in me – I had given up everything! And that was when a quiet bliss grew in me, and I realised that many others had got to the same spot and sat there. I also realised that I had been seeking an external god, and in giving up my search and becoming quiet had found the inner god that we all are.”

For we are told in Genesis, “So God created man in his image, in the image of God created He him; male and female created He them.”

When you have so many wolves around, it is not good to act like sheep. So, it is true that when we truly give up our life long control and struggle to survive and cope, we gain an amazing companion who fights with us – it is our connection with what has lived through all wars and battles – Life.

How can we find this contact?

As Elliot so rightly said –

I said to my soul, be still and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So, the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.

I had tried all sorts of methods and approaches, and none had worked, so I decided to sit each day for about 30 minutes without any aims or expectations. For in the past I had meditated for hours, done energetic yoga and breath control; true that had effects, but none brought peace and satisfaction. So I gave up trying, and sat with the feeling that if there was a reality beyond what I knew that could help me, I would simply wait without expectations. After some months of this, one night when I was returning to bed from going to the toilet, I heard a disembodied voice say, “You have asked what are the results of God’s activity upon one – now watch closely.”

That was the beginning of the huge change that entered my life. It wasn’t about being in control of ones life, or planning ones  future, but occasionally surrendering ones control and purpose to something bigger than oneself and finding a wonder.

Many have fought the wars mentioned above, but another war that few are the veterans of is one that takes great courage and perception; it is the war and conflict that all of us are involved in without many being aware of.

The fight is against the human fears, anxieties and terrors many are subdued by, the great emotions that tear people lives apart. Also the enormous amount of failure, shame, sense of personal defeat that crush many of us. But the height of the battle we meet is within ourselves, our very nature.

We can be crushed by difficult events, by the loss of someone, by an accident, by criticism or even by our own moods. Sometimes we allow parts of us such as love or creativity actually crush us. Perhaps without being really aware of it, you already know your body is a screen. When you see a film or read a book you might be moved to laugh or cry, or shout out in fear. Considering that the book and film is not reality, what is happening?

But the essence is that we are capable of reaching into wider awareness, in which you leave the limited view of the three dimensional world most of us are trapped in, and enter a world beyond what is usually known, because our physical senses tend to leave us almost blind and deaf because our eyes are only sensitive to 1% of visible light, amd only 1% of audible sound – and as for smell we are only wriggling grubs compared with dogs and other mammals. Our body life is to learn important lessons by being locked in time, space and our body, with its gender and limitations.

Well, the outside images or words are helping you to experience things upon the sensitive screen of your body and mind. You had buttons pressed that produced fear, anxiety, sexual excitement or any mixture of feelings. Yet whenever we feel such responses, it is not like real life, because you mind is nothing like outer life where things could hurt you, but is surface upon which images, words and events are more like a cinema screen that even if a gun is pointed at you and fired it can do no damage – except if you run in fear. So all the things that influence you are simply your own fears, emotions and imagination projected onto the screen of your  mind.

If you recognise that your fear, your emotions are all changing, and are all produced by you reactions to them. Behind the changing world of you emotions is the still non changing screen of you mind – the real you.

Example: I dreamt of being with a woman who was desperately seeking a man. I was also with my own female companion. I believe the woman had been suddenly dropped by her man, and I and my partner were close and with her.

Still in the semi-awake state I tried ‘being’ the woman, and had a very clear response. I experienced being her, but was also me with experience of seeing into myself in some degree. I saw that the woman, like most of us, was a female creature whose instinctive drive was to find a mate. But she was not aware of this as an instinctive drive but as a personal feeling. As such she had become, like many women and men, lost in a huge web of personal ideas about whether they were attractive, sexy, with many complications about love, gender mixed with childhood unconscious traumas and the heartbreak all that brings.

Our emotions and feelings about ourselves are like a keyboard that is played upon by people and events. If we are praised or rewarded our self confidence and therefore performance will usually be enhanced. That is fine except it means we will usually depend upon the world and events to create our moods and our sense of our own value. This makes us victims. We may not be dependent on a drug, but often we are dependent like a drug addict on praise, success, money, being admired or wanted. Without them we may experience the lows the drug user does on withdrawal.

However, the ancient explorers of the human mind discovered an extraordinary possibility. This dream of Ed’s explains it.

I was in a prison with several others – all in one cell. It felt as if I had been in the prison for years. I was standing near the bars angry and shouting about the injustice of my incarceration.

As I stood raging I suddenly realised that all my anger was having no affect on the world. I was the only one suffering it. I saw that the peace and freedom I wanted from release I could have now by letting go of my emotions and my anger. I would then be in peace, and would be free of my own negative emotions. So I let go of he feelings I had about my judges and jailers, and a change came over me. In the following years I learned to drop the other ideas and emotions I tortured myself with. Then one day I woke and was filled with joy until my bliss filled the cell. In this way all had changed for me. In a strange way I was now utterly free even though in prison.

The greatest prison of all, the greatest of torturers, is our own thoughts, emotions, our beliefs and our concepts or ideas. While Ed felt angry and held the idea he had been wrongly accused, he was tormented and trapped – imprisoned in his own ideas and emotions. To have received a public apology and released would have changed his feelings, but he would still have remained a passive victim of events. Instead he found in his dream the greatest freedom of all – a blissful freedom – the release from his ‘natural’ mind and emotions.

“Then I experienced an incredible dropping down into feelings and dramatised realisations of human lust, sexuality, and enslavement by such powerful desires, occurred. Image after image occurred. It was an exploration, a journey deep into my unconscious, into sleep, yet remaining aware. I saw and felt the whole drama of human passion, as it is daily enacted in marriage, work, politics, riots, war, and religion. Underneath the surface actions were the raging desires, raw, urgent, powerful, making slaves of people, leading then into soul destroying work, hateful relationships, even murder. And I saw how those arose who had lived, preyed on, the desires of others, and manipulating them delicately, subtly, forcefully, even brutally.”

In the end we are human faces on a line of beautiful animals, but as humans we have developed self awareness along with all it difficulties the animals hardly suffered from, as mentioned above. But we can work and fashion the natural into beauty – with effort.

“I sat on our settee listening to music, relaxed. The realisation came that what I was looking for was myself. Suddenly I remembered a dream of several years ago. In it was of a monolithic stone of huge dimensions that rose up from the earth. It was unfashioned except at the top, where a strange and beautiful design was worked on it. I had never understood this dream, but now I knew with certainty the great stone represents a human life, raw and natural except at the top, where conscious endeavours have left their pattern, making a wonderful blending of nature, of Life which has thrust us up to consciousness and an individual will – of the unconscious and conscious.”

Then slowly my blindness was eroded to reveal an older and deeper way of seeing. Gradually the rocks took shape, and I could see the magnificent head off a great beast. The rocks and their hollows suggested a huge muzzle and eyes. And still the vision cleared, and I felt the rocky beast was thrusting up from the depths of the earth; that the very earth and rocks had through unimaginable time become the beast.

I paused as the image penetrated me in this wild place. Then, further depths became revealed and I too fell upon my knees. For in the beast I then saw all creatures, myself included. And my heart knew the Beast as that grand mysterious process that emerged from the very rocks, the soil and processes of our Earth, and pushed, dancing through all its levels and forms, thrusting into life, into being, and into consciousness. And I knew myself as one face in the multitude of the Beast’s forms; a moment in its emergence, a footstep in its movement onwards.

What I had taken to be superstition and idolatry, I now knew simply as recognition. The rocks were rocks. But that deep life in me saw their shape and called upon me to look upon what they represented in myself, and see my wonder. For the Beast was the life within myself that had through untold ages lived and struggled and unfolded on our earth.

 

Occultism and Dreams

We can take alchemy as an example of occultism, a hidden, or even sometimes seen as superstitious, beliefs. Yet alchemy is now seen as the early foundations of modern science. So, we might say the occult is a form of reaching for things that we often see as ridiculous until they are provable or visible to the public belief system we call science. For instance the belief in the human aura which was seen as occult superstition is now a part of scientific theory. Of course they would never call it the aura, but have called it radiations, heat, and electrical brain radiations.

But occultism has in recent years been seen as linking with dark arts, strange sexual acts, attempts to develop powers over others, an association with skulls and death – but that is the strange deranged ideas some people have about the devil, evil spirits and possession, and those wishing to try to scare others, none of which apply to the great seers and beings who are truly occultists. Occultists are the early scientific investigators of human awareness.

In Western occultism levels of awareness have been defined for hundreds of years, long before Freud and Jung described such levels as the unconscious. In occult training the aim is to open the mind to our subtle or inner self. It helps us to become conscious of the many impressions which usually are beyond our physical sense range. Becoming aware of the ideas, impressions, feelings and impact of that nature, opens up huge new avenues of experience.

But occultism has given rise to much rubbish about dreaming, but also some things of great interest. For instance Rudolf Steiner, one of the greatest of modern occultist wrote, ‘The soul is fully active’… ‘but a man can know nothing of this … as long as he has no spiritual organs of perception through which he can observe what is going on around him and see what he himself is doing during sleep as easily as he can observe his daily physical environment with his ordinary senses.’ In this supersensible world. Steiner goes on to say, the astral body is that which brings consciousness to the otherwise vegetative existence of our body. Without the process which the astral body produces, we would exist in a similar way to a plant, in a sort of sleep without traces of self awareness. To quote Steiner more extensively, he says:

“Man has his physical body in common with the minerals and his etheric body with the plants. In the same sense he is of like nature with the animals in respect of the astral body. The plant is in a perpetual state of sleep. Anyone who does not judge accurately in these matters may easily fall into the error of attributing to plants too a kind of consciousness such as the animals and man have in their waking state. But this mistake is only possible when one’s idea of consciousness is inexact. … But the criterion of consciousness does not lie in the fact that to a given action a being shows a definite reaction. It lies in this, that the being has an inner experience, and this is a new factor, over and above the mere reaction. Otherwise we might as well speak of consciousness when a piece of iron expands under the influence of heat. Consciousness is only there when for example, through the effect of heat, the being inwardly experiences pain”.

“That is not the case in willing. You know that when you perform the simplest kind of willing, for instance walking, you are only really fully conscious in your mental picture of the walking. You know nothing of what takes place in your muscles whilst one leg moves forward after the other; nothing of what takes place in the mechanism and organism of your body. Just think of what you would have to learn of the world if you had to perform consciously all the arrangements involved when you will to walk. You would have to know exactly how much of the activity produced by your food in the muscles of your legs and other parts of your body is used up in the effort of walking. You have never reckoned out how much you use up of what your food brings to you. You know quite well that all this happens unconsciously in your bodily nature. When we “will” there is always something deeply, unconsciously present in the activity. This is not only so when we look at the nature of willing in our own organism. What we accomplish when we extend our will to the outer world, that, too, we do not by any means completely grasp with the light of consciousness.

Suppose you have here two posts set up like pillars. (See drawing.)

“Imagine you lay a third post across the top of them. Now notice carefully, please, how much fully conscious knowing activity there is in what you have done; how much fully conscious activity such as there is when you pass the judgement “a man is good,” where you are right in the midst of it with your knowledge. Distinguish, please, what is present as the activity of cognition here from that of which you know nothing although you had to do it with all your will: why these two pillars through certain forces support the beam that is lying on them? Up to now physics has only hypotheses concerning this, and if men believe that they “know” why the two pillars support the beam they are under an illusion. All the concepts that exist of cohesion, adhesion, forces of attraction and repulsion are, at bottom, only hypotheses on the part of external knowledge. We count upon these external hypotheses in our actions; we are convinced that the two posts supporting the beam will not give way if they are of a certain thickness. But we cannot understand the whole process which is connected with this, any more than we can understand the movements of our legs when we move forwards. Here, too, there is in our willing an element that does not reach into our consciousness. Willing in all its different forms has an unconscious element in it.” Quoted from The Study of Man by Rudolf Steiner.

This was not clear scientifically at the time it was written, but it become clear now in the following:

During REM sleep while we are dreaming our voluntary muscles are paralyzed – except for our eyes. It is thought this was developed during a period when our forebears were sleeping in trees. Any movement would have made them fall. The eye movements were of course not dangerous.

An important fact about dreaming is that all the signals for movement while we dream are sent by the sleeping brain to the muscles but are blocked by a part of the brain called the pons.

But this block can be bypassed by having a passive attitude while awake (See Keyboard Condition). This allows for a little recognised phenomenon which, while awake and in a passive state, allows the dream process to break through as spontaneous movement, sound and emotion, exactly as with dreams. See Life’s Little Secrets

In life and sleep we have two powerful actions working in us. The first is our waking experience based on having a body, its limitations, vulnerabilities and a particular gender. Our second is the power that gave us life and continues to express as dreams, in our breathing and heartbeat – our life. This I have given the description as the Life Will.

While we sleep our conscious self is largely or totally unconscious, and while we sleep our voluntary muscles are paralysed – therefore another will or motivating force moves our body. So, we have a Conscious Will, and what I will call a Life Will. The first one we have experience of as we can move our arm or speak in everyday activities; but the second will takes over when we sleep. See Sleep Paralysis

This Life will can move us to speak, to move our body, and in fact do things that we cannot do with our Conscious Will. As Freud pointed out this inner will has full access to our memories. It can do so many other things that are described else where – See Edgar Cayce and the Cosmic Mind; ESP in Dreams.

But quoting from Steiner again, here is something still not recognised.

“And what happens in willing you can only experience in a sleeping condition. You would experience something most terrible if in your ordinary life you were obliged to participate in all that happens when you will. The most terrible pain would lay hold of you if, for instance, as I have already indicated, you really had to experience how the forces brought to your organism by your food are used up in your legs when you walk. It is lucky for you that you do not experience this, or rather that you only experience it in a condition of sleep. For if you were awake it would mean the greatest pain imaginable, a fearful pain.

Hence you will understand it if I now characterise the life of the ego during what is usually called waking consciousness – which comprises: complete waking, dreaming-waking, sleeping-waking – you will understand it if I characterise what the ego actually experiences while it is living in the body in the ordinary waking condition. This ego lives in “thinking-cognition” in that it wakes up into the body; here it is fully awake. But it lives in it only in images. Hence man between birth and death lives in images only, when using his thinking-cognition unless he does such exercises as are indicated in my book Knowledge of the Higher Worlds and its Attainment.”

Advanced Options of Extending Your Intuition 

As with many skills the basics of Inquiry are easily learnt, but the adept phases take more discipline to acquire. Your own body, your emotions and mind are the instruments being used. Therefore the ability to amplify, to create or focus on certain states of mind and body are necessary for expertise. Your own wishes and fantasies, fears and hopes can easily shift or shape what emerges in your awareness. Doubts about your ability to reach into the unlimited dimension of mind can shut the door completely to any result. So being able to reasonably quieten your mind is essential for the more refined and extended intuitive perception. But a quiet mind does not mean one held so tight and immobile no impressions can arise in it. Or maybe quiet is not the right state, but a listening mind is perfect, for when we really listen, our mind naturally becomes quiet.

Similarly the emotions and body need to be held in a receptive state – what has already been called the ‘piano key’ or ‘keyboard’ condition. Both these are fundamental to the practice of inner-directed movement anyway, but they need to be worked with even more consciously for extended perception. You need to develop the attitude of an observer without fixed opinions – both on allowing a response to the question, and also in connection with whatever may be received. This freedom from opinion needs to be something you can take on when you choose to, and as with quietness of mind, does not need to be something rigid. See Keyboard Condition

The state of mind or consciousness that we call normal is simply the one we experience most. In terms of evolution and education it is the one which has arisen because it offers the most survival value, or is culturally created – that is, it enables us to survive in or fit society. None of these factors make normal awareness anything more than one of many possibilities. There is no reason we should maintain this habitual state simply because circumstances have induced it. See Programmed 

Its value is in preventing you from taking the information received and accepting it as infallible – to see the information received as infallible would be to have an opinion in regard to it. By considering what emerges in a non opinionated way, you can more readily assess its usefulness and relatedness in connection with the original question.

Learning From Your Wholeness

To get a good response from Inquiry at a level more subtle than physical movement you will need to have practiced ‘Opening to Life’ for some months. Then the subtle responses of your mind and energy will be ready to receive the delicate impressions from your wider unconscious.

Using Inquiry is not a strange or unconventional practise. Your being is always responding to the people you meet, the events you live through in subtle feeling responses and intuitions. You have these things occurring in yourself now. Inquiry is simply taking time to listen to what is already happening inside you, and learning to improve your skill in becoming more aware of this facet of your life. As your experience of Opening to Life grows, there will be a developing subtlety in what arises. Gradually your interior feeling senses will operate more fluidly. Your voice will be exercised and used spontaneously as with the body. So you will be able to speak, sing, cry the depths of your being. In this way, when you make an Inquiry, you will not depend you thinking mind, but may receive through mental imagery and insight, through shifts in your subtle feelings and sensations, or through the spontaneous expression of your voice.

Here are the useful stages of approach to Inquiry.

1 –        If you are very fluid using Opening to Life you will not need a special setting in which to use Inquiry, you could do it walking along a busy street talking with a friend. It is only when you are in the early stages you may need exterior help. For instance some people using their intuition need cards, or to look at someone’s hands. So if this is the first time you are using Inquiry set your environment as with the ‘open approach’ to Opening to Life you might be helped by using I Ching

2 –        Clarify what your question is. The wider awareness you are approaching responds most fully when you have a sincere need, or when sincere question is ask you by another person.

3 –        Ask the question and open your being to respond as fully as you are able. Be ready for the response to move you physically, sexually, emotionally, mentally and vocally. In other words, allow your whole being to be receptive. Observe what arises in a similar manner to watching a television screen when viewing a good film – that is, let the story, the plot, or the information, explain itself. Do not at this stage try to shape or question it.

There are many forms of communication – mime, drama, emotions, words, imagery and fantasy, and combinations of these. The more you can allow your body, voice, emotions and mind to freely express, the more this dialogue, this exchange, can take place.

Example: Now I am looking at a friend P. It seems as if I am not limited to the location of my body but my awareness stretches like water beyond myself into her being. As I look at her I say, “You have so much male in you. I see much courage in you.” P replied that this was her archetype, that of the heroine. Someone being in a war, fighting for the other. We laughed over her being Joan of Arc. As I looked at her it seemed I sank deeper into her being, discovering more of who she is. But suddenly I came upon a subtle wall. I felt it as a resistance asking me not to probe any further. So, I looked at her and simply said, “Oh. Okay P.” And I turned my attention away.

I was speaking this quite quietly and P said to me, “Are you reading my spirit?”

4 –        Note what you receive by writing it down or talking it into a tape recorder. Once the response has unfolded its theme – the mime of the body movements; the story of the fantasy; the statement of your vocalisation – then work with the response, asking questions to clarify the subject until you are clear in your understanding of what is being received.

5 –        Consider what you have received and weigh it against practical observation. See if there is something you can learn from it and apply.

Test it wherever practical. Do not be afraid to doubt it and try it against the world. If you are not accessing the best in yourself you need to know it. This avoids the trap of wanting intuition to work at any cost. Intuition is a valid way of gaining information, just as your senses are, or your ability to read. But your senses and your ability to read can also be ways in which false information is taken in. So your discrimination is needed when using your intuition as it is in everyday life. The more you use it the more sharp your faculty will become. But discrimination must not act as a source of doubt that blocks your ability to receive spontaneous movements and impressions.

Ancestors

Our being here now – Our BEING here now – Our Being Here NOW – is all the love, the sacrifice, the ability to survive, the sheer gut wrenching work that has gone into us being here now. Why don’t we have a national ancestors day to recognise this and to give thanks and praise? We could then recognise the gift of life and social order that we have been given. It would help us to recognise our own part in life also. It would be a time that we recognised those who had simply just lived. It would not be about those who had done something heroic, or who had invented something, or had fought in a war. It would be the recognition of those who had simply lived their life, and in doing so have been part of the structure and development of not only our own existence, but also foundation of our present society. They were the ones who built roads, railways and built it up, bit by bit, to become what we take for granted.

Many of us are still working to improve the society we live in, and to improve the lives of our own children. But we received so much from the past, from the work and life of others. The homes we have, the roads, the electricity and water in our homes, the transport, the connection we have through technology, the whole huge structure of the background of life in which we live. Even the knowledge of how to do things was forged and developed by our ancestors.

Whatever our work is, whether it is as a parent, a construction worker, a teacher, as somebody cleaning the roads and removing garbage, we are maintaining the very structure of our society and handing on a gift to those who follow. When we realise that, we can see what an enormous heritage we have received from the past and from those who lived it. Without that simple every day, the living, working, loving, there would be nothing.

Let us salute our forebears in recognition of what may have left us. Let us kneel before them in thanks to received the blessings they may have given us.

Thinking about people in general, or particularly the people I tried to communicate with through my web site, I want to say to them, “I am standing with you. I am a part of your dreams, your hopes, part of the things you long for. I am with you in that. I love that part of you. I love that dreaming, wonderful, imaginative, loving part of you. That’s what I hope my web site is about. See dreamhawk.com

It’s about your life, your babies, the way you love – everything that is precious in human life. It is about life, death and hereafter. It is about how precious you and I are to life itself. We are the eyes and ears, fingers and arms, the curiosity and creativity of life itself. We are what reaches out, longs for change and experiences the wonder and tragedy of today.

You and I are the experience of all what happens. We are the hope of and struggle for something better, the dismay the sense of failure, and the wonder of learning how to move beyond our own limitations. We are the hearts that feel pain or failure. The hands the arms that reach out for something else. Let us do that, however uncomfortable it may be. Let this reaching out for all what we want, for what we can create. What we long for and move toward is what life brings about because we are life.

And when we reach out for the new, when we long for something better, when we live what we can of it, it becomes a huge power transforming the world. What we are reaching out for is a better life for ourselves and those around us and who we love.

People only trust each other when they themselves have a sense of dignity and the recognition of the need for each other and their part in the whole. It rests upon the realisation that as individuals we are not lost in the immensity of the world, in society, or of the universe. It is because we ourselves are unique, and have special features, perceptions, talents that no one else has in quite the same way. See https://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/genius-2/

What we have been left with by our forebears gives us a very particular relationship with others and with the whole. Our forebears struggled to achieve, struggled to survive, in some way, however small, left a mark in the world. They have left us, apart from the immense structure of society, the technical information, the great wisdom, they have also left us a lot of shit. But that is part of our work today, to clear it, to use it as fertiliser. Even so there is a great deal of silver and gold for us to claim. Let us develop that.

Without fear, let us stand before life and say this is what I want. Let your life be a statement, an expression of what you feel passionate about. Recognise what it is that you’re ready to stand for. In doing so you will come to recognise your spirit, and perhaps the spirit of your family. For your family is part of the huge odyssey the human race has made from its beginnings. Feel pride in the fact that you’re ancestors survived a most incredible journey. No matter what you are left with, however impoverished you may feel, you are part of the human odyssey, and you too can take steps forward. For life is a huge theatre of possibilities.

If we to can survive our own personal odyssey, pick ourselves up in failure, faced the trials of existence and bring to them the spirit of life that has brought our forebears this far, then we bring a gift to the world and meaning to our own life. If we can in any small way reach out and touch another human being, give them love, a bit of compassion or support, then we have added a treasure to our own life and to theirs. And if we lift ourselves above that again, that is a beautiful thing. Then you become a seer, and elder of your family, of your tribe. Then I give you the splendid feathers for that honour. See Ancestors for dream meaning.

Being an elder means that you have managed to find a stance in life in which your sympathies linked beyond your own kin, your interests spread beyond your own personal family and of race.

The family tree – https://dreamhawk.com/poems/the-tree-2/

Monitor of the Unconscious

A way to understand this is to consider the now commonly used monitors one sees at the bedside of critically ill people. Such monitors depict in the form of an image – a flashing moving graph – the heartbeat of the patient. They can also portray temperature, breathing, brain pulses and blood pressure in the form of externally visible images. These internal events would otherwise be unknown or unconscious. In a similar way, dreams are a monitor, giving apparently external images to depict the subtle and otherwise unconscious processes of body and mind.

That the external person or object in the dream is actually the dreamer’s own internal feelings and mental structure is difficult for many people to believe or even grasp. The following unusual dream helps us to develop a conception of this. I say it is unusual because very seldom can a dreamer admit to themselves while asleep, that the world which in their dream appears as exterior, is actually their own internal thoughts feelings and psychobiological functions. The dreamer, A. B. is a man in his fifties, and dreams he has found a huge thistle in his garden which is as big as a tree.

I look at the trunk of the thistle examining it. At this point it seems like a giant hardwood tree. I snap a twig and it smells very nice – a perfumed wood. Other branches are going rotten. Walking around to the back of the tree to see if the bark is rotten I notice a hole where bees or wasps have a colony. I put my left hand up to touch the bark and as I do so notice there is also a hole in the back of my hand, in and out of which wasps are flying. With great shock I look in the hole and see wasps eating my flesh away, so my hand is almost hollow. I awake with the feeling of being old and decrepit.

What is of particular importance in this dream is the point of transition where the dreamer moves from seeing the hole in the tree, to seeing the hole in himself. But this transition continues, for the dreamer then moves to the feeling of being old and decrepit. These points of transition mark the stages of realisation that what seems exterior is not. It also shows a transition that few dreamers ever make.

Some of the key statements in the dream are EXAMINING – I NOTICE – A HOLE – I LOOK IN – and SEE – THE FEELINGS OF BEING OLD and DECREPIT. If we put this into a flowing sentence we have, ‘In examining myself I noticed ‘a hole’ or emptiness in myself. When I look into this I find a sense of being old and decrepit.’

In looking at his hand and realising there was a hole in his life, A. B. took note of what he felt. Just prior to the dream he had experienced a lot of anxiety about whether his marriage was breaking up. The dream made him realise that niggling thoughts and emotions were eating away at his self confidence leading him to feelings of being near to the scrap heap, having outlived his usefulness. The dream had depicted these emotions and thoughts as wasps. This enabled him to see that if he entertained such feelings, they would certainly eat away his grasp of life. He could see that as a person he only ENTERTAINED thoughts and emotions. They were simply what he thought and felt about reality, not reality itself. It was up to him as to what he wanted reality to be. Did he want to entertain the reality of the tired ageing man who could no longer satisfy his wife’s need for love and companionship, having nothing worthwhile to contribute to others? That could certainly become reality if he allowed such feelings to dominate him. He had thought that his life was like a giant thistle, but on closer inspection he saw it was a giant hardwood. It did have branches which needed pruning, but the rest of the tree was good and perfumed – giving off good feelings to others. So, he decided to put love and care into his life and marriage instead of self doubt and a sense of defeat.

Some observers have attempted to determine the pattern of interaction between physiological variables and dreaming that might occur during a given night. An account was published by a French physician in 1821 involving a twenty-six-year-old female subject who had lost a large portion of her skull and brain covering. He reported that when the woman was in a dreamless sleep, her brain was motionless and lay within the cranium. However, when she was agitated by dreams, her brain moved and protruded outward from the cranium. The physician commented that, “in vivid dreams, reported as such by herself, the protrusion was considerable.’

1. Esquirol, a French psychiatrist noted for his humanitarian attitude toward patients, spent considerable time in the 1830’s sitting beside sleeping mental patients, observing their facial expressions and movements and noting their pulse and respiration. He claimed that he often knew when patients were dreaming and could predict the general nature of their dream content from this combination of behavioural and physiological indices.

When we realise each aspect of the dream, each emotion, each landscape and environment are materialisation’s of our own feeling states and body condition, we begin to see how we live in the midst of a world – the world of our thoughts, feelings, values, judgements, fears and physiology – largely of our own making. Whatever we think or feel, even in the depths of our being, becomes a material fact of experience in our dream. It is almost certainly this inner universe that religion speaks of as heaven or hell. Finding some degree of direction, mastery or harmony within this world of our own being, is the great work of human life.

But our overall direction of dreams is an attempt toward growth and wholeness, not easily achieved because of the fears we inject into out dreams.

Contents & Acknowledgements

CONTENTS

Features – a list giving all the features, not necessarily in the dictionary entries, but all with links to the website or published in another format.

Acknowledgements to Revised Edition 

Introduction

The Magical Dream Machine 

Amazing Storehouse of the Mind 

Mind Watching 

What Is Offered In This Book 

Using the Book 

The World of Dreams 

Monitors of the Unconscious

Deepening Dream Understanding 

Seeing under the Surface

A Master Course in Exploring Your Dreams

Using the Dictionary 

The Dictionary 

Bibliography

Acknowledgements

In the whole book – each entry is bookmarked. So, instead of looking for each entry you type a word such as animals in the Bookmark section and see the whole list or click on the one you want to read.

This edition is a major step forward in publishing, made possible by the new technology. It is a mixture of a printed version, an eBook and an online text using the Internet. I hesitated in publishing the book because its size would have meant no publisher would have handled it, but as a great deal of its contents are online and easily linked via the internet I decided to finish this amazing and ambitious project.

This book has literally evolved through many lives. It started with the publication of my first dream book Do You Dream which appeared in 1972. That was my first attempt at a dream dictionary, and that went through another life in the book Dream Dictionary published by Optima in 1990. This was a massive enlargement and was the result of considerable experience and research. The enlargement was due to the thousands of dreams shared with me by countless people. So, many of the insights in that book would not have been possible. The dreams came from several different sources.

The first major influx came from readers of The Daily Mail. Readers of She Magazine contributed some interesting dreams. The many people I have spoken to on LBC radio station in London have significantly helped, because I was able to talk over the dream with them. Then came an influx from viewers of Teletext on Channel Four. The ‘Dream On’ feature has helped me particularly regarding the dreams of teenagers, especially girls, whose dreams I had hardly any experience of previously.

But I must stress that it was not simply from the many dreams sent to me, but the countless dreams I and other people explored – not interpreted. Exploration of dreams will be explained later. These enormous number of dreams are what I use in referece for what I write; and I use the wonderful search program dtSearch. I can search a whole library in a few seconds with it. But the constant stream of dreams has given me so much information about how our mind works – in fact how we work.

The next big step came slowly as I added to an unpublished dream dictionary which later became the basis for the Hudson Dream Dictionary on cell phone’s – and then the iPhone version of the same. But a great learning experience came from the thousands of emails sent to me via DreamHawk.Com. And it is from those posts that I am now ready to enlarge my work further in this present edition.

My work at Atsitsa the holistic holiday community, on the Greek island of Skyros, where I taught groups of people how to explore their dreams, enabled me to experiment with a format which enables a peer group to support each other in dream-work. The outline on peer dream work describes this approach. Dina Glouberman, through her use of ‘Visualisation And Life Choices’ showed a way of using questions to stimulate response from the unconscious, which I incorporated in the peer dream technique. It was a wonderful introduction to a further step in dream exploration – not interpretation, dream interpretation lacks the personal experience of actually experiencing one’s dreams.

My friendship and work with John Hodgson and all those involved in the ‘seed groups’ Hyone and I led helped me define the approach described under using symbols to change habitual life problems, which is a new entry.

My thanks to Marcia Karp – psychodramatist extraordinary – who pointed out to me the way basic information in some entries was lost amongst the examples. I have remedied this. Thanks to Sarah Davison for suggesting I clarify the need to look for some entries under group headings. I have listed all such headings now in the addenda. Also, to Dakota who has given so much inspiration and support.

People like Jacqueline Shenton, Chris Campbell, Ros Lynes, Dina Glouberman, Brenda Blake, and Anna are the salt that gave flavour to my life, and I give loving thanks to all those whose names I have not mentioned who have been willing to be with me as I explored my own and their dreams. Ros worked on several entries.

I want to thank my son Neal, who through sharing so much of his inner life with me while I am working on a revised Dream Dictionary, reminded me of some fundamental truths. His courage in experiencing the emotional impact and revelation of his dreams, in being willing to share what he met, tells me again that within each of us lies a radiance that enriches us if we can meet it; that this radiance constantly tries to show us how to become whole; that becoming whole may take strength, surrender and trust. See the example in Relationship and Dreams.

I am thankful to all of you who have purchased or used the book. I appreciate your support. My love and thanks to you all for helping me to create a life so full of interest, so full of your dreams and so rich in meetings with Life itself.

 

What on Earth is Going on in the World?

That is a huge question many are asking themselves now as they face the often chaotic world events. Or perhaps many people are saying, “Who can we look to and trust for answers?

I believe some of the unrest is due to a huge amount of the population are in the midst of or are going through a massive cultural change; a growth spurt.

We can see that some young people, because their old values have been undermined or destroyed, have turned to people who offer them what seems like certainty and meaning – in extreme cults or belief systems.

But also there are many who have been infected with the nihilistic modern philosophy, feeling they and their lives are meaningless. That is a common path for those who look for meaning to be handed to them ready made by society, by the learned elite, by religious dogma, by science or by what they observe in the world.

But for a few who dare to explore nihilism within themselves it seems more  like:

“There was a gate leading to a path, and somehow I had the feeling that I wanted to put a warning sign over the gate saying something like, ‘Give up hope if you dare to enter here’! The path led to a hill, and when I reached the top I was on the edge of a precipitous drop. The view was extraordinary, like looking into a vast void. It was like seeing into everything, and with a sinking heart I could sense no being, no God, just a huge impersonal space.

The feeling floored me and I sat there and gave up on any hope of finding what I had hoped for – a sort of wonderful welcome. But as I sat a deep quietness grew in me – I had given up looking for answers! And that was when a quiet bliss grew in me, and I realised that many others had got to the same spot and sat there. I also realised that I had been seeking an external god, and in giving up my search and becoming quiet had found the inner bliss that we all are.”

The central point of the experience was, “I had given up looking for answers!”

This is again apparent in this next description.

“I had a strong fantasy of the head in my dream coming alive; it was me and what I had done to myself, torn my body and head apart trying to find a solution. Then I saw flesh on its cheeks. Then it was like a native mask made of various things, and feathers. The feathers predominated in the imagery. The mask kept breaking up, leaving only a few feathers, as if it or I were all nothing. I remember saying – “There is not even a mask, it’s just a few feathers. I am nothing and do not really exist!”

With enormous certainty I realised that there was no cure for my emotional sickness and I had struggled in vain. It was a tremendous blow – and I gave up. I mean I gave up hope, everything, and simple lay there.

Then I had a vision of one feather tied to a twig by piece of wool, blowing in the wind – a feather blowing in the wind. This was very stable and persistent in the fantasy. Everything resolved back to the feather blowing in the wind. It seemed like a Red Indian symbol, perhaps tied to the suspended body of the dead, but I could not understand.

Then it came to me that I had to listen in deep stillness – not think, not seek to understand, not struggle, just listen. My whole being entered into silence, gently listening as one might listen to the rain falling on a lake. Then suddenly it was known – the feather blowing in the wind – the sound of one hand clapping – the essence of human existence. Open against the sky – emptiness – enormity. I was healed.”

The man’s feather representing for him that his personality, his ego was nothing but a feather blowing in the wind, tossed around by every change in his life. The reality he felt was the emptiness, the nothingness which was yet his central reality – a nothingness that has the potential to be anything. This he felt was ‘the essence of human existence’.

Nihilism has not been really explored or what was seen in what was said above. If I look into myself, there is a great void, emptiness, a nothing that is at the same time everything. Miraculously things emerge from the emptiness. So, I believe that acknowledging the apparent nothingness and recognising it as the source of everything you call self, sets you free. I have realised again and again that the wonderful nothing that is everything is the essence of all living things – animals, plants even rocks – and the only thing that stops them expressing the same intelligence as us is their ‘equipment’ isn’t as sophisticated.

Something that stops us really exploring our depths is that when we approach our inner void or hugeness we often react to it with fear or panic. So, we experience massive fear or being attacked by aliens or frightening creatures.

But it is a frightening realisation too. For it brings us to the realisation that nobody else, no God or Devil, nothing else creates the hell or heaven we experience life to be. Nobody else creates our love or smouldering vengefulness for we are alone in our creation.

This was all summed up in this amazing vision:

Example: I looked up at the wall above the bed. It was an unlikely shade of green, but what was remarkable was that on the clear expanse of the wall I could see a huge circle, alive and full of movement. My attention was riveted by this amazing circle. At its centre was an unmoving emptiness, nothingness. Yet out of this void sprung all the forms of life as plants, trees, animals and people. They were constantly emerging from the pool of emptiness, dancing in time to music. All this stream of emerging life moved weaving in time with the sound, in and out of the other each other to the periphery of the great circle. Here it turned and with equal complexity and rhythm moved back to the void. At its return it was lost, dissolved, in that unmoving emptiness. As I witnessed the whole moving circle I realised it portrayed a great truth of life. D. D.

Here is another observation most of is miss:

“I was sitting opposite someone during a meditation. We had been posing the question for days – ‘Who are you?’ Suddenly I realised that it was a silly question, because I was the answer. All thought stopped and I existed as the answer. My being had always been this. In this state there was an awareness of being connected with everything around me, and it felt like the first day of creation. This was the first day. Also I was aware of what I felt was a monkey running to keep up with what was the real me. It was what I had always thought of as the real me, and it was nothing but a monkey that wanted to be the real thing but couldn’t. The monkey me was a photocopy of everything we believe, not the reality. Our conscious mind is a photocopier and yet we are so sure we know reality.’

That is something most of us avoid, losing what we feel is so precious, our ego with it many dependencies upon what it believes are its needs – a sexual relationship, a loving partner, success and money, being acknowledge as someone. We feel losing those things would be death. But such things as sexual pleasure, having a personality, are not denied to us, but if we can let go of the frantic battle to preserve them, then we are no longer  tied up in knots of dependence, pain or pointlessness.

If you can face the fear of apparent death, of giving up your egoistic desires and dependencies, you could try Opening to Life.

 

 

Public Toilet No. 1

I felt at this point that people need a toilet. I suppose this has partly risen from the broadcast I did last night in which the last woman to tell her dream was someone who could not find a toilet that was usable.

Most of us carry such a lot of crap about with us. Often we really don’t need to know what that stuff is, and neither does anybody else. We need a situation in which we can drop it down a toilet and flush it away. I have an urge to put such a thing on my web site – public toilet No 1.

I am not trying to be critical, but I honestly have learnt that when a person feels crushed by what another person says or has done, or live in a condition of depression, feels terribly lonely, experience a long period of grief or feeling shocked, pain, guilt, anger or even depression at the death of someone, it is because they have never learnt to get rid of so much shit they carry in them.

We are all so full of traumas that act as huge blockages that stop us from dealing quickly with such hurts. Unfortunate most suffers are not even aware that they have been traumatised. Traumas can occur at any time, while in the womb babies who are not loved or are stressed can suffer traumas. Some people are so full of crap that they hold on, blaming the smell on others, sometimes the smell becomes too much they have to end their life.

Trauma can occur during birth and any time afterwards. A trauma is rather like having made an electrical circuit that is a brain connection with a memory, because it is wired wrongly, directs events in the house/you in a messy way. Over time changes were made in the house that plastered over the circuit, as walls were built, and the circuit was no longer visible or even remembered. But it is still active even though hidden. And that is exactly what was happening with deeply felt decisions you make as a child, or hurts that were not really healed. It is still active even though buried.

For example a nightmare is an attempt by our reptilian and mammal brains to release and re-evaluate old trauma that has caused conditioned reflexes that may be interfering with the efficiency and well-being connected with our present physical and social survival. Such re-evaluation occurs when we become fully aware of the original feelings and events involved in the trauma that conditioned us. In a very real sense the nightmare is a symbolic presentation of an original situation full of important information. But it has got hermetically sealed within layers of resistances or defences. See Levels of the Brain and Dreams

We erect such huge defences when we feel but to not explore our fears, our avoidance of pain, and feelings of threat – so that we cannot integrate and understand what is causing such things as depression or apparently irrational avoidance, anger, violence, panic attacks, phobias and suicidal urges.

Unfortunately we tend to see our emotions and fears as ‘US’ – as our personal feelings rather than signs that we may not be facing our unconscious traumas.

Here is a man’s account of remembering the pain of his premature birth, for his umbilical cord – his  lifeline – was cut before his body was developed enough to cope independent of his mothers feed to him.

“One of the things I have learned about trauma is that to some extent being willing to deeply experience a conflict burns it out, but for some types of trauma only for a while. It is not like a childhood trauma that clears when it is experienced. This type goes on again, and again, even if experienced, because it arises not from past trauma, but from our present disposition, things like socially accepted things like. Marilyn, to use coex in regard to the pain and anxiety she was experiencing about her impending divorce.

In her exploration of her feelings, Marilyn did not sense anger or aggression, but she did feel like a predator which always had to TAKE to gain her own needs. This feeling immediately reminded her of her family life as a child. She remembered one time when she was sent shopping as a very young child of three or four, and as well as buying what she had been asked, she purchased some sweets for herself. When she arrived home she was treated as if she had done a terrible thing, and that was when she began to feel like a predator. It seemed to her as if her own needs were always gained at the expense of someone else. That feeling hugely affected her dealings with her husband.

But with this awareness, she could now see that the feeling  clearly related to her present situ­ation. Bargaining to gain a realistic share of the house and property jointly owned by her husband and herself during their divorce, felt to her as if she were gaining her needs at his expense, like a predator. That made her feel so awful, she was almost ready to allow her husband to take all, leaving her without a house or money to start again. Her awareness of where the feelings arose from however, and the unrealistic part they played in her life, allowed her to relate to the situation with less pain and more wisdom.

As Jung said, most human problems are insoluble. They cannot be solved, but sometimes we can outgrow them. I am having to learn to be decisive in where I want to go in life, and attempt to go there despite the pain and the obstacles of hopelessness, emptiness, and despair. I have to do that because I know there is satisfaction in the direction of growing beyond one’s old self that was so open to pain. Then the pain and black cloud lifts. To outgrow your life problems we may have to open to the primal force that grew us, the process of Life. So it might help to try using Opening to Life“

Example: Began with a knotted feeling in stomach, went inside myself and found a lump that I had kept deep within that no one could touch or ever has done. I spilt the lump and there appeared two halves of a walnut with a picture of my mother and father in each half as they were when I was a child. As I looked the two halves crumpled into dust. This was the secret I have carried since childhood, that I had parents unlike the other children in the orphanage, yet the truth was I too was left behind in the orphanage by my parents. The emotions really came to the surface and I really cried. After this wave passed I was left in a very passive state. I then went into the telephone box and tried to make the call to reconnect, but again another shock, there was nobody to connect with, again the realisation that I was an orphan. Another great wave of emotion tore me apart. I then turned toward the dogs as they came at me, I began to feel the sickness that I have always experienced in sessions but I just shrugged and let the feeling wash over me, it felt like I have always ended up in hell by that route, and I realised afterwards that hell is hell and will never be anything else.

I felt that there was something deeper and so I kept to a centre line, again there was no feeling and so I turned toward the god dream that I had when Rob was here. The look of total love for me in his eyes gave me the strength to trust my own process. I then went into fantasy, God holding my hand and picking up all the people and events in my life and placing them all together on a stone alter, which he then placed me upon and told me to surrender and allow myself to die. This I did and images of great water falls, and molten lava flows filled my being. Then the crisis broke through, and there I was in the kids home as my father was leaving, I saw my self, or I should say my being go out to him. I felt that if I loved him he wouldn’t leave us. I then saw that I was already bonded to my mother and in that moment of transference there was guilt and I was caught in the middle, then he left creating a schism in which I was left in my spine with a personality on either side. Schizophrenia is the word to that covers this state about: Schizophrenia a mental disease marked by a breakdown in the relation between thoughts, feelings, and actions, frequently accompanied delusions and retreat from social life. I then felt what I would call the primal scream emerge from my being and then I was through. I then saw the dogs as my anxieties that have taken up two thirds of my being constantly tearing me apart, also saw that as a kid I didn’t have enough information to redirect the energy elsewhere.”

The man eventually found healing using Opening to Life

Every 7 Years You Change

Every 7 Years You Change ARE you the same person now that you were fifteen years ago? In fact, are you the same person you were just seven years ago? Most of us have heard the old saying that every cell in the body is changed over a period of years; but recent investigation has uncovered facts of far more significance to us as human beings. This concerns the emotional, physical and mental changes that seem to occur in approximate seven-year intervals. We can all see that we are different at seven than at birth. Also the change at fourteen is another huge changing point. The seven-year cycles continue throughout life, and are of the utmost importance to doctors, teachers, psychiatrists and the social sciences. Without some smattering of these changes it is difficult for anyone to understand the relationship of any given individual with his or her environment. Now Available in Kindle and Paperback in USA and UK  – Australia – Brazil – Canada – France – Espana – India – Italy – Japan – Mexico – Netherlands

Your Story – My Story

I was born sometime after the First World War, my birth occurred shortly before the Second World War began.  I call this your story as well as my story, because it is as certain as night follows day that you were born sometime after a war, and prior to the beginning of another war.

In my life the aftermath of the First World War surrounded me everywhere.  I knew people and family who had been involved in that war, and around me were the results of it.  One of the biggest results was that it shattered an old world order, yet what had been shattered was still struggling to exist or re-establish itself.  But then, the Second World War gave the old establishment fatal blows.

I remember as a young child that the night victory in Japan was announced thousands of people thronged the streets of London.  Walking with my family we passed St James’s Park.  In an enormous release of energy and tension the park was littered with couples having sex.  It was a scene that could never have occurred in the old order, riddled as it was with repression, class differences, and the huge separation between the monied and the working class.

A new world order fought to emerge amidst continuous bloody conflicts and political struggles for power and control.  The emergence has not been easy.  The psyche of individuals, the control of individuals, has been fought over by competing influences.  And we have managed to slowly grow in stature and awareness.

As with the emergence of anything new, old structures, old habits and systems have resisted change. I, like you, I am partly a product of my times.  As dearly as I would like to believe that my mind and opinions are my own, they are of course largely what I have inherited.  They have been shaped by the social structure in which I was born.  Without realising it I had inherited a way of life that I was largely unconscious of and took for granted.  As a child I was beaten by my teachers with canes as thick as walking sticks.  It is only looking back that I see I was part of a punitive society, and I was on the wrong end of the stick.  It was a society in which you either conformed or you were punished.  And that was how school children were trained – to conform.  The schooling for the children of the ruling class was completely different.  They were trained to wield the stick.

As a youth I realised that everybody dressed the same, everybody had the same haircut.  We had all been well trained to conform.

But change was coming, and sometimes it came from unexpected directions.  Our lands became multicultural in ways that we could never have visualised even a few generations beforehand.  And the influx was not simply in the presence of individuals from other cultures.  It was also in the music they brought, the food they introduced us to, their art and their way of life.  But perhaps more than anything else there was an influx of ideas, of new perspectives, of techniques and disciplines to do with the emergence of a new type of consciousness reaching us from the Far East.

Strangely, as I witnessed this, I could not understand why many Indians or Japanese knew little about what we were so hungry for.  But we were searching.  We were looking for something to release us from the chains we had been held by.  It was a search that those already born into those cultures did not share. They wanted what they thought we had, the goods of the world. But our search was for the fertiliser and nutrients that would enable us to grow beyond the limitations we had been bound by.

Even so it was not easy.  Essentially we were not looking for something that would re-establish old cultures, old ways of life, old tribal beliefs or patterns of behaviour. We didn’t completely know what we were looking for though.  We were searching for something we hadn’t known before, so were not clear about.  Therefore, many of us tried to adopt the eastern or ancient tribal methods without extracting their essence, without translating them into our present needs. As Jung points out, through a shallow imitation of such practices and ideas, Western man ‘abandons the one safe foundation of the Western mind and loses himself in a mist of words and ideas that could never have originated in European brains and can never be profitably grafted upon them’. He or she puts on an exterior behaviour that does not emerge out of our own being, is not an experience of our own nature, and does not expand upon our own innate potential.

Through that struggle of absorbing the new and extracting its essence many of us began to find a new awareness of ourselves and the world around us.  This wasn’t simply by accepting the words somebody else had spoken or written.  It wasn’t the learning of a new belief system that included such things as reincarnation, Karma and subtle bodies.  We didn’t immerse ourselves in those beliefs as one might take on a new religion.  We tested them critically in our own lives.  We delved into ourselves adapting age-old techniques to our present need and temperament.  And that progress is still under way.  But what it has given rise to is a new spirit of our times.  Emerging from it is a cutting perception, new tools of being, a vision that brings us into life not simply as manipulated individuals, conforming to the needs of commerce and politics, not simply following the fashions of sex or lifestyle.

A new type of human being is emerging.  A new man and a new woman are now among us.  I struggle with words to encompass who they are, but I will attempt it.

The new woman and the new man experience themselves differently.  Like us they are a human animal.  Like us they breathe, eat, defecate and reproduce.  But the way they deal with themselves, the way they meet their own thoughts and emotions, is different to many of the people we see around us.  They have developed a self-awareness which does not lose itself in their experience of thinking and emotions. Through long practice they have learned to categorise what they experience.  This is a thought; this is an emotion; this is a physical sensation; this is a sensory impression.  Mostly people identify totally with their body and what they think or feel.  Upon such identification whole nations go to war with other nations because of a difference of belief such as we see in politics and religion. Upon such identification people experience enormous stress, confusion, antagonism and all the many other ills that arise from identification with what are simply passing experiences. Through such identification advertising sways millions to become consumers of goods that are basically harmful chemicals.  Through such identifications people accept the production of goods that if they were personally involved in the production they would never use.  Who among you would personally torture thousands of animals to discover if the shampoo you are using will hurt your eyes?  Who of you would keep chickens in conditions that are nothing more than brutal torture?

But those are not the main issues relating to the men and women who are the Spirit of our Age.  The main issue is that through their development of self-awareness there has awoken in them a cutting perception of the religions, the politics, and the social order around them.  They easily move beyond the old limitations of creed, of skin colour, of national boundary, of political affiliation and social attitudes.  They live differently, they love differently, and their goals and aims are different.  They, and perhaps you are among them if you have walked that path of awareness, are the emerging new social order.  You are the Spirit of the Age.

You and I stand in the middle of a shattered old world order, and our mother the Earth that is being shattered. We are witnesses and participants in what is emerging. Our personal struggle is part of the great journey of humanity. What part are you going to play?

Dave and Tony

Thanks for getting in touch – and I hope your visits to friends were good.

Well, I didn’t expect you to be able to remember me, certainly not from my name.  We met rather briefly in Oxford Friends Meeting House about 8 or so years ago; I was running a Yoga class and you came along to a couple of sessions.  I recall mentioning that I’d read one of your books (Relax with Yoga).  Lots of water has gone under the bridge since then, but I was pleasantly surprised to see your name on another book (Lucid Dreaming) which I stumbled across the other day.  Now that you’ve drawn my attention to it, I’ve checked out your website and discovered how illustrious and productive you are.  At the moment, I’m about ½ way through Lucid Dreaming – other pressures prevent more rapid progress.

Over the years, I’ve been fortunate enough to have had a number of lucid dreams (one being very beautiful and significant) and did once embark on using a Tibetan Buddhist technique to access this state, with some success.

My inner life then took another turn and I didn’t follow this through, though it’s been very interesting to read of your progressive series of exercises to induce and use lucidity.

Now, I have two Ideas I’d like to bounce off you; they both seem to me to involve dream-like states breaking into ‘everyday’ consciousness.

Each year, I take time off for foreign travel, alone by motorcycle – sometimes calling in on various friends but having no fixed route or destination, keeping to the back roads and avoiding major tourist sites.  A few years ago, after leaving England, it struck me that I was searching for something – but what?  I was looking for the answer without knowing the question.  It was an intense and poignant search and it was, of course, an interior journey.  Exotic landscapes, alien cultures and foreign languages conspired to undermine my version of reality.  I tried hard to maintain maximum awareness and receptivity, since I knew that recognition of my quarry would come through a sense of internal resonance of some kind.  I tried to milk every encounter, every experience for personal significance and it turned out to be a very rewarding journey (including falling in love…).  The penny finally dropped to the sound of chanted Latin in a Spanish monastery – but that’s another story.

At the time (and looking back, even more so) it seemed as if the whole episode was a waking dream, lasting several weeks.

The other idea is maybe rather more cerebral.  Although I consider myself a Quaker, I am open to, and have spent time exploring, other paths.  I’ve recently been drawn to Orthodox Christianity and, in particular, to the use of icons to both induce and depict prayer states.  Delving into this (I’ve been fortunate enough to have met Orthodox academics here in Oxford who have helped me), it seems to me as if a dream-like state of consciousness is being depicted: psychological symbolism, shadowless unnatural lighting, reverse perspective, distorted sense of time and so on.  Icons are supposed to be created according to stylistic formulae and under conditions of altered states of consciousness (induced by prayer, fasting, etc.).  I wonder if a link exists between lucid dreaming and icons (or perhaps prayer states generally)?  My Orthodox friends will have none of this, as they say it’s too analytical to be compatible with the theology.

Any thoughts?

 

Warm regards

 

Dave (Dight)

 

 

Hi David — I am back from my travels again and now trying to catch up with my e-mails.

Yes I do remember coming to your classes.  I was with a friend of mine Kevin and we came as you say, about twice.

Thanks for sharing the things you did with me.  I have never previously thought along the lines that you have written about — icons for instance.  What has fascinated me and I have given quite an enormous amount of time to is what you are calling a dreamlike state of consciousness.  I personally believe that the process behind dreams is also behind visions, altered states of consciousness and other psychic and spiritual experiences.

Fundamentally I know from experience that the image or symbol of the Virgin Mary represents the link between dreaming and waking spiritual experience.  She represents the state of mind or consciousness that has no preconceptions, is empty and receptive, is ready to be fertilised and give birth to something new, something that does not relate to the objective and physical world.

Of course, most of us take on this state of mind when we go to sleep. We surrender our will and our hold on what we are thinking and feeling, but in doing so we slip into unconsciousness and dreams.  What mystics and meditators, people in prayer, have done is to develop that state of mind and yet maintain waking awareness.  When that happens something extraordinary occurs.  That huge world of what is usually unconscious begins to emerge into waking experience.  In doing so the dream process frequently expresses and we experience what appears to be a full surround virtual reality — what you have called a dreamlike state of consciousness.  That is very accurate because I believe the dream process is very powerfully functioning during that state.  But consciousness tends to alter this and can actually penetrate it, thereby going beyond the symbols and imagery into a direct awareness or insight of the forces and processes lying behind human existence.

I would love to throw this backwards and forwards with you and hear what you have arrived at in regard to it. See Waking Lucid Dreaming

As ever — Tony

 

Catherine and Tony

 

9/01/2007

Hi Tony, my name is Catherine.

I have your Dream Dictionary, which I have been using every morning after journaling my dreams. I write down everything that I can remember. I’ve always had incredibly detailed “dreams”, night time experiences & “events”. Some were so intense that I finally decided a year or two ago, that I should probably be writing them all down. (I’m on my third journal) Seems a lot of what I can recall is delivered in metaphors. Your book has become a MAJOR source of reference and guide to help de-code some of the hidden meanings I would never have thought of or been able to figure out on my own. I don’t exactly know why this all occurs so frequently with me but rely on and appreciate having your reference to help me try to figure out how to apply this overwhelming amount of information to my life in a helpful, healing and productive way.

 

The dream/subconscious state is so intriguing and fascinating to me. I just wish I could understand my personal experiences on a deeper level. Trying to make sense of it all can be quite challenging. I was wondering if there was another book or something else that you might suggest that would help me to understand & gain a little more clarity. The lists on your website are so extensive I really don’t know where to go from here! Thank you in advance for your time & reply to this request as it is very much appreciated!!!

Catherine

 

 

11/01/2007

Hi Tony! Thank you for your e-mail! I understand it’s much easier to write when you are at home & on your own computer so I’m looking forward to your full response in the next few days!

THANK YOU…

Have a wonderful day!

Catherine XO!

 

 

13/01/2007

Hi Tony,

Please contact me at 954.650.6800 at 1pm.

Thank you for your time and attention.
I look forward to your call.

Catherine

 

14/01/2007

 

It was so nice to speak with you Tony 🙂

Thank you for taking the time to call me from New Zealand!

I really should introduce myself properly…

My name is Catherine Troy. I’m 38, mother of two boys (18 and 4yrs old)

I live in South Florida, USA

 

 

What I think you should know…

First and foremost,

I love that I dream so vividly and look forward to dreaming every night!

My dreams are extremely detailed.

I dream both in color and in black and white.

Sometimes I can taste, smell, touch and feel things in my dreams!

I have a sense of direction (north, south, east, west)

I have dreams with lots of water and wind (which I feel) and people.

When I don’t get enough sleep, I have little or no recall of the nights events.

When I do get enough sleep, I wake up hoping I remember everything long enough to write it all down.

(Sometimes there’s pages, other times just one or two.)

I’ve been HIGHLIGHTING in your book to remind myself what it is that I have been dreaming about.

At times when I’m writing, other dreams comes to mind, even a dream from months before!

Some nights I think that my dreaming is too intense to deal with so when I wake up,

somehow have instant amnesia.

Other nights, I can dream non-stop and have total recall in the morning.

 

Recently (as of July 2006) I’ve been practicing yoga & meditation. I’ve also been seeing a hypnotherapist (named Beth) in FT Lauderdale who studied under Brian L.Weiss for 8 years.(Brian is a Prominent Psychiatrist & the author of Many Lives, Many Masters, Through Time into Healing and Same Soul, Many Bodies)  Beth has been my teacher for months now & has guided me through quite a list of past life regressions.     Brian L. Weiss, MD

 

At the end of my yoga classes, the instructor does a brief relaxation/meditation (only a few minutes) but I go straight into the meditative state, quickly and when this occurs,  have experienced what Beth calls, spontaneous regressions. Some which were sad & hauntingly devastating. (surprising in such a positive environment…)

 

I’ve found that I can easily slip into a meditative state & out again, although coming out of it can take a bit longer. I try to ground myself but many times, I can be in a “daze” for the rest of the day.

 

Recently, I had a dream and while I was writing it down in the morning, my son (the 4 yr old) drew a picture with the exact color blue, the exact shape/ image of what I had dreamed of and was writing about! He had no idea what he had drawn but I knew exactly what it was! That was truly fascinating to me!

 

The world of “dreams” is absolutely intriguing. Even if I don’t understand exactly what’s happening or going on, or why the messages appear in metaphors, I honestly believe there is a purpose & meaning behind all of this. I know there’s a lot to be revealed and I know I’m supposed to use this information somehow. I’m just struggling a little trying to figure it all out!  I’m also wondering if my dreaming and my past life regressions/ meditations are over lapping, or are they one in the same? I am actually starting to think I can tell the difference!

 

There’s so much more I’d like to share! Please excuse my enthusiasm, as I’ve never met anyone who can relate or even come close to understanding what I’ve experienced or where I’ve been. Nobody really has a clue about what I’m talking about! However, it seems that you do!!! Can’t tell you how happy I am about that!

 

Looking forward to e-mailing/ chatting again soon…!!!

Have a safe trip home…

Catherine XO!

 

Hi Catherine – It was good to talk with you too despite the technical difficulties of communicating from here without broadband.
Thanks so much for the photo. It is helpful and interesting to put a face to the voice.

What a spread in the ages of your children. Though I guess between my eldest and youngest son there is about the same difference.

The extra information you sent is really clarifying things for me. From the short talk we had I think we need to start with some basics of the difference between the world of waking and dreaming. But before we start on that I need to make sure I have heard you correctly and not simply shoot off in a direction I THINK is right. Meanwhile have a look at Sleep Paralysis as it covers some of the ground we might explore.

Tonight – it is already Monday here, I am flying back to the UK with my friend, and will not be able to see email for a while till I upgrade me computer when I get home.

When that happens I will be in contact again.

Bye – Tony

 

15/01/2007

 

Dear Tony,

Thank you for your e-mail 🙂 Yes, the paralysis….(This is the 2nd part, I didn’t send)

 

Years ago, when I was experiencing all the negative nighttime activity, nobody could explain how or why it was happening. Someone told me I had a tear in my “projection” (possibly meaning my aura?) Others told me I had what they called “Gooks” or “Entities” attached to me and in my house and that I “invited” them in!. There was a night when I had counted at least 5 (whatever they were) in an entirely horrific nighttime  “event”.

 

This, among other “events” which occurred a few years ago prompted me to begin writing everything down. Some of the most overwhelmingly intense nighttime “events” which I personally would describe as being far beyond “nightmares” included the paralysis you were talking about…

 

Sometimes, a very strong, violent energy would take away my physical and vocal control/ability. At times I know I was screaming but nothing was coming out. I heard myself screaming inside but heard nothing on the outside. Hard to put into words, but it was as though it was happening to me & not just in a “dream”.

 

A few times, my hands or feet were bound or “pinned.” I could feel & see my hand lift and move but my hand on my body wouldn’t. On one occasion, I was forced by something very powerful, completely across the bed, but could see nothing and no one touching me. I was being suffocated with a pillow and screamed for my husband to remove the pillow because I was completely paralyzed but he didn’t hear me, or feel a thing. I woke up very upset that he didn’t wake up to help me & realized he was basically unaware that anything had happened during the night.

 

Sometimes, when my guard is down or I don’t have the proper “protection” in place (so I’m told),  I can tell & feel (right before I leave my conscious state) when negative “energy” or “entities” are attempting to use my body for something…My entire body vibrates (involuntarily) and the constant ringing in my ears increases. There was an occasion or two where I felt the vibrating during my “sleep” state and actually at one point, was able to force myself to wake up.

 

Once when I felt myself “lift” I guess I was partially conscious & decided at that moment to force myself back down. (Needless to say my body was already on the bed, even though I felt  and watched my legs go back down onto the bed.) I can only describe what happened as involuntary astro projection, which someone had suggested to me, since I didn’t know the right term to describe it)

 

Finally, after an unseen “force” “pinned” (paralyzed) fondled, and attempted to sexually molest and attack me, I immediately found someone who  I thought understood & asked for her help. (I knew I had to put a stop to all of that nonsense, or I’d never want to sleep). Some nights I was so frightened, I’d force myself to stay awake. Just the mere thought of falling back asleep would mean impending doom. After what I experienced, I had to try to figure out what/who it was that was in my house, terrorizing me in my dreamstate and how to put an end to it.

 

As I’ve been writing this, for a moment I became a bit concerned. I don’t want to allow whatever/whoever it was back into my dreams by talking about it,  but is that even possible? I sure hope not! Negative “events” like those haven’t happened in awhile…thankfully!

 

Since speaking to this woman I found to help me, I have been guided to use a number of “tools” and techniques to help with all the Night time “stuff”, which seem to be working. Once and a while, if I’m feeling a bit unsafe, “open” or vulnerable, I will sleep with a light on. Many days I have a strong feeling there is a lot of unwanted “energy” in my house but somehow feel “protected”. Many times I feel like someone/ something following me around or is standing right behind or next to me. Other times I feel a drastic change in temperature, or a door opens or one of my son’s toys turns on and starts talking by itself. I’m not too worried. It happens often enough that I’m not surprised or too concerned anymore. I’m actually dealing pretty well with the strange, unexplainable occurrences without freaking out like I used to..

 

Over time, two or three people have suggested they come to the house to “clear” the unwanted energy because the sage and other “tools” aren’t enough to do the job. I’m not afraid, just extremely aware that there’s a lot going on around here, energetically. Now when my son comes to my bed because he’s frightened at night, I let him stay. (That’s almost every night)

 

Nighttime has been an adventure for both of us. I’ve come to understand that my 4 yr old and I are very “connected”. Ever since he was a baby, he has seen things in his room.  I did too, one evening to my  surprise over a baby camera/intercom. After watching a program on tv., I knew right away and believed what appeared to be zipping around his room were Orbs. Seemed something kept waking him up at night and scaring him when all he wanted to do was sleep!

 

Thank you for the link to your site and info on the paralysis. I scanned it quickly but will go back again and read it completely when I have more time to myself. Still Sunday here and I need to go out for a bit. Looking forward to your next e-mail. Would love to know what you think. I would be happy to explain more if/ when you have time. This is all very powerful & real for me. Talking about it makes it feel like it happened yesterday. Thank you for understanding and forgive me for writing so much. You are a very kind person to take the time to listen. Thank you, it’s appreciated more than you’ll ever know!

Please, you and your friend have a safe trip home.

Catherine XO!

 

Tony,

I am so grateful you have taken the time to correspond with me… I can’t tell you how much of a relief it was to read your e-mail this morning!  I’m thrilled to know that you understand everything I have described. Since sharing these unique experiences with a few, select people, the interpretations and feedback I have received has been a bit confusing. I do believe I must have some sort of ability and with a different perspective and a better understanding of, I’d certainly consider a GIFT! I would love nothing more than to work with the process and learn how to apply this ability to my healing/ spiritual process while following this wonderful path I have chosen! So glad to join you on this journey and that our paths have crossed at this  time! Right now the gift is my connection to you!

Thank you for your support & understanding.

Always, Catherine XO!

 

 

Hi Catherine – I am now at the house of my friend’s sister, waiting for the time to go to the airport. It is a great day here, windy but sunny.

 

The things you describe I have all experienced, but while awake. I gradually learned to allow the phenomena to explore it and as a form of healing.

 

From what you say you have a gift or ability that very few people can allow. But in the form it is, and with the understanding of it you have, it can be very disturbing or even create mental and emotional anxiety or distress. Fortunately for me I approached it from quite a different standpoint and so it was very healing. If I can I want to help you see what is happening from that point of view. You can then decide either to work with the process or to reject it and control it. I suppose it is a bit like a force of nature – fire or water. As such it can be very destructive or hugely useful and beneficial.

 

Also, it is something that has been used by most cultures int he past and usually treated as holy. But again, they approached it in a different way and with cultural guard rails.

 

I will journey with you more fully into this wehn I get back and can talk with you.

 

As ever – Tony

 

 

 

19/01/2007

Hi Tony…Glad you are home safe & sound! Seems your travel time was very long even though you did not experience any jet lag… (well, how nice!) 11 hours is a big time difference, none the less. It must be good to be home after a month abroad even though the mail pile was a bit overwhelming!!!

 

Just got home and received your e-mail a little while ago…Always happy to send a smile and I’m looking forward to speaking with you on Saturday! I will take a yoga class at 9:30am and will be home by 11:30am I’d be happy to speak with you anytime after that. Please let me know when the best most convenient time is for you 🙂  Also, if you can tell me your country code and phone number, I’d be happy to place the call and pay for the charges (although I don’t have Skype).

 

It’s now 12:34pm and the closest cities to me are Fort Lauderdale and Miami Florida. It’s a beautiful, sunny day here (most days are!) and about 80 degrees.

 

HAVE to mention that I went to see Beth this morning and had a wonderful experience, as usual…spoke about a dream that occurred this morning that included bugs & rocks! The bugs had crawled up my pantlegs and there were so many, I felt my legs were vibrating…I had to cut both pantlegs at the seams so I could release them & get them off of me. It was then the vibrating stopped. Then, further along in the dream I had picked up an article of clothing off the ground (possibly a pair of underpants) & was going to put them into a tub to wash but when I reached down to pick them up, saw that they were filled with small, grey rocks which of course, I was to remove first! I looked up rocks in your dictionary and was pleasantly surprised. I read it to Beth and she said she wasn’t 🙂 She was excited to hear that you and I are in contact and thrilled to hear you are willing to explain some things to me!

I’m very excited myself and am so ready to work with you!!! THANK YOU a million times over for your time and for sharing your knowledge and amazing gifts with me!!!!!!!

Will talk/ e-mail with you soon…

Catherine XO!

 

 

Hi Tony…Glad you are home safe & sound! Seems your travel time was very long even though you did not experience any jet lag… (well, how nice!) 11 hours is a big time difference, none the less. It must be good to be home after a month abroad even though the mail pile was a bit overwhelming!!!

 

Just got home and received your e-mail a little while ago…Always happy to send a smile and I’m looking forward to speaking with you on Saturday! I will take a yoga class at 9:30am and will be home by 11:30am I’d be happy to speak with you anytime after that. Please let me know when the best most convenient time is for you 🙂  Also, if you can tell me your country code and phone number, I’d be happy to place the call and pay for the charges (although I don’t have skype).

 

It’s now 12:34pm and the closest cities to me are Fort Lauderdale and Miami Florida. It’s a beautiful, sunny day here (most days are!) and about 80 degrees.

 

HAVE to mention that I went to see Beth this morning and had a wonderful experience, as usual…spoke about a dream that occurred this morning that included bugs & rocks! The bugs had crawled up my pantlegs and there were so many, I felt my legs were vibrating…I had to cut both pantlegs at the seams so I could release them & get them off of me. It was then the vibrating stopped. Then, further along in the dream I had picked up an article of clothing off the ground (possibly a pair of underpants) & was going to put them into a tub to wash but when I reached down to pick them up, saw that they were filled with small, grey rocks which of course, I was to remove first! I looked up rocks in your dictionary and was pleasantly surprised. I read it to Beth and she said she wasn’t 🙂 She was excited to hear that you and I are in contact and thrilled to hear you are willing to explain some things to me!

I’m very excited myself and am so ready to work with you!!! THANK YOU a million times over for your time and for sharing your knowledge and amazing gifts with me!!!!!!!

Will talk/ e-mail with you soon…

Catherine XO!

 

 

 

 

21/01/2007

I meditated on these questions and this is what I came up with…

 

1. What is my idea of conception ?
2. Conception is a miraculous process that transports the essence of our existence into a physical form in order to manifest our true potential.

 

1. Who were you?
2. A spark. I was part of the divine consciousness. I believe my soul was brought forth as a result of the big bang.

 

1. What are you?
2. Energy. A spark of Light from the Source. An original soul. God’s pure essence.

(Not the ocean, just a teaspoon of water from it!)

 

1. How has the evolution of core consciousness evolved into who you are today?
2. Energetically through subtle cosmic and emotional shifts and unseen forces that re-direct me. I move from one level of consciousness and enter another. Trusting this force’s messages (from my higher self?) to guide me. I know there’s more to be revealed as far as to what I am capable of experiencing in this lifetime.

 

1. How have you enfolded the difference in the womb and your experience today?
2. Through connection. Perception. Sensitivity. Different levels of understanding.

 

Got any more questions for extra credit?

 

You are a great student Catherine. My heart is warm to you.

Today my computer went haywire. It is new and crazy things were happening. It constantly had weird patterns on the screen and then switched itself off. So this email will just be short as I try to heal it.

Meanwhile, the Q and A’s are exactly the direction we are going in. The one starting with How has the evolution of core consciousness opens up an area we can explore more fully later – not that the others don’t also, but that one is very relevant.

Extra credit? Hmmmm, let me think 🙂

Well, I was particularly struck by your connecting your origins with the Big Bang. Lots of people don’t connect self with such a prime, part of the universe, genesis. So I wanted to send you the following to read.

Also have a look at – https://dreamhawk.com/aphorism.htm

Walking the way with you – Tony

THE VISION OF THE BEGINNING

 

During my life I have been blessed with a reasonable amount of human pain. But a greater blessing still has been that at times I have been given visions of such wonder the pain has been washed from me.

The vision I describe here came about when, after many years of trying to heal an agony of soul connected with my sexuality, I held onto the question of why had this occurred to me. Having seen that the events of early childhood had been the instigators of much of the pain, I felt that if my pain had a causal explanation, why shouldn’t the events that produced it also have a cause.

I therefore asked the question as to why these events had arisen in my life. All of what happened is not relevant in connection with Genesis, so I will describe only the major feature of the vision.

Christ stood before me. Not as it were in a body, but I was overwhelmed by the presence of a great being which appeared to be a part of all things and all time. Christ lifted up my consciousness, causing me to feel as if my awareness also spread over the immensity of time, and from this condition I was shown the beginning of things.

I cannot say I saw this, more that I experienced the condition of the beginning. And this condition was the gathering together of what I understood to be a whole universe that had previously existed. All that had existed had come to such unity that although this beginning was physical, it was also, in its unity, a being.

As I experienced this I felt at last as if a resolution between science and religion had taken place in me. For here was something like the cosmic egg science suggests preceded the ‘big bang’. But what had been left out, I realised, was this consciousness, this immense being. In retrospect, it also suggests to me the difficult question of Elohim being many beings and yet one. For all life had here found a unity in one immense being beyond my comprehension. It was, in fact, difficult to grasp because I was overcome by emotion as I witnessed this.

As I opened to this enormous perception, there was a deepening of understanding, in which Christ aided my comprehension. For I realised that the oneness or unity of this being was unbroken. It was everything. Nothing could exist outside of it. Even if it were to create something, that thing would not have existence outside of the one.

This condition of ‘all-one’ had led to a form of al-one-ness. This was as near as my human understanding could grasp. Christ in fact said to me – “You must understand, this is your perception of it.”

Out of this aloneness, this great being had longed that other beings might exist. But in its present form this was impossible. Then I understood something that tore my heart to pieces, as it still does today when I dwell on the memory of the experience. This Being purposefully went about destroying itself so that our present universe – we – might have existence. It was such a wondrous action, for it was done in such a way, with such skill, with such love and self sacrifice, that its very death was a magnificent creative act. In other words its death struck into action forces and effects that created the universe in all its variety. This death is what we know as the ‘Big Bang’.

As I experienced this, I realised that everything that exists is a part of that wondrous being. There is nothing that is not of its love. So that whatever arises in the universe arises out of, and as, THAT. The human sense of God is a realisation of the very substance of our own being. The awe we might feel is from an intuition of what has been given us as our own existence.

And as that being died, its very last impulse was for those new beings who might arise from its death. That impulse we call love. It flashed through the universe and still permeates every particle in a way that we cannot yet perceive, but which is like a touch upon the pulsating chaotic movements of particles and lives.

We are the seeds of that love. We are God. And in our small portion of the universe, we face a particular lesson through the shortness of our bodily lives. We face death. Yet that is the greatest of things. For that is the heart of everything, the very act of love out of which our lives have been formed. If we discover the secret of that, we discover our creator and eternal nature.

 

 

23/01/2007

 

Each friend represents a world in us,

a world possibly not born until they arrive,

and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

~ Anais Nin ~

 

 

27/01/2007

 

Hi Tony! Thank you for your note…

I hope your friend is doing well. Much love, luck and many blessings for good health and an accelerated recovery.

I know you are an extreemely busy man and I don’t expect you have too much time to yourself let alone for me!!! Thank you for the time you have spent reading my e-mails and please, always know the depth of my gratitude & appreciation. For me, no interpretations necessary, I guess I should have been more clear about the question…

I have looked over your site to try to find & put into words what I experience sometimes and if there is a defined explaination for it. I guess my inquiry is this…

How is it that during my sleep state or meditations that I return to a conscious state with something like the taste of smoke in my mouth, (when I had had seen myself as a small Indian boy by a bonfire) or get up out of bed all hot and sweaty after dreaming I had just been in a steamy bathroom? OR waking after dreaming I was riding my bike in the wrong gear, to find the chain on my bike in the garage was off the prongs…

How is it that I have experienced the feeling of being water (not just being in it) and the feeling of wanting to become the smoke I was burning?

Why/how is it that can I touch, taste, and feel things in my dreamstate?

I’m a bit baffled! Is there something you can send me to read?

I’m honored and excited that this is happening, just want to try to understand it on another level 🙂

(((((Hug))))) and a big smile,

Catherine XO!

 

Hi Catherine – Okay, here are a couple of things I would like you to try and I am looking forward to seeing what you make of them. Their aim is to open up your waking awareness of the dream process and develop ways of allowing it to express. Remember we are dealing with the life process here and it is energetic. Life is full of movement, feelings and passions. So we are looking at ways to allow a greater range of inner expression.

First go to www.dreamhawk.com/gurub02.htm and do the relaxed arm test.

Maybe you have done this when you were younger. Even if you have do it again as it gives you the experience for the next stage.

Let me know what happens with this one before we go on to the next.

What have you arrived at from our last talk?

Bye – Tony
04/02/2007

 

THANKS Tony! I loved the homework!

I used to do this when I was younger, only in between a doorway, both arms at once! This time around, I have a much better understanding of the idea behind the exercise. What a euphoric feeling! It works for me, right away…20 seconds or so is all it really took! This was fun!

What’s the next step and or stage???!!!

 

As for our talk, I’ve thought about it while reviewing my notes…

You led me on a truly amazing journey back to myself and to a place & time where my existence was of a beautifully pure, more simple form. I realized I was able to shift my energy nearly effortlessly. I was able to see, feel and experience profound simplicity and elation that brings from a culture I believe I was a part of. The familiarity was refreshing and invigorating. Being there was very uplifting…a gift to my soul, mind and spirit! Very loving and nurturing…like inner child work! A lesson and experience I won’t soon forget!

 

Now I can begin to BREATHE LIFE with a stronger, deeper connection to myself, those concepts and the world around me!

You are a wonderful man with fantastic gifts!

Thank you for being with me for that experience.

These are truly the moments I cherish so much!

Catherine XO!

(More Homework……Pleeeeeeeeeease!!!)

 

 

Hi Eager Beaver – Tell me more about the culture you feel you were a part of if you can.

OK, the homework was to give you experience of what it feels like when your body moves spontaneously in a way other than heartbeat, sneezing, yawning, etc. Some people can’t do it.

The next stage is to set the scene for your core to start flowing into your waking life in any way that is possible. By this I mean we open our whole being as far as possible to spontaneous action and experience. Maybe do the arm rising exercise first to remind yourself of simply allowing.

But read this next bit to gather what is meant about opening our whole being.

The Keyboard Condition

Remember you are dealing with the dream process, and this process can create a spontaneous drama that involves your whole being. So in becoming approaching waking experience of your core you need to know how to ‘hang loose’ and how to slow or control the action. You need to learn how to allow the spontaneous action and how to stop it. But for many of us who have learned control from childhood onwards in controlling our bladder or emotions, the big lesson is to learn to relax and allow spontaneous core action.

So you need to learn to drop unnecessary tension, until you are like a keyboard ready to be played.

I find it helps if you create something of this feeling consciously, holding your body, your emotions, your sexuality, your mind, memories and imagination as if they were keys upon which the inner dream maker can play. In a sense you are seeking to create a condition similar to sleep. As you fall asleep you let go of your control over what you think, what you do with your body, and what you fantasy. Your ‘I’, your decision making self has relaxed and left the stage free for the dream maker to create its dramas. So, in beginning to access the deeper possibilities of your core such as intuition, you need to take on a similar relaxed state without actually losing awareness. At the same time you approach what you experience with the question of what lies within the symbols of what might arise.

A simple test helps you to find out whether you are actually achieving this state of letting go and allowing. Try the following.

 

The Arms Circling Exercise

For this exercise you need sufficient floorspace to move easily, or even lie full length if necessary. It also helps to have loose clothing.. You start by standing in the middle of your floorspace, giving yourself time to explore what you feel and experience.

Start by slowly circling your arms with eyes closed. Take the arms above the head, down to the sides of the body with the arms fully extended, then upward from there crossing the front of the trunk. In the full movement the hands are then forming wide circles that cross the front of your body. This arm circling is simply to help you learn how to allow spontaneous movement. It is a way of working with the natural forces within you.

So, as you are circling your arms with eyes closed, bring your awareness to the shape your hands are making or carving in space. As you become aware of the shapes the hands are carving in space, watch what feelings you have as to how your arms would like to move if left to themselves. So after a period of circling your arms give your hands and arms permission to doodle, to make any sort of shapes your feelings or body incline you to.

Allow any sort of posture or movement, as active or quiet as you like. Allow sounds to accompany the movements if there is an urge to, and allow whatever feelings accompany them. Hold the attitude that what you are doing doesn’t have to make sense. Nor does it have to comply with what other people might expect of you. Realise that you are allowing another part of yourself, perhaps a non verbal part, or a facet unknown to the rational mind, to express. With a non critical watching attitude, relax and let your body and feeling-sense direct what happens. There is no need to fiercely concentrate in order to wipe the mind clear of other influences. But you may need to relax the part of the mind that always needs to know beforehand what you are going to do.

This is not like creative dance, in which there may exist a need to produce something pleasing for others to watch. With this exercise you need an open area in which your inner being can make its own adjustments, and movement and feeling have a chance to express outside of rational criticism and demands of everyday life.

Give yourself at least fifteen minutes in which to explore what spontaneous movements and feelings emerge. Below is a summary of what may happen in this practice. But only read this once you have tried the above. Then, on a second go at some other time notice any changes.

1. Although the movements may at first appear haphazard and irrational, if you allow them to continue without criticism, they usually express – perhaps only over a period of several sessions – a particular theme or point.
2. Like a dream, the theme or drama often symbolises your life situation, or something within you, such as the remaining emotions or attitudes from past experience, or a creative realisation. Or the movements may be expressive of the body’s own need to release energy or mobilise itself and its urges.
3. There are obvious stages or depths to the experience. Movement is often the first. Feelings and fantasy can then combine with the movement. Only with a few people do they occur without each other. If met in the right way the movements, fantasy and sounds can lead to insight into what is being expressed. In other words the symbolic movements, if that is what they are, can give way to rational understanding. This is not because one has thought out a plausible explanation for what happens. It is because your critical, conscious mind has watched the spontaneous working of what usually only occurs in sleep and unconsciousness. This gives automatic feedback to the unconscious mind and it can speed up its processing and problem solving. A communication takes place between the unconscious and conscious mind.
4. When you reach a stage that you can easily allow spontaneous movement, along with sound and perhaps feelings, you can dispense with the arm circling to start you off. You will find that if you simply stand in the open condition ready to let your body express what is at your core, it will begin.

The exercise is a way of entering into the usually unconscious processes of your being and working with them. Usually the only way we let go so fully and allow the spontaneous action of our inner nature is when we sleep and dream. But in this way you can open to your core while awake and be healed and taught by it.

As ever – Tony

 

07/02/2007

 

Hi Tony!

Honestly, I didn’t know anything about the Aborigine people or their society until I looked it up online. After waking from my dream, it repeated over and over in my head, as if to tell me that is where, who & what I was in my dream. Aborigine, Aborigine, Aborigine… I kept thinking, ok, ok, I’ll go onto the computer to see who they were! I don’t know much (if anything) about the Aborigine culture but I can tell you about how I felt when I was there.

I felt as if I was in an incredibly familiar place…I sensed I was a part of something big and very real. Not only was I connected to the people, but to the earth, sky, and all that surrounded me. It was if I knew nothing else. I had no desire to come back to these times or leave that place. I believed that was THE way of life and I was there to live it. There was nothing to complain about or question. Life there was simply, understood. Somehow, I just knew it…As young as I was, I had a sense of belonging and importance. I felt safe and content. I was loved and cared for by the entire community and had much to offer and share with my people. Seemed we were all parts of one. I was completely aware of my existence at that time and know in my heart that it must have been a truly significant part of my personal develpoment and spiritual growth. Evidently it was an integral part of my evolution!

1. I did complete the homework this morning. It was fantastic!

I will share that with you in a separate e-mail…

 

Golden Wolf

A quote from my book House of the Ancestors

Within a couple of weeks I experienced a dream which shows the level of my involvement with Dakota. In the dream I was in a hospital ward holding a beautiful child born to Dakota and I. Instead of hair it had downy feathers on its head, and even in the dream I knew this was because our child was gifted with the winged mind. I kissed him on the head feeling the soft feathers with my lips.

Dakota was in an adjoining ward, but only separated by a low wall. So as I held the baby she talked to me telling me something about her mother-in-law.

I woke from the dream with a very good feeling. It showed that something special and beautiful had already risen from our relationship. When I told Dakota about the dream she said, “My God, you didn’t take long to get me knocked up.” Such is her humour.

The separating wall clearly indicated the nature of our relationship. We can talk to each other but have no visual or physical contact. That was clear enough without the dream, but the talk of the mother-in-law took my attention more fully to things I needed to be aware of at that time. Dakota was married, and any attempt on my part to draw her away from her husband and child would not only deeply affect them, but would include all the other family connected to their marriage. Our love needed to be tender and caring in a way many relationships are. We needed to be non possessive without seeking immediate gratification.

Fortunately neither Dakota nor I are jealous people. So we could give real support to each other’s individual needs. My own jealousy had been burnt out in a previous relationship. I had found that a love which allows the other person to live their own life in their own way, is much more satisfying and less painful than the grasping, controlling love of what appears to me as a long drawn out childhood form of relationship. See https://dreamhawk.com/relationship-sex/ages-of-love-2/

When I explored the feelings involved in our baby, was when I felt the core of the dream. As I as the baby, I knew myself to be what my parents had brought forth through their love. In fact I was something not only living in them, but something that had separate existence also. I knew myself as the power of a love that can exist despite distance, despite great age difference, despite the difficulties of one partner being married. I am an expression of a love that has created a spiritual dimension, a form of awareness and connection that exists beyond the body. I am the winged mind, leaping beyond the body’s limitations and boundaries. I am a force independent of my parents, and will touch many lives, helping to create a meeting point beyond time and distance. Dakota and I named our child Golden Wolf.

Later
This morning I entered the inner lodge to spend time in prayer and meditation. I felt the peace and power of what we have created and sought to link it to all who have connections with me.

I sat on the buffalo robes, but before I could enter into any depth of meditation, Golden Wolf stood before me. He said to me, “Father, what are you doing here?”

I told him I had come to share what I have found with others through the spirit link. He took my hand and said, “This is not where you should be at the moment. There are other things for you to do.” And he led me out of the lodge till we stood before a city on a hill. “You have entered upon a new cycle of your work, and this is where you should be now, among people.”

And looking at him, so sure and strong, I asked him, “What of you? What are you in the life of myself and your mother?”

He stood in front of me without speaking, looking directly into my eyes, and vanished. But in moments he reappeared, and walking with me towards the city gates, for it was a walled city, and rising in levels, he said to me, “I am the winged mind that has come to birth more fully in yourself and mother. You came together because of the love you both needed of each other. But other things have drawn you together also. There is a quality you generate in each other that calls out the life of the spirit. This is a living thing that grows, and in your togetherness you feed and water it. The intensity of your meeting has created a link between you that has leapt beyond the space that separates you. The time of your physical togetherness cemented this link. And now the space between you does not interfere with what grows and flourishes through that link.”

We entered the city and I realised I knew this place from the past. It was a place of initiation, where one could only enter the different levels of the city as one learned certain lessons. And here, I realised, in the outer and the inner life my work was now to be a teacher. “And what of you my son?” I asked. He too looked around at the city, and after moments said, “As the winged mind I move through dimensions of which you are as yet only barely aware. Through your love of me I will bring you both awareness of these places within the scheme of things. You gave me life. I will give you greater freedom and a creative gift.”

In Dreams The Mind Has Wings

See https://dreamhawk.com/stories/the-house-of-the-ancestors/

Some More of My History

By way of introduction, I feel it is important to say that as humans, in fact as any life form, we are creatures of great polarities.

We exist strung between enormous duality – sleep and waking, male and female, pain and pleasure, light and darkness, Day an Night, life and death, and death and resurrection, war and peace, matter and anti-matter, negative and positive, the void and bodily existence. To be whole we need to accept and meet these opposites. In the pursuit of love we need to recognise that we must integrate the other gender to become whole. See Archetype of the Paradigm

One of the great paradoxes of our lives is that we constantly go through such enormous changes every day. Each of us is immersed in a ‘river’ of constant change. If you think about it, you have been carried, pushed, impelled by this current as you were moved through babyhood, childhood, teenage and adulthood, and there are more stages of growth beyond adulthood. And as we pass through these changes we die to our old self in order to change to the new. We actually experience ‘dying’ but most people are so out of touch with death, because they are scared of it, that they do not recognise the experience as such.

I use the words ‘death’, ‘life’ and ‘inner world’ a great deal, and to make what I write understandable I need to explain where I get these ideas from, because most people do not understand.

To start with, while we sleep our conscious self is largely or totally unconscious, and while we dream our voluntary muscles are paralysed – therefore another will or motivating force moves our body and creates our dreams. So, in life and sleep we have two powerful actions working in us. The first is our waking experience based on having a body, its limitations, vulnerabilities and a particular gender. This is our Conscious Will. Our second Will is the power that gives us life and in fact runs all our important life processes, such as our heartbeat and digestion, and in sleep continues to express as dreams. This is our ‘life’, to which I have given the description Life Will. See Opening to Life

That is not a new idea.  Many ancient thinkers and writers have expressed it in one way or another. For instance, Jakob Boehme, who lived between 1575 and 1624, wrote:

Thou must consider that there are in thy Soul two Wills, an inferiour Will, which is for driving thee to Things without and below; and a superiour Will, which is for drawing to Things within and above. These two Wills are now set together, as it were, Back to Back, and in a direct Contrariety to each other; but in the Beginning, it was not so.

Here is an experience of my own:

In 1953, when I was sixteen, and already deeply interested in the possibilities of the human mind, I took a course in deep relaxation. I practised every day for three months, tensing my muscles, relaxing them, then passing my awareness over and over my body, dropping the feeling of tension and letting go. After three months I was quite proficient. One evening, after coming home from dining out with friends, I went to bed thinking I would leave my usual practice, but in the end decided to practice even though it was late. After going over my body several times I suddenly lost my right arm. I had no sensation of it other than space, hugeness. Then I lost my left arm, and – my whole body.

It was like falling through a trap-door into the stars. I had no sense of having a body. Thoughts had ceased, except for a murmur apparently a thousand miles away. Yet in blackness, in immensity, in absence of thought I existed vitally as bodiless awareness. We think that we are our body because we have no other experience of our existence. So, we identify with our body and so are terrified of dying – which in a sense is what we do every time we go to sleep and leave our sense of a body behind.

“I felt at the time, and still believe it correct, that I had fallen asleep yet remained awake. Waking, critical awareness had been taken through the magic doors of sleep into a universe we seldom ever see – deep dreamless sleep.”

The world I entered was a completely different world than waking consciousness – I call it the ‘inner world’, and it gives one access to areas of experience normal waking life does not.

Now, coming to my use of the word ‘death’, I use it to mean that any one of us can enter the inner world if we know how to die to our own ego and conscious, thinking mind. So, as described above, I have learnt to die to my conscious self by entering that amazing and huge world. But to understand it you need to know things your education may have missed.

So, an egg and sperm are tiny single celled creatures. That is where we began our life as a human body, in the slime of our human mating. The next two stages of our evolution expressed as cells dividing and increasing in  number, resembles the activities found in many simple living things such as plants. The twenty day old embryo develops four brachial grooves, which in the embryo of a fish grow into gills. At this point the formative forces which produce a fish are active, as were the formative forces of a plant at an earlier stage. These are then supplanted by forces which bring about features of the potential mammalian upright animal we could be. See Levels of the Brain and Dreams – Programmed 

There is such a thing as eternal existence, for a cell doesn’t become old it is immortal, for it keeps dividing and doesn’t die. In dividing it constantly creates copies of itself, but as it gathers new experience, it changes what is copied, so becomes the ‘seed’ for multi-cellular organism. But no plant or creature grows from a dead seed, and each living seed carries within it all the past gathered from all its forebears. So, the seed in your mother’s womb is as old as and even older than human kind, and you carry that wisdom or memories in you. But in this life you developed a new brain, and the memories you gathered this time are what you built your personality from, but beneath that is a very ancient self. So we, our ego, our personality and body are ways the eternal life, the cell, can gain new experience, which is all carried in the seed. To explore it see Opening to Life

So when I mention Life in this work, I am referencing the huge possibilities that are open to us all, once we have learnt how to still the ego and calm the surface life in order to access our inner world. See Keyboard Condition – Virgin – How I became One

My own observations on the subjects I write about arise from having lived a long and full life, much of which has been given over to the study of my own and others’ inner lives, with the result being that I am able at times to have a broader view than many.

In my journey I have had many realisations about myself. One was I saw I am so bloody independent. Jesus wept. I have this feeling in me that I have no urge to follow the tracks that most people tread. I don’t want to go where all the tourists go, I want to see what is over here, through these trees, over this hill, in this cave.

At one time I felt myself in a quiet space. I was back in the big space of the mind, and I sensed a huge presence, something big that I could not yet define. I realised that most of my life I had explored this ocean of the mind alone.

Then the huge unknown began to enter into my awareness. I felt the presence of an enormous creature rising to the surface of something like a swamp or a body of water. At first I thought it might be a whale, but as I paid attention to what was happening it defined into a huge crocodile.

This huge creature looked at me and said, “Tony, join me.”

I laughed at this because it was so huge, and with so many associations of swallowing things, that I said something like, “What do you mean join you? Don’t you mean that you want to eat me?”

The creature replied to me, “No. No, it’s not like that, I’m just like a submarine. I have all these lives in me. I have many, many lives in me. I am life. I contain the many. You can swim this ocean alone Tony, if you wish. Or you can join me, you can join the many. You can always, if you choose to live your independent life again, and leave us.”

I laughed here because I had the image of me being independent, stripping off, diving over the side of the boat into the ocean and swimming off. It is something I have often done in the sea, swimming long distances alone, or off to an island out to sea, by myself.

I began to give myself to that great creature which I now understood as the collective unconscious, the unity of lives. It felt as if it was absolving me, much as I had experienced earlier on. (One of those strange and beautiful, and also moving coincidences just happened. I am reading this in using voice recognition, and it is proving to be very accurate. But in the sentence where I said that I felt it was – and the word was supposed to be absorbing me – the software used the word absolving. And here I am again, back in the ocean, weeping as I know there is no judgement on the life I have led so alone and cut off.)

This has set off a whole train of realisations here in the present. I see what an extraordinary journey I have been on in my life, a journey stretching out of the distant past. A journey that has led me into my relationship with D, and in that relationship the unveiling of an extraordinary understanding. The long, long road of meeting myself, the gradual undoing of the web of influences that I wove in some distant time. And today it seems so clear, that the key to our relationship – D. and I – is in this renewing of ourselves, this undoing of the webs we have woven in the past. In my case the influences resulting from the lives in which I distanced myself from humanity, in which I cut my life adrift from those I loved, of being hard and rigid in love. This is so clear to me today.

I have the feeling that loves I have held at a distance, or even pushed away in the past, are gathering to me again. I am given so much love, and considering, as I have often felt, that this dried up stick of a man hasn’t a lot in him to love, I am amazed at the beauty of people and the love they give me, perhaps saved for me over many lives.

Art by Carlos Caban a great visionary artist. An illustration of the huge inner world.

I Am No Longer Interpreting Dreams

Instead I Offer You Life

If You Dare to Look Within

WHY?

1 – I need to do so much background work on the site and I cannot answer dreams and work on the site; except occasional Forum dreams.

2 – The dream site is a wonderful resource, and if you use it you can develop life skills that are incredibly useful.

3 – I started the site in the late 1980’s. I have worked intensely on creating the site, and the last seven years have  worked without a break, but in the last couple of years I took Saturday off each week. I need a break as I am now 82 and need not to work so hard 🙂

I notice that millions have passed through this site, but most people want to receive and give no effort to use the tools given freely. I also know from experience that you yourself have the answers if you give just a bit of yourself.

Who Am I?

I am a crazy old guy who fell in love with Life – that is Life, not living, which can at times be a trial. I was wounded on the way through youth, but who hasn’t been wounded, many through just being themselves. It takes a long time to really face yourself and admit your own tragedy. But I guess we are all wounded through being born in today’s world. I have licked my own wounds and have tried to lick some of yours. Also, I dared to search for answers, and I have written about the few I have found here on this site, so I encourage you to dare walking the same path. See Features Found on Site

In 1972 I experienced – after a long search – a breakthrough to a new dimension of experience. It healed me of wounds, transformed who I was, and so of course I wanted to share it with everybody. I have done that without any charge in the online features in Life’s Little Secrets – Opening to Life and Dimensions of Human Experience – Going Beyond – Great Dreams That Guide Us – Mountain Path

It isn’t a new path, for many, many have worn a clear path through human troubles. Dare to take it; for it means going beyond what you already know, so it needs some daring, or maybe desperation. It needs your creativity, for creativity tears the old to pieces and builds a new form. Or it leaps beyond what you know and with brilliance creates and finds the new.

Sometimes it works simply by sitting quietly and imagine walking a path through a forest. The path is not known to you but unfolds spontaneously as you continue walking. You may meet beautiful experiences and scary ones, but they are all you meeting yourself. You will get help on this path, for you are never alone here. But Life itself is full of wonders, and so your experience of taking the path may take many forms – be open to IT. But you need to let go of your control and Surrender to the Life in you. See Pandora’s Box

I demonstrated how to open to this to a group in 1973. A woman in the group described what she experienced –

Tony explained to us about letting whatever came, come. I did not understand too well, but lay down with the others and he came to each of us briefly and moved our arms, and left us lying (I left their arms in a position when the arms hit a tension). Perhaps two minutes passed when I felt a distinct twitching around my brow, which was repeated, and then it spread down my face, a downward pressing movement. My face was involved then in a big muscular movement, pressing down, seeming to flatten the face, and then spread down the body towards the feet. Gradually my whole body became involved in big waves of pressing movement which flowed down, lifting and tossing my legs, so that my heels were banging on the floor. Wave succeeded wave. I did as he said, and let it happen, using the skills to relax which I had learnt. I wasn’t afraid, although I couldn’t imagine what was happening to me. Instead I felt happy and elated, warmed through. I knew I had found something of great significance, but it was many months before I could put words to it. It remained an intriguing mystery, like a dropping away of chains, or a touching of promise, while I passed through the pain of divorce. I feel that my experience that day released considerable energy. It did not break my marriage – that would have happened anyway. But I received strength which I used for my needs at that time. Months later it came to me with the force of revelation, that I had been born that day.”

Another woman in the group, who also had a big response, suddenly sat up and said, “This is against my religion” and walked out of the room. I took it she was a Christian, and she had rejected her own religion, for the movements were exactly the same as were experienced during Pentecost, the Quakers and the Shakers.

What About You?

See Practical Techniques to explore Your Dreams meaning

And The best is a group using Peer Dreamwork

But Everything is Here – All the Features-Found-on-Site

But why have I spent my life writing about and hopefully teaching what I do?

To start with, while we sleep our conscious self is largely or totally unconscious, and while we dream our voluntary muscles are paralysed – therefore another will or motivating force moves our body and creates our dreams. So we have a Conscious Will, and what I will call a Life Will. The first one we have experience of as we can move our arm or speak in everyday activities; but the second will takes over when we sleep and in fact runs all our important life processes like heart beat, digestion and also dreams.

That is not a new idea.  Many ancient thinkers and writers have expressed it in one way or another. For instance, Jakob Boehme who lived between 1575 and 1624 wrote that:

Thou must consider that there are in thy Soul two Wills, an inferiour Will, which is for driving thee to Things without and below; and a superiour Will, which is for drawing to Things within and above. These two Wills are now set together, as it were, Back to Back, and in a direct Contrariety to each other; but in the Beginning, it was not so. (See: Jacob Behmen)

So, in life and sleep we have two powerful actions working in us. The first is our waking experience based on having a body, its limitations, vulnerabilities and a particular gender. Our second is the power that gives us life and continues to express as dreams, in our breathing and heartbeat – our life. This I have given the description as the Life Will. This Life will can move us to speak, to move our body, and in fact do things that we cannot do with our Conscious Will and in fact runs all our important life processes like heart beat, digestion and also dreams. To see the amazing possibilities read Edgar Cayce

Of course, the experience of our body moving spontaneously in new ways, and being led to new understanding from within is for most people completely unknown to them, but I will try to explain, for this was known to ancient cultures that our science sees as primitive.

Here is an experience of my own – “In 1953, when I was sixteen, and already deeply interested in the possibilities of the human mind, I took a course in deep relaxation.  I practised every day for three months, tensing my muscles, relaxing them, then passing my awareness over and over my body, dropping the feeling of tension and letting go. After three months I was quite proficient. One evening, after coming home from dining out with friends, I went to bed thinking I would leave my usual practice, but in the end decided to practice even though it was late. After going over my body several times I suddenly lost my right arm. I had no sensation of it other than space, hugeness. Then I lost my left arm, and – my whole body. It was like falling through a trap-door into the stars. I had no sense of having a body. Thoughts had ceased, except for a murmur apparently a thousand miles away. Yet in blackness, in immensity, in absence of thought I existed vitally as bodiless awareness. We think that we are our body because we have no other experience of our existence. So, we identify with our body and so are terrified of dying – which in a sense is what we do every time we go to sleep and leave our sense of a body behind.

I felt at the time, and still believe it correct, that I had fallen asleep yet remained awake. Waking, critical awareness had been taken through the magic doors of sleep into a universe we seldom ever see – deep dreamless sleep.”

That was a completely different world than waking consciousness – I call it the inner world, and it gives one access to areas of experience normal waking life does not.

If we know how to die to our own ego and thinking mind, then we can die to our waking self for a little while and experience the wonder of your inner life. So do that that I had learnt to die to my conscious self by entering that amazing and huge world. I did it by learning to become a virgin – i.e. having a mind free from preconceptions, and also learning the Keyboard Condition. As said, our Life Will can speak and move us, and so the keyboard condition is one in which you let go of your conscious will and allow the Life Will to control you or speak through you – pressing the keys. See How I Became A Virgin – Keyboard Condition

I know that sounds nonsense to most people, but most people haven’t spend three months practising for half an hour a day stilling their ego and conscious will. Of course one returns to normal life. But here are possibilities as described by Dr. Stanislav Grof in his book – Realms of the Human Unconscious:

Plant Identification 181

Oneness with Life and with All Creation 183

Consciousness of Inorganic Matter 184

Planetary Consciousness 185

Extraplanetary Consciousness 185

Out – of – Body Experiences, Travelling Clairvoyance and Clairaudience, “Space Travels,” and Telepathy 186

Spatial constriction of Consciousness 191

Organ, Tissue, and Cellular Consciousness 191

Experiential Extension beyond the Framework of “Objective Reality” 194

Transpersonal Experiences in LSD Sessions 154

Experiential Extension within the Framework of “Objective Reality” 158

Temporal Expansion OF Consciousness 158

Ebryonal and Foetal Experiences 158

Ancestral Experiences 162

Collective and Racial Experiences 167

Phylogenetic (Evolutionary Experiences 171

Past Incarnation Experiences 173

Precognition, Clairvoyance, Clairaudience, and “Time Travels” 177

Spatial Expansion OF consciousness 178

Ego Transcendence in Interpersonal Relationships

 and the Experience of Dual   Unity 178

Identification with Other Persons 179

Group Identification and Group Consciousness 180

Animal Identification 180

 Yes, of course it is nonsense until you experience it. My first experience of Life talking to me was in 1972, when I was 35 years old.

“Our baby woke up and my wife had got out of bed to see to him. I got out and went to the toilet. As I came back into the room a voice said, “You have asked how God touches the human soul – now watch closely.”

Knowing enough about how ones inner world can communicate I didn’t think I was suffering mental illness because I was hearing a voice. But I was very moved and did watch closely; and shortly afterwards a huge experience shook me and entered me in a new way of life. I had literally died to my old awareness and was born into the new.

Many people who are ready hear Life talking to them.

Victor Gollancz, in his book Darkness to Light, tells of his own inner voice.

“For an hour past I have been the prey of a vague anxiety; I recognise my old enemy – – – It is a sense of void and anguish; a sense of something lacking: what? Love, peace, God perhaps? The essence of my hell was outlawry. By the sin which, as I felt, I had committed, I had broken the links that united me with universal living: I was separate, alone, without lot or part in the everything. I had deprived myself, treacherously, of it: I had deprived it, quite as treacherously, of me.

“One forenoon, when my terror and despair seemed to be at their height, and after a total insomnia that had lasted for twenty-two days, and every muscle and nerve ached, I set out for a walk with my wife. We went very slowly. About half an hour later we turned, sharply, left, into a dark and narrow path that descended: and soon came out into a great open space – a sort of water  meadow, with herds grazing, and a high inland cliff just in front of us. There was dappled sunlight everywhere, and a slight breeze. I felt suddenly very still: and then I heard the inland cliff, and the grass and water and sky, say very distinctly to me ‘A humble and a contrite heart He will not despise.’ When I say I heard them say it, I mean, quite literally, that I heard them say it; a voice came from them: but they were also themselves the voice, and the voice was also within me I said to my wife ‘The trouble is over’, and that night I slept a little.” (15)

The very first step on our journey is framed in these questions: Do I as a personality and conscious being, arise out of my own self and will, or has something I know little of caused me to exist? Do I acknowledge frequently my dependence upon that something, called Life? If not, am I impractical not to open my will, heart, passions and mind, my whole being, to that influence without which I would not exist?

So my mentions of Life are about the huge possibilities that are open to any who can die to their surface life. Also I am fed up with claiming the many experiences as my own so simply say – a man said. Therefore the things I say in the different periods of your life arise from living a long and full life and being able at times to have a broader view than many.

As an example of what you can experience once you can enter your inner world, here is one of my sons experiences of his inner life.

“This is when I entered into the house of God. At first I saw the image of a huge cathedral or church with a magnificent domed roof and I knew that I was in the house of God. I felt the Utopia, I felt like I have never felt before, so very good, so excellent. I knew all things. I didn’t have to read the bible or any kind of teachings because the answers are all here in the presence of God. In this state I could ask any question and know the answer. I knew God, yet I was God because there was no separation.”

And here is an example of a dream a woman sent me once she learnt to explore her dream using Being the Person or Thing:

Example: I dreamt of being with a woman who was desperately seeking a man. I was also with my own female companion. I believe the woman had been suddenly dropped by her man, and I and my partner were close and with her.

Still in the semi-awake state I tried ‘being’ the woman, and had a very clear response. I experienced being her, but was also me with experience of seeing into myself in some degree. I saw that the woman, like most of us, was a female creature whose instinctive drive was to find a mate. But she was not aware of this as an instinctive drive but as a personal feeling. As such she had become, like many women and men, lost in a huge web of personal ideas about whether they were attractive, sexy, with many complications about love, gender mixed with childhood unconscious traumas and the heartbreak all that brings.

 

 

Bodyguard

It may be a sign of your fears of being attacked. Sometimes in male dreams it is about a sexual theme – guarding a female person.

At times it tends to be saying, you, the dreamer, is having a fantasy of guarding a very important person.

A dream bodyguard can also be a mixture of a guarding influence, and a force within you that leads to personal transformation. It is your connection with the whole of life, with collective wisdom, or the collective unconscious, as it relates to your life. The guardian is not so concerned with physical welfare, as to the realisation of your eternal nature and life as it connects with the whole. Thus the figure in dreams will usually guide you towards greater self understanding, deeper relationships with him/her/self, and instruct you in any necessary disciplines of mind and body.