Super Heroes and Mythical Creatures

Super Heroes and Mythical Creatures


Super Heroes



The Sphinx



Jack and the Beanstalk

Pan the God

Pandora’s Box

Immense and Unseen Beings

Immovable Force Meets an Unstoppable Object



Sleeping Beauty – or Little Briar Rose

Christmas Myth

The Christian Mythology

The Holy Grail


Werewolf _Lycanthrope


The Gods

Evil Spirits Devils Demons


Super Heroes

No person that I know of can fly without mechanical help, can send bolts of energy to fight people with, has seen a flying dragon, or rode on a Unicorn or Pegasus, or even walked on water. But in dreams all these are possible, because all the stories about them are all created by the inner world of dreams to illustrate in symbols what we are all capable of.

Example: I was suddenly awakened by a feeling I was being attacked. Still dreaming I looked to my right and saw a strange man standing near my bed who I felt was trying to mess with my head. Reaching out I send a bolt of energy at him that exploded in his face. He immediately disappeared, but I sent several other bolts exploding after him. This amazed me because I had never done anything like that before.

Example: ‘During childhood I learned to fly in a long sequence of dreams. Each linked very clearly to the last. I would go to the nearby churchyard and in the beginning I would run along as fast as I could then jump and just manage to extend the jump by a great effort of will. In subsequent practices I managed to gradually extend the jump for many yards; and eventually I could skim along indefinitely. The next stage though was to extend my height, and this took enormous effort of will and body. I made active swimming motions and climbed, but only held altitude with great and constant concentration. With further practice still, this clumsy mode of flying was left behind as I learned to use pure motivation, decision or will to lift me into the air and carry me easily and gracefully wherever I wished. At this stage my flying was swift, mobile and without struggle.’

Example: “One night I dreamt I was on the hill behind my old “home” in Amersham. A strong wind was blowing, but it was warm, sunny, and peaceful. Spreading my arms I caught the wind in my short coat and rose up like a kite. Higher and higher I went, and I experimented with diving and gliding. Sometimes I lost the airlift and tumbled over and over, but at no point did I feel fear. I twisted and found the lift again. At one point I rose to an enormous height and saw the earth distant below me.”

Take walking on water, it says in symbolic  form that our emotions that can be stormy and difficult to deal with can be dealt with and even tamed by the immense power we hold within us, which most of us have lost contact with. I am talking about a huge force that can be contacted or allowed into ones life. Without it we are often powerless to deal with negative feelings, and so many people take the path of suicide. But with it we can meet them easily, walking over the surface of such stormy emotions.

Perhaps the only way I can begin to make this real to you is to have you consider what a seed is. But I want to remind you that all life on our planet began as a single cell. That single celled life form had eternal life, for it never died but created copies of itself, and each new copy carried the experience of all its past – so it evolved. In fact it became all the billions of plants, creatures and humans alive today.

As for the seed, I ask you to realise that any seed did not simply appear, but is the result of millions of years of life experience. So, no plant or creature grows from a dead seed, and each living seed carries within it all the past gathered from all its forebears. So, the seed in your mother’s womb is as old as and even older than human kind, and you carry that wisdom or memories in you. But in this life you developed a new brain, and the memories you gathered this time are what you built your personality from, but beneath that is a very ancient and huge self.

That huge memory has faced every life situation, has dealt with death over and over, has mated and lived in all animal forms, and is the greatest survivor. In animals we call it instincts and animals do not face uncertainty in life choices, they simply ARE. But humans developed self awareness, and have a sense of themselves as individuals, and that comes with a huge cost attached to it. The cost is that most of us are no longer guided  by our instincts, their long and huge memory, and so often become victims of depression, madness, and feeling lost. See Programmed 

But that isn’t a new problem because it has been seen, recorded, written about for as long as humans had language and the mean to communicate. In doing so their stories are full of super heroes  and amazing creatures. The stories are all about the wonder that we carry within us that we have forgotten, persecuted, even tried to kill out. After all, what is the New Testament, the Labours of Hercules about but super heroes or heroines. Of course we have been told the stories as history, and so been deluded, when really the stories are about what we face in our lives now.

Because they were never a new story, but a new presentation of the old, old story. For example, Mithra was born in a cave, and on the 25th December. He was born of a Virgin. He travelled far and wide as a teacher and illuminator of men. His great festivals were the winter solstice and the Spring equinox (Christmas and Easter). He had twelve companions or disciples (the twelve months). He was buried in a tomb, from which however he rose again; and his resurrection was celebrated yearly with great rejoicings. He was called Savior and Mediator, and sometimes figured as a Lamb; and sacramental feasts in remembrance of him were held by his followers. Mithra appearance is dated 1400 BC.

An image of Mithra, showing his aura and glory

But long before that, Osiris was born on the 361’st day of the year, say the 27th December. He too, like Mithra and Dionysus, was a great traveller. As King of Egypt he taught men civil arts, and “tamed them by music and gentleness, not by force of arms”; he was the discoverer of corn and wine. But he was betrayed by Typhon, the power of darkness, and slain and dismembered.  His body was placed in a box, but afterwards, on the 19th, came again to life. His sufferings, his death and his resurrection were enacted year by year in a great mystery-play at Abydos.

Jan and his wife Tipuy worshipping Osiris

Yes, we are living this ancient story now in our life. Are we denying it, crucifying it, seeking it or even opening ourselves to it? For it is discovered again in every age. See Opening to Life

In the Sixties Donovan sang a song called ‘There is an Ocean’.  To quote some of the words, he says the ocean is, “The abode of Angels, the mystical Promised Land, The one and only Heaven, the God of man, Is but the closing of an eyelid away.”

That ocean is just an eye blink away.  When you close your eyes you are in the ocean.  Of course you are never out of it.  But with open eyes and ears, you may be completely unaware of its enormous depths and dimensions.  Even with eyes closed you may be lost in the choppy ocean surface waves of thought and emotions.  So many impressions claim awareness, apparently of enormous importance.  Urges gusting from hormones, from deeply etched habits, claim attention. Donovan found a way beyond by using  psychedelics. 



Traditionally there were many angels, and some of the greatest were said to be messengers for particular things, like the angel of death, or the angel of love. Such old concepts still hold sway in our unconscious, so it is helpful to consider if the angel you met has some particular quality, or is communicating a particular message. Also consider whether you are in accord or in conflict with the angel. If in accord it suggests that some deeply felt intuition is accepted by you. If in conflict then something that is powerfully influential deep within you is being rejected and is creating an internal conflict.

Angels do not need wings to fly, but the church has added them and also the image of a male god up in the sky. Also most angels are shown as female, but again that is make believe.

When we meet in life things that have no form, like electricity or forces of nature such as gravity, an aspect or level of our mind often produces images or emotions as a way for us to have a sense of them.

As an example, while working in Japan and having no knowledge of their language, I was invited to have lunch in a restaurant with the group of people I was teaching. As we entered the restaurant a Japanese man welcomed us and I heard him speak in French his message. I mentioned this to the others and they assured me that the man had spoken in Japanese. yet I had heard it!

It happened the next day also, and so I believe that because I was surrounded by a language I didn’t understand, my brain that actually interprets, and creates our internal sense impressions, summed up the situation – a foreign language – French – a greetings was happening add so my amazing mental process produced the sound of greeting in French instead of Japanese – a very remarkable thing, We do this because we tend to have an experience of the world based on our body senses, and our mind and awareness are from a very different environment or dimension, so we tend to put such awareness in images and ideas we understand.

Example: Dreamt I was dead and was now an angel, but I was asleep. I seemed to be a separate witness to this, watching my sleeping angel self. The angel self also seemed to be neither male or female.

This story, which was told to me by a doctor who witnessed it from beginning to end in the small Idaho hospital where it happened. A woman had given birth to a baby with severe complications. When the child was delivered, he was found to have a severe brain haemorrhage.

The child spent several months in the intensive care unit of this small town because the mother did not want to transfer him to a large city where she would not be allowed to spend full time with him. Doctors decided not to encourage her to move the child since they felt the injuries were so massive that no treatment would be possible.

The child had severe cerebral palsy secondary to brain damage and a seizure disorder that had shown up on an abnormal EEG. These are afflic­tions from which children simply don’t recover. If they survive infancy, they spend their lives severely retarded.

The doctors told her their prognosis, but still the mother stayed with her child. By all accounts she was with the boy almost twenty-four hours a day for several months. Perhaps it was the strain of the ordeal or sleep deprivation that led to what happened next.

Late one night, she said, a Being of Light came into her hospital room. Later she described it as having the shape of a person, but not the features of either a male or a female. It glowed with a cold, gray light as though light were being beamed through an ice cube.

“Your son will be all right,” the being said.

The woman said that she felt as though love were being poured into her body. “It was marvellous.”

The next day she shared this vision with her medical team. She was especially excited because the being had assured her that her son was going to be normal. Could they please do another EEG to see if anything had happened? They repeated the brain-wave test and came up with the startling results – normal. The child had made a full recovery.”

“That the Divine is the same in things greatest and least, may be shown by means of heaven and by means of an angel there. The Divine in the whole heaven and the Divine in an angel is the same; therefore even the whole heaven may appear as one angel. So is it with the church, and with a man of the church. The greatest form receptive of the Divine is the whole heaven together with the whole church; the least is an angel of heaven and a man of the church. Sometimes an entire society of heaven has appeared to me as one angel-man; and it was told that it may appear like a man as large as a giant, or like a man as small as an infant; and this, because the Divine in things greatest and least is the same. ” Eckhart

In a real way, because images arise from our own potential and are in some way expressions of us, angels are about the conscious use of our own faculties without the waving of magic wands. There is no need to attempt conjuring of spirits or angels. We are an expression of life and as such hold all possibilities within us. So, the question is, how can we work with ourselves here and now, with our own psychological and biological processes? How can we help our being to heal itself and move further? See messengersIntuition – Using It

Well, even if we take that point of view, it is still helpful to enlist the help of such dream images. After all, dreams link with a very deep part of us, a part not limited by logic, thinking and the past experience. As Einstein said, “The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honours the servant and has forgotten the gift”. So, use your imagination and follow it where it leads. See Travelling Your Dreams and Using Visualisation.

Example: Before I knew I was ill with cancer I dreamt that an angel came to me and explained that before we are born we are all angels and are without limitations. When we are born we take on a life of the limitations of our body in order to learn something important to us. Then when we die at the end of that life we return to being an angel. All the limitations of life then disappear again.’

My own angelic experience. It happened while lying in bed awake and it left such a deep impression it changed my life –

Angels in my Room

Suddenly there were two beings with me in my room.
I could not see them with my eyes,
But they were standing in my awareness,
To my left, suspended above the bed
Where I lay musing.

Surprising, because I had not sought them.
Frightening, because they were the living dead.
Radiant, because they were angels.
Inspiring, because they shone with wonderful life.
Uplifting, because of the gift they brought.

The living dead!
Yes. That I knew of them.
It was everywhere about them,
Communicating itself to me.
Telling me the majesty of death.

Speaking to me without words
They led knowing in me,
As you might lead a friend
Through your new house,
Revealing its secrets.

Thereby I knew,
All that I considered human,
In them had died.
Desire, longing to possess, power, sex, ambition,
All had melted away.

And I understood in their presence,
If I surrendered to the Highest,
This was my path.
My own person would melt away,
My desires fade like shadows in the sun.

Fear – Yes – in the loss of myself.
In the sense of my own futility.
In the knowledge of my littleness.
In the confrontation of majesty.
At the loss of what I thought my wisdom.

In them I saw beyond myself.
Through their emptiness
Of all that I so valued.
I saw shimmering light,
Cosmic in its vastness.

Their death allowed,
Shining through them,
Dimensions of a life
Beyond the very best
Of all my mind, or love, or art.

Radiant they were
With all the mystery of Life itself.
Suns shone through them;
Not just with light,
But with ungrasped joy and love.

Inspiring me
By showing me the possibility
Of my life,
And all the lives
Of those myriads around me.

Uplifting too,
By unveiling to me
The meaning of the story He told,
Where, having lost ones cloak,
You offer your coat also.

Not, as I had thought,
An act of selfless generosity.
They said it was a statement.
“How strange. You want this old coat,
When you could have the life unbounded?”

That was their promise.
If I dared lose my self,
Let that coat be taken from me,
My being too would shine.
As theirs shone on me that day. 



Let’s start with Pegasus, the winged horse.

Here is a dream of a young sixteen year old female.

“I have been dreaming about similar dreams as this one but do not remember any except from one single dream and it hit me strongly. I dreamt about a white flying house; a Pegasus. At that time, I felt pure joy and love. I felt free, warm and lighted. But compared to this dream, in the dream about my birds I instead felt afraid and slightly irritated like I didn’t want to lose something that I hold so dearly. I didn’t feel this free and happy. I myself got a direct feeling that this dream could mean that I need to let go of the negative thoughts from the mind and free my inner bird because no bird is meant to be caged even if it is a pet. That is why I have been letting them out once a day to fly around in the room and to be free before putting them back. So, a question I would like to ask is: What could this dream actually mean with me feeling worried, being afraid and trying to caught the birds back instead of being happy and filled with joy? Is there something I may have been missed when analysing my dream?  Ariadna”

Pegasus, the winged horse can take flight from the foot of a hill because it doesn’t need to be at an altitude, it doesn’t even go left or right. It seems that it takes flight from the most blatant sexual love and passion. In fact out of that passion, out of that connection and the pain of it, it takes flight.

I realise at this point that when a man and woman have great flowing love and passion for each other it can lift up their consciousness into a new level of experience. Women seem more ready for this than men. They want to be transported by love and thereby achieve a new level of being or maturity. But usually in our society this love in some way becomes materialized or commercialized, maybe even trivialised or sexualised to the point where any transcendence is killed or broken.  


The Sphinx

This depicts riddle of your existence. Why are we here? Where have we arisen from? It shows humanness emerging from the animal instinctive drives, so is therefore the human struggle to become a self aware human as we emerged from our animal background.

It shows this because it has a human face on an animal/lions body; because it is a very ancient carving, it portrays the great struggle humans go through in trying to find freedom from the animal instincts. The struggle still continues.

If they manage this the person becomes really aware of what he is dealing with, the enormous power of the instincts and how they rule ones life. A new realisation, and one not easily understood, for the person is still under the influence of the inner animal. It has lived its life from its own instincts without any thought, and is a creature of habits. Facing these and the tricks they play on the mind asks a lot. See Habits

People say that we are not instinctive, yet we are still almost controlled by the instinct to seek sex, the tremendous urge to seek leaders, the urge to survive, the mother and father instinct. To understand this you need to realise that the brain works in certain ways. It is something like the brain running a computer program, like a set of responses. Or it can be like something flowing – a stream – which creates channels. So our responses to information gathered is that it runs or triggers a program or set of responses. Or the reaction flows in already created channels.

Early life-forms had something like a program from which they responded to their environment in a manner to survive. This was a set of responses. One could also think of it as a limited repertoire, or set of repertoires which enabled the creature to survive. If something was not in its repertoire the organism could not respond. But the system was also an information gathering one, as this linked with survival and survival strategies.  The creatures lived in a completely different state of consciousness, one where they were in an ocean of awareness and instinctive information. See Brain Levels

There was a dramatic leap to another situation which was still survival based. Instead of being limited to a certain set of responses – the problem solving response function was able to do what we call dream. That is, it could experiment with situations, replay events in new ways, and try different responses. This produced a remarkable potential far beyond the actual survival needs. It was as if the process could play at life or creativity, erecting situations, forming events, trying out variety.

In this period a long struggle to deal with ones instinctive self is met, and in fact the pains and troubles of ones personality occurs. He/She must harness these impulses, not repress them, because they are the basic energy and creativity within one. Because these are all instinctive and habitual reactions, they must be slowly redirected.  They involve:

  • Physical movement, so in traditional use of yoga postures the aim was to be able to sit without movement for three hours, and to do it each day for three months, because it took a long time to retrain the inner wildness. But any form of movement such as dancing, Tai Chi that requires a way to train ones body does the same, as does LifeStream and People’s Experiences of LifeStream.
  • Sexual expression is another way the instinctive self expresses. Again it should not be harnessed by repression, but by gradually leading it up the body into higher forms of energy release. See Energy Sex and Dreams
  • Hunger for food or sensual satisfaction is also instinctive. This can be seen when the first thing a new born baby wants to do after it starts to breathe, it wants to reconnect and feed from the breast. So regular fasting was an ancient method, but it should not be done from the attitude that one must lose weight. See Fasting
  • The emotions and their instinctive expression in humans can be experienced as panic attacks, painful emotional reactions to relationships, suicidal tendencies, and generally being shattered by your emotions. This generally links with disturbed breathing patterns such as breath holding and not be able to breath smoothly. A traditional way of healing this is by using controlled breathing. Ways of doing this are – but remember, it takes time to change lifetime habits – so see 1-4-2 Breath Control and The Breath Meditation
  • The voice is another way of instinctive expression. I have met a few people who cannot stop talking, and a way to deal with it is to become aware of it and harness it. Some of the great beings who took this path of the Ox Herding tell their story.

In 1927 Buckminster Fuller stood on the shore of Lake Michigan contemplating suicide. He said to himself: ‘I’ve done the best I know how and it hasn’t worked.’ He was still grieving the loss of a daughter who had died five years earlier; his business had just failed. He was penniless and 32 years old. He wondered how he could support his wife and newly born baby, but, after struggling with his despair for hours in the dark and the freezing wind, he decided to live the rest of life like an experiment. He wanted to discover whether the golden rule of life was dog eat dog. He would find out by seeing what could be physically demonstrated. To free his mind of conditioned thinking and reflexes he stopped talking for a year. He is now known for many, many achievements.

Fuller said that he had experienced a profound incident which provided direction and purpose for his life. He felt as though he was suspended several feet above the ground enclosed in a white sphere of light. A voice spoke directly to Fuller, and declared:

“From now on you need never await temporal attestation to your thought. You think the truth. You do not have the right to eliminate yourself. You do not belong to you. You belong to Universe. Your significance will remain forever obscure to you, but you may assume that you are fulfilling your role if you apply yourself to converting your experiences to the highest advantage of others.” [10]

  • Mental activity is another escape route. It is a way people sometimes use to prevent them for experience other aspects of the mind or consciousness. Many disciplines tell people to stop thinking, to quieten their mental activity. That is one way but there is also Intuition which leads one past the age old responses. Also try Opening to Life  



The unicorn was always linked with image of a young virgin, so the unicorn represented male sexual impulse but of a magical type. It was magical because if the virginal  influence, because the virgin in mythology represents the possibility of dropping preconceptions, thus attaining an inner virginity and thus being receptive to the unseen or unconscious side of self.  This means that when we become empty of preconceived ideas we can receive and conceive, and even give birth to, an extraordinary impulse or power that can open us to a new life and purpose. See How I Became A Virgin

Therefore, what is received in that way, transforms the animal sexual impulse to a creative and caring impulse. So having a virginal mind opens huge possibilities. When we experience this personally, the child we conceive is the union between the receptive conscious self and wider awareness – between you and Life within you. This receptivity and virginity of mind leads to the birth in oneself of a force or activity that gradually transforms and enlarges ones life and experience. In the west we call what grows in us ‘The Christ’. Other cultures give it different names.

But as this photo suggests, that young teenage girls can become unconsciously sexually aroused, it shows also the horse holding the girl to it, so it is not a one way experience. I believe that young girls can allow such feelings saying they love the horse. So a magical erotic relationship exists. The painting has a very similar theme to the photo. 



Dragons are very important, the are a huge part of stories, films  and peoples dreams, as seen in the series Merlin, How to Train Your Dragon, the film The Sorcerers Apprentice, Pete’s Dragon and many others.

But dreams are the place to really understand the enormous power dream dragons hold either of personal psychological illness or amazing transformation.

“In the dream I entered a cave and I saw a dragon resting inside, it woke up, saw me and we stared at one another for a moment and then it moved and I saw a sack of diamonds and diamonds over flowing, coming out from the cave wall, it looks like the dragon was guarding it.”

The dragon depicts the massive and irrational forces of the unconscious, the life urges and untamed fears and sexuality that one must face and deal with in order to gain the treasure of potential locked in sexual, mental and emotional energy, which is a treasure that does not rot, as with diamonds it lasts for ever..

The Christian tradition, that describes the enormous and terrible fight with the Devil, with the dragons we hold within us, paints a tragic picture of an enormous struggle with our own basic life giving energies.

It shows a never ending fight with our own nature. The picture shows this in St. George killing the dragon. A woman’s dream depicts this struggle, also her courage to actually integrate what she was horrified of.

“This dream I had few years ago but can’t get it out of my head ever since, I know it’s very important and related to my spiritual path.

So, I am holding a rope attached to the tail of a humongous black hooded dragon. I am struggling to hold on, it looks like we’re inside the earth, there’s dirt, mud and rocks everywhere and the Dragon seems like swimming in it. The dragon tries to throw me away with its tail but can’t do it, then he/she tries to eat me and appears as if she/he is chasing its tail, but can’t. The terrain is so rough and she/he can’t shake me off even though I am less than a mosquito to her/him. This goes on for a while but not for a moment I think of letting go.

Then the terrain starts to get softer, less rocks, more mud, the dragon does not fight as aggressively now and I start to climb the rope getting closer to the body. The terrain gets even softer and now water appears. Finally, I reach the dragon’s body, its colossal; I can hardly catch on to one scale. Now I’m on its back and we’re into water, the experience from horrifying becomes adventurous and then pleasant. I’m climbing its back slowly and it becomes easier by the moment, then we are out of the water and flying in the air, it’s wonderful. The air starting to get thinner there is no resistance at all and the colours are becoming so vivid and psychedelic, it’s ecstatic. Finally, I reach the head and I see its beautiful face it is rounded, thorny with fantastic yellow eyes. Awe is not enough to describe that moment, I feel warm safe and loved. I don’t remember any words only this endless bliss.”

So that is part of the treasure we can reach if we dare to continue against odds.

(I have a secret smile because the dragon in the St. George painting seems to be only a baby).

Other nations have very different views of the dragon. In Wales their flag is a triumphant statement of the dragon nature. It shows a very alive and vigorous red dragon, and stands for the passion of the nation. See Origins of Welsh Nation

The Chinese in particular have a great regard for the dragon, and see it and, “revere it as representative of the primal forces of nature, religion and the universe. They associated it with wisdom—often said to be wiser than humans—and longevity. They are commonly said to possess some form of magic or other supernatural power, and are often associated with wells, rain, and rivers. In some cultures, they are also said to be capable of human speech. In some traditions dragons are said to have taught humans to talk.” Quoted from Wikipedia.

Here is an image of the Chinese dragon looking very alive and virile. The people of China have a long held belief that they are descendents of the dragon, a tradition that is firmly embedded in their culture and one that is encountered across all aspects of Chinese society and in the minds of its people. Whereas in western cultures the dragon is usually regarded as a symbol of malevolence, in China it is held in high esteem for its dignity and power for good.

From primitive times people have regarded the dragon as supernatural and auspicious creature with the power to bless and influence their lives. _


Immovable Force Meets an Unstoppable Object

This mythological situation is usually depicted by huge cosmic events of clashes between Superhero’s, but the fact is it is a common life event.

I know it well because it happened to me. I must have been about twelve and had started masturbating. But my mother must have seen evidence on my bed sheets, and one day she exploded into intense emotional shouting that if I carried on doing it I would die. She screamed out, “Daddy and I don’t want you to die!!!”

That put the fear of death in me, so I tried to stop masturbating. To my horror I found that it happened while I was asleep. The horror was that I felt that I had become possessed by the Devil – in those days people were infected with such beliefs and I was scared. So I started wearing a tight swimming costume which would wake me as I fumbled with the costume. Well, it worked and for about nine precious years of my life I experienced no sexual activity, not even wet dreams. I had stopped the unstoppable force.

As I found, the sex drive happened while asleep; it wasn’t mine to control, in fact it was an instinctive force that most people go along with not recognising its power. People have admitted to me that they masturbate or have sex every day. People do not really own that realisation, but a great authority on sexuality, Wilhelm Reich, said in his book, The Function of the Orgasm –

“It was a blow in the face to conventional thinking. You think that you determine your actions with free will? Far from it! Your conscious action is only a drop on the surface of a sea of unconscious processes, of which you can know nothing—about which, indeed, you are afraid to know. You are proud of the “individuality of your personality” and of the “broadness of your mind”? What conceit! Actually, you are the mere toy of your instincts, which do with you whatever they please.”

I learnt that by trying to kill my sexual instinct, the result was conflict, resulting in neurosis and depression. But my mother’s fear and huge rant was not because of her ignorance. In that period of time TB was everywhere and I knew people who had it and were walking about with it. What I only learned later was that my mother had taken me to have a chest x-ray, and also that most adults knew that a person with tuberculosis often was very highly sexed and sought sexual expression with a vengeance.

That may have been because as they were dying they instinctively tried to procreate. My mother must have known that and her fear for me as a weak chick – the doctor had told my mother as he threw my premature and lifeless body aside on the bed – I wasn’t breathing – that I would be a weak child and wouldn’t live long and she could have more children. That is why my story is about the Unstoppable Object – the sexual instinct – meeting the Immovable Force – my fear of death.

But it is not simply my own struggle for it can exist between a person’s instincts and their personal experience. Many women driven by their instinctive desire to have a baby, finding they have not conceived are similarly torn. There are many cases of women in such torment stealing other women’s babies. Similar conflict can exist between any of our instinctive needs such as breathing, eating, and the desire to be loved.

Also the huge conflict between underpaid workers and some bosses.  

Jack and the Beanstalk

I feel that I have insight into what the story of Jack and the beanstalk is about.  Jack, a poor country boy goes to the market and trades the family cow for a handful of magic beans, which grow into an enormous beanstalk reaching up into the clouds. Jack climbs the beanstalk and finds himself in the castle of an unfriendly giant. The giant senses Jack’s presence and cries, “Fee, fie, fo, fum, I smell the blood of an Englishman!” .

One of my sons dreamt he climbed up the huge beanstalk and felt the presence of the Giant Being. He also felt sure they were aware of him and that they would kill him.

That is exactly what the story is about. A young man goes to market –  the market is our contact with the world in general, the hustle and bustle, the commerce of life, the wide range of experience one meets in exposing oneself to more than ones close family and friends – there he finds himself exposed to many different views and opinions, one of which is that one can grow beyond the normal everyday experience of people and gain a much richer and extensive view – the magic beans, the power of personal growth.

People who never find this power pf personal growth may remain stuck in life situations from which they may never emerge. The situation might be one of never establishing a full and satisfying sexual relationship; constantly feeling hurt by the actions of others; existing in a state of depression or anxiety; forever having to seek activity or company to deal with ones own inner emptiness; experiencing enormous jealousy or anxiety in a relationship; feeling you have never made it in life – the list could be endless.

This grows in him and he is enlightened by it because he is able to see a vaster view than those locked in chasing after financial riches or being lost in worldly cares or desires. But this brings him to the world of Giants. As said, “The Life Will is an enormous activity, a giant in its abilities and coverage. Also, people meeting it fear they are dying or will killed. See Enlightenment

That is true; YES they will be killed, but not physically. It is a facing of the huge Life Will that seems threatening to the small and less powerful Conscious Will, your personality, as the massive influx of information and experiences is released from the Life Will. See  Death of Ego

The Life Will has a huge memory, has faced every life situation, has dealt with death over and over, has mated and lived in all animal forms, and is the greatest survivor. In animals we call it instincts and animals do not face uncertainty in life choices.  But humans have developed self-awareness, and have a sense of themselves as individuals, and that comes with a huge cost attached to it. The cost is that most of us are no longer guided by our instincts, their long and huge memory, and so often become victims of depression, mental illness, and feeling lost.

But that isn’t a new problem because it has been seen, recorded, written about for as long as humans had language and had the means to communicate. In doing so their stories are full of superheroes and amazing creatures. The stories are all about the wonder that we carry within us that we have forgotten, persecuted, even tried to kill out. After all, what is the New Testament, the Labours of Hercules about but superheroes or heroines. But of course, we have been told the stories are history, and so been deluded, when really the stories are about what we face in our lives now. 

Pan the Great God

We see a God in the Sun, shining in the sky, being born and giving itself to us every day, thus representing the cycle that governs our lives. Without the Sun, we would not exist. Therefore, it is revered as the bearer of the force, of the heat that germinates the seed in the earth and that melts the ice of the soil after the long winter. The god Pan is also tender with wild animals, and can wear horns on his head like those of the deer, thus symbolizing his connection with the non-domesticated animals.

Pan is here shown in his true form as a force in the natural world expressing as all the woodland creatures.

In ancient Greek religion and mythology, Pan (Ancient Greek:) Πάν, (Pan) is the god of the wild, shepherds and flocks, nature of mountain wilds, rustic music and impromptus, and companion of the nymphs. He has the hindquarters, legs, and horns of a goat, in the same manner as a faun or satyr. With his homeland in rustic Arcadia, he is also recognized as the god of fields, groves, wooded glens and often affiliated with sex; because of this, Pan is connected to fertility and the season of spring. From Wikipedia

That quote appeals to me because in my youth I dreamt an amazing dream:

There is a forest of the soul that dreams can conjure,
Where creatures strange as dreams are seen,
And this one, tired of lights and people
Made a pathway to its places few had been.
This is the wood of dreamy strangeness,
And I, among its creatures wandered there,
Amidst its green and leafy places,
Through its thorns and damp cool air.

Then out into a clearing,
The beech nut path had led me,
Rounded by the sky and by the wood,
And there naked in the half light,
Still as a fawn in wild flowers and grasses,
A lovely maiden stood.

She was brown as the beech nut caskets
That lined the way as I came,
And like the soft silk of spring beech leaves,
Her skin was just the same.
For an age we stood and pondered,
What we saw in each other’s eyes.
And all to be said had been spoken,
And to talk with the tongue would be lies.

Then in a voice that was silent,
She called to my every cell.
She called in a way forbidden,
In a speech as old as mankind;
She called in a tone that shook me,
And I suffered the longings of hell.

But the voice within kept warning,
To think of those I loved,
To picture any woman,
Any girl who was beloved.
And that was the only way backwards,
From this supernatural shore.

Then to that clearing came forward,
One whom the trees had hid,
The great god Pan with his woodland creatures,

The rabbits, mice, deer and others

To aid Nature in her bid.
He told of a million secrets,
Of as many unearthly delights,
This nut brown woman could give me,
Through eternity’s days and nights.

But I clung to my picture of women,
I feared the mind diffuse,
That over all earth pervaded,
And for singleness had no use.
It was God’s idea to be different,
To rise up all alone,
to grow as a man individual,
And have a soul of one’s own

Yes, I clung to the love of my lover,
The commonness of a friend,
And the figures before me faded,
Into that woodland glen.

Slowly I traced my footsteps,
Back through the leaf green ways,
Over the beaten pathways,
Through the damp cool dells.
I can’t say I’m happy I’ve lost her,
For she’ll never come back again.

But sometimes I catch a whisper,
In the touch of a summer night’s rain.
That if I stay with mankind,
As the great star clusters stir,
Could it be the love I came back for,
Will grow to be like Her?

Unfortunately when Roman Catholicism saw anything from past beliefs as evil, Pan was shown not as a protector of the natural and instinctive life, of which we are a part, but as a devil who led people to hell, a place never described before.

For Hades, now labelled as Hell by Christianity, was not a place of torment and fire, but the unseen world the living lose sight of because, as modern scientific research says, “Many modern physicists, working with the information arising in experiments with quantum theory, tell us that our view of the world is based upon our blindness, and is very limited, and through its limitation, unreal. Yet this view we take to be the REAL universe.”

Hades as a God figure, ruled the land beneath the surface of the earth where all dead things are thought to go; not to suffer Hell, but a place that was out of our ability to see and know – except those whose senses could go beyond the normal. For according to latest science, things can be in two places at once. Apparently distant objects, or people, are intricately linked in an immediate way. There is no separate existence as we previously thought. Our view of the world is not one supported by the facts of physics. Time and space are transcended.

“You see the mountain, and hill following after hill, as wave on wave, you see the woods and orchard, and the fields of ripe corn, and the meadows reaching to the reed-beds by the river… I say that all these are but dreams and shadows; the shadows that hide the real world from our eyes. There is a real world, but it is beyond this glamour and this vision, beyond these ‘chases in Arras, dreams in a career’, beyond them all as beyond a veil.

‘Yes,’ said the doctor, still quite cool, ‘it is a great pity; she is a hopeless idiot. However, it could not be helped; and, after all, she has seen the Great God Pan.'” This was said about Mary who saw the God Pan In her visions of ‘madness’. From the Great God Pan by Arthur Machen

That is an interesting statement because the ‘madness’ Mary suffered from was well known to the ancient Greeks. This could be linked with Pan (Pan-ic) who was the god of shepherds and of woods and pastures. The Greeks believed that he often wandered peacefully through the woods, playing a pipe, but when accidentally awakened from his noontime nap he could give a great shout that would cause flocks to stampede. From this aspect of Pan’s nature Greek authors derived the word panikos, “sudden fear,” the ultimate source of the English word: “panic”. The Greek term indicates the feeling of total fear that is also sudden and often attributed to the presence of a god.

This panic was expressed in a degree in the poem, “She called in a tone that shook me, And I suffered the longings of hell.” This is something that occurs to many people whose awareness begins to go beyond their normal world and begins to sense – the view of the world not supported by the facts of physics, where time and space are transcended – and one is aware of the presence of a God, “Many people as their awareness reaches beyond what they feel is their normal self and feel scared. Such resistances cause us to create awful dreams and fears as a means of avoiding our own inner world and its wonders. We feel that we will be swallowed up and we will die. It is important to say that when we meet the experience of powerlessness through becoming aware of the hugeness of your Life, which we are usually unaware if, it feels like something alien or attacking, and it is a shock. When we begin to meet the Hugeness that we are, we often react to it in our dreams or in waking with fear or panic.

One last thing, it was stated the Pan loved boys. Once gain this has been seen, by our modern sexually oriented culture as referring to homosexuality. I even found in searching for pictures of Pan I saw one showing two men having sex. But that was again like what happened with the Christian version of Pan a travesty. I am the father of four boys, and I loved them without any sex intruding, for in them I saw and felt their promise, their potential, their youthful beauty.  It said love not sex for the two are very different. 


Pandora’s Jar Box

I have witnessed this on several occasions. Like all Greek Myths it is a story about the human mind and the things we may meet if we dare to live a full and adventurous life, one that challenges the ‘normal’ and so breaks through the conventions and niceties most people are trapped in and live by.

If you dare to break through these niceties and rules you find yourself in the world the Greek myths graphically describe the hidden world within us below normal awareness, the unconscious.

Carl Jung says that, “When respect and obedience to law keeps you from seeing god.”

This ‘seeing’ means that just under the surface of your human personality is a level of yourself called the unconscious, a level of your mind or awareness where you have hidden from or repressed all you hurtful or shameful experiences; all your childhood trauma and hurts, all that you haven’t faced in yourself.

In general though a widening of experience occurs, and what is common to many people is that many turn back because of fear. This is because in opening themselves to experience more of themselves they meet a much large self. For no plant or creature grows from a dead seed, and each living seed carries within it all the past gathered from all its forebears. So, the seed in your mother’s womb is as old as and even older than human kind, and you carry that wisdom or memories in you. But in this life you developed a new brain, and the memories you gathered this time are what you built your personality from, but beneath that is a very ancient and huge self.

Many people as their awareness reaches beyond what they feel is their normal self feel scared. Such resistances cause us to create awful dreams and fears as a means of avoiding our own inner world and its wonders. We feel that we will be swallowed up and we will die. It is important to say that when we meet the experience of powerlessness through becoming aware of the hugeness of your Life, which we are usually unaware if, it feels like something alien or attacking, and it is a shock. See Opening to Life

So Pandora’s Jar is the opening to all the things we haven’t faced in ourselves. In doing so we meet all the ‘evil’ we haven’t redeemed in our own life. She is a woman because women are, in their own body, the foundation of life, intuition and creativity.

Pandora name means the “gift”, thus “the all-endowed”, “all-gifted” or “all-giving” – not the giver of evil at all – realise the evil is live spelt backwards, and so is all that we have not lived fully and so becomes sickness within us. She gives everything to us, evil in us, pain we hold onto, but also our own Wonder.

But hope is at the bottom, for beneath the level where we store all our traumas and unlived  emotions there lies a world where pain, fear of death and emotional hurt disappears; that is the gift Pandora brings, for she brings all things; the wonder of our own infinite potential. See Potential  


Fairies – Little People – Leprechauns

In dreams and our inner life we tend to put pictures or images collected from everyday experiences to put an interpretation on what we meet in life that has no form, like electricity or forces of nature such as gravity. We do this because we tend to have an experience of the world based on our body senses, and our dreams and awareness are from a very different environment or dimension, so we tend to put such awareness in images and ideas we understand.

So, natural forces or processes, such as electricity, gravity, cohesion, magnetism, the unconscious, we tend to express pictorially – so the hugeness of the unconscious and life force can be illustrated by the dragon. But the fairy might also be a process or realisation within yourself which when we contact we also put  it in imagery, such as a fairy, little people, angels or even dark things.

What many people fail to understand is that people who have second sight/psychic vision are all experiencing the dream process breaking through into our waking awareness. So, I see all psychic phenomena as arising from the dream process breaking through or being allowed through while awake or in a semi awake state. I have experienced speaking in tongues, hearing voices, seeing visions and they were all normal everyday experiences as far as I was concerned – because I understood them and worked with them. See Psychic faculties in dreams – Intuition – Many Ways of Using It


Immense and Unseen Beings

My most impressive meeting with immense beings, beings that maybe have never had physical bodies, or have developed beyond the need for a body, was a dream I experienced on January of 2003; it was truly an amazing dream. In it I was walking home at night in the countryside, and I looked up at the night sky, and saw with wonder that huge stylised figures made of thousands of stars danced across the sky from horizon to horizon.

The figures truly were huge and living, although made of thousands of stars. It took me a long time to enter deeply into this dream, but when I did I met what I have called the Star Beings. I recognised them as what ancient cultures have called the gods. But they were in no way like the strange portrayals of the ancient gods we see in films and drama; powerful caricatures of human beings with amazing powers. These beings did not have human form with crazy quirks, angers and desire for power that humans have. I experienced them as the spectrum of fundamental forces and energies that work together to create the universe.

As the gates of my dream opened I became aware of meeting actual beings. I knew in a direct way that these beings were the very substance and processes of our universe. Literally, the air we breathe, the water we drink is a part of their ‘bodies’. But we must not think of them as like us in the way we have a body.

However, these forces that usually we take as somehow inanimate or without awareness, like the force of gravity or the energy pouring out of the sun, I experienced as having awareness and intelligence. I knew them as existing in the water we drink and the air we breathe because they are the very stars and planets. I knew them as our real parents, of whose body we take into us to exist. I knew them as the beings we are constantly hurting through our destructive relationship with nature. They explained to me that we have not yet fulfilled our role, a role that placed us as the custodians of life on Earth. Also I realised, not through speech, but through a process of direct insight, that they are what we have named the Zodiac.

Modern astrology is a real sham. It doesn’t help us to connect with this underlying harmony and find our place in the cosmic scheme of things. It has become a type of fortune telling, a parade, and entertainment. So often it is advertised in connection with your “love stars” — a sort of erotic titillation. It’s true nature is far beyond that. It is a story in symbols of our emergence from these great beings, and a statement of the part they play in the changes and processes of life on earth and social events.


At times I experienced other types of powerful beings. As an example at one time I felt myself in a quiet space. I was back in the big space of the mind, and I sensed a huge presence, something big that I could not yet define. I realised that most of my life I had explored this ocean of the mind alone.

Meeting the Huge Within

Then the huge unknown began to enter into my awareness. I felt the presence of an enormous creature rising to the surface of something like a swamp or a body of water, obviously my mind is using images gathered from everyday life. At first I thought it might be a whale, but as I paid attention to what was happening, it defined into a huge crocodile.

This huge creature looked at me and said, “Tony, join me.”

I laughed at this because it was so huge, and with so many associations of swallowing things, that I said something like, “What do you mean join you? Don’t you mean that you want to eat me?”

The creature replied to me, “No. No, it’s not like that, I’m just like a submarine. I have all these lives in me. I have many, many lives in me. I am life. I contain the many. You can swim this ocean alone Tony, if you wish. Or you can join me, you can join the many. You can always, if you choose to live your independent life again, leave us.”

I laughed here because I had the image of me being independent, stripping off, diving over the side of the boat into the ocean and swimming off. It is something I have often done in the sea, especially in the wonderful warm waters of Greece, and swimming long distances alone, or off to an island out to sea, by myself.

I began to give myself to that great creature which I now understood as what Carl Jung called the collective unconscious, the unity of lives. It felt as if it was absolving me, much as I had experienced earlier on. (One of those strange and beautiful, and also moving coincidences just happened. I am reading this in using voice recognition, and it is proving to be very accurate. But in the sentence where I said that I felt it was – and the word was supposed to be absorbing me – the software used the word absolving. And here I am again, back in the ocean, weeping as I know there is no judgement on the life I have led so alone and cut off.)


The next encounter was much clearer in showing what was actually involved.

I was led into a large official type building by a woman who was leading me and slightly pulling. Inside the front door of the building was a wide passageway probably about 15 or 20 feet wide leading straight ahead? Not far along this corridor something completely filled the space in front of us. It looked like frog’s spawn, but much more ethereal, perhaps like patterns of energy with just a little material substance.

With no real hesitation the woman and I walked into this wall of energy. I believe we knew more or less what would happen – that we would be absorbed and become wholly a part of this life form. As we walked into it I was trying to analyse what was happening and what it felt like. I lost all sense of my body as a dense form, but I could still feel my partner’s hand in mine in a very delicate way – again like energy playing upon energy. I could feel that the energy had totally penetrated me and was working on me in a healing way that would transform all of me. My impression was that thousands of individuals had merged to share their abilities and being with me, and I was sharing with them, forming an amazing wholeness. We were one huge being, yet maintained our awareness of our individual existence. It felt very healing. Also, I felt that we could decide upon our own movement, and it seemed as if we were still walking within this life form. So, I knew we could walk out again and return to our solid body form.


The next description is an example of the huge dilemma or paradox, for our body senses tell us that we are separate and alone, yet when we explore the depths of our mind we often discover that we are not separate.

So, this is quite a strange response in a way because in the past I have fully given myself to inner God and yet here I was hesitating because of the sense of other dimensions and beings in those dimensions.

However, what happened was incredibly interesting. It was like being led to stand on the edge of something, on a border or frontier. On my side of the frontier was what I called myself. On the other side was something that I felt to be as yet unknown. Then gradually a knowing arose in me of what was beyond the frontier. I understood what it was I was opening to. It arose as if I were talking to myself. I was saying, “What am I giving myself to? What am I opening myself to?” Then it was as if I were answering my own question. “Listen to me Tony. It is yourself. There is nobody else is there? I am your potential self, trying to free you. You are opening to the highest in you. In the wider self there is only one being in the universe. There is nobody else. You are opening to yourself.”

Breaking through to the new

This points to a huge misconception by almost everybody because when we view such experiences from our body’s experience of time and three dimensional lives, everything is seen as separate and outside them. So people’s experience of meeting angels, spirits good or evil, of aliens, being attacked by animals or even projecting from their body, while it is true from a body perspective, is completely experienced differently when seen from the timeless and space-less side of us.

You or I standing before the immense

Part of the difficulty is that when experiencing such things, they enter into the dimension of dreams in which they appear to experience things as an external reality.  Such dimensional switching often produces a bleed through from the third dimension of waking experience. It bleeds through to the dream dimension that can be called the fourth dimension – as there are in borders of countries where people ‘bleed through’ without even understanding the language or customs of the new country. Such ‘bleed through’ is experienced as things that are often seen as not possible by the science of the day, or explained as an illness – because they have not learned the language. What is experienced are visions, hearing voices, having intuitions of things that cannot be accounted for by our physical senses; apparently travelling to distant places and witnessing events there yet the person has not physically been there; also, the psychic phenomena often called spiritualism; also, the sense that one is possessed by or contacting or threatened by discarnate beings, strange dreams, and nightmares. See Waking Lucid Dreaming

In trying to understand such paradoxes it is helpful to know something of the Big Bang, which scientists tell us was the start of our physical universe. At that moment it is stated that time and space began. That suggests that there was a condition before that where there was no time and no space – eternity. Unfortunately the same mistake of bleed though is made in understanding eternity as with what was said above – we think of eternity as being a long ‘time’, but we have an experience of timelessness.

Also it is shown in the charts of the Big Bang that the universe was in complete darkness and it took 300,000 years before light appeared – this is so like Genesis, ‘Let there be light’. See Secret Bible  


As human mammals we tend to expect everything to be almost the same as us, so we tend to think every other type of intelligent creatures must have physical bodies, and travel in mechanical highly technological machines to contact us. So our search for other species is always very physical with physical type searches. Also when we look to our evolution we tend to still see it as mechanical as artificial intelligence in physical bodies, genetic engineering, cybernetics, and so on. Those are all possible, but there are other possibilities of human contact with other type of intelligences.

The following is a simple example of meeting a non physical being.

The Being: ‘Your race is linked with older races who had a much fuller awareness, and your organs that deal with the advanced awareness have atrophied, but the organs are still in you. They are now vestigial organs. When you start to really love these organs begin to develop. Other activities bring life to the other vestigial organs.”

T: “What we call love today I see as almost an infantile expression of need. So, I guess you’re talking about a form of love that doesn’t attempt to possess or control the person loved. Did I feel a pure love for J? No I didn’t. So, why did it have the effect on me? She was an alive, intelligent, and attractive female who was calling to me, and I was completely holding back all my response. She said to me one day, ‘Tony, are you going to come to me? Are we going to make a baby or not?'”

The Being: “What an amazing thing to say to somebody – that you want to create a baby with them.”

T: “So, this little vestigial tissue was awoken by that beautiful woman, and by my not responding – not responding sexually. And then what happens?”

The Being: “That caused you to put your head up above the level of your physical body and you came to the notice of the Gardener. You woke up. As a human being you have woken up. You are not just living on automatic, going about life out of your instinctive, social or instinctive urges. The pain has woken you up.”

T: “My God, I have that pain all the time. I had to find a way of dealing with it. So, I guess it was that pushing me towards delving into myself and waking up more fully. That is the path. So, it led me to start to clear out all the old channels and that enables the energy.”

“Somewhere about here the being who was explaining to me about the vestigial organs had touched me. I can say that in a few words – it touched me. But the experience was something that I find difficult to describe. First of all I was aware of a being who lived without any apparent physical form and in the dimensions that I do not know. It was communicating with me, and then suddenly it touched me. This was perhaps something like being electrocuted, except that it was not at all painful or destructive. Every part of me seemed to vibrate as an enormous charge of influence hit me. I had no awareness of having a physical body because it felt as if for moments I was transformed into existing in a new way. During that period there was no need to breathe, and it felt as if my being was frozen in a physical sense. I have no idea why that being touched me or what happened when that huge hit of energy was in me.

It then explained to me that because of what we humans are doing to the earth it was necessary to use some humans as channels for the passage of energy into the physical world. When it started communicating to me the things we were doing to the earth I at first thought it was going to lay blame on us and suggest we were causing a crisis. It seemed immediately aware of what I was thinking/feeling and communicated what felt like a smile, though there was no face or body to be aware of. Then it communicated to me that – my words – it was no big deal, and they would deal with it. That the problem was not simply with what we were doing to the earth, the problem was that what we have been doing has brought the earth out of harmony with the rest of the solar system. I had some sense of harmonics in the relationship between the planets and understood that the passage of energy through humans was to help balance the earth again in harmonic relationship.

I felt at this point that it was important to explain to people about these residual organs, to explain that we all have them, and ways of awakening them. Using the meditational approach without really understanding what you are doing is not all that helpful. Europeans need to understand what they are doing and why. They do not have the inbuilt sense of connection with what are called the gods, or the spiritual world. They need to understand the mechanics of their action. That is partly why I am being given this information.

Why did they need to awaken? What I am given to understand is that once those organs start to function it begins to transform the body. New energy or different levels of energy flow through the body. Sometimes the person feels themselves vibrating either as they meditate or sleep, and this is a sign of that new energy. It also shows that in some way, as suggested in the analogy of the seed, when the seed produces a stem and pushes above the soil, it can take in the energy of the sun. So, as these organs unfold in a person they become almost like leaves that taking this new energy.

There is something on my mind about all this. I am struggling with a concept – it is a social concept – that is difficult even to tell you (referring to R). The bloody inhibitions we have about ourselves because of social constraints. Here I am really struggling with this sense of the person l I was to communicating with. I really felt almost something like fear that if I said what was happening I would be seen as mad in some way.”  


Medusa is shown as a female, and because she is a figure from the inner worlds, depicts the feeling, emotional and creative side of humanity. But creation is many sided, for in the beginning of Genesis, all was in darkness. Then light was created. So creativity can be of darkness and light, for both are necessary for the dual world we exist in.

Whatever emerges from the head suggests the thoughts and feelings discharged by the being. The snakes often have a dual purpose in us. So the snake’s energy is like the electricity in a house, so can be heat, power, sound or vision, and lies behind all our functions. So in some dreams the snake represents our sexuality; in others the rising of that energy up our body to express as digestion – the intestinal snake – or as the creative or poisonous energy of our emotions and thoughts, even disease. In the throat it becomes the destructive or constructive speech and language – expressed or repressed feelings and speech. In the head it becomes thinking, perception and higher cognition.

But the snakes emerging from Medusa’s head are definitely destructive and she represent her anger and malicious emotions which if  seen can cause a paralysis of your own flow of life.

The book Female Rage: Unlocking Its Secrets, Claiming Its Power by Mary Valentis and Anne Devane notes that “When we asked women what female rage looks like to them, it was always Medusa, the snaky-haired monster of myth, who came to mind … In one interview after another we were told that Medusa is ‘the most horrific woman in the world’ … [though] none of the women we interviewed could remember the details of the myth.”

Jung’s comment is, “In dreams a mirror can symbolize the power of the unconscious to “mirror the individual objectively — giving him a view of himself that he may never have had before. Only through the unconscious can such a view (which often shocks and upsets the conscious mind) be obtained — just as in Greek myth the Gorgon Medusa, whose look turned men to stone, could be gazed upon only in a mirror.” Below, Medusa reflected in a shield (a painting by the 17th century artist Caravaggio)

Also Beth Seelig analyses Medusa’s punishment from the aspect of the crime of having been raped rather than having willingly consented in Athena’s temple as an outcome of the goddess’ unresolved conflicts with her own father, Zeus.

True, in dreams such poisonous feelings are often not expressed outwardly and become the poisonous snake.

A dream told me by a woman I met in Mexico. She said that she dreamt a large snake was crawling up the bed and then bit her on her left breast. She said she then tried to suck out the poison.

In the destructive aspect the snake represents the poisonous thoughts and emotions that can destroy us. We tend to depict this snake biting or attacking us, even though we have ourselves given rise to such poisonous emotions as hate and guilt. Because our life energy flows into thinking and emotions, we are in this way directing the creative force of life. Directing it negatively has the power to bring illness and death, for we are dealing with the power of life and death itself.

I asked her to explore the dream by imaging herself as the snake, feeling it biting her. The result was that a story unfolded. She had felt, rightly or wrongly, that her husband had been unfaithful, and she had felt bitter and vengeful. But instead of expressing those feelings they had turned inwards and poisoned her, leaving her depressed. So the snake was an image of her poison biting her and poisoning her life. So do not be afraid of a snake biting you. It is not dangerous. The dangerous part is avoiding the bite, because the poison stays in you unmet.  

Sleeping Beauty or Little Briar Rose

“At the christening of a king and queen’s long-wished-for child, seven good fairies are invited to be godmothers to the infant princess. The fairies attend the banquet at the palace. Each fairy is presented with a golden plate and drinking cups adorned with jewels. Soon after, an old fairy enters the palace and is seated with a plate of fine china and a crystal drinking glass. This old fairy is overlooked because she has been within a tower for many years, and everyone had believed her to be deceased. Six of the other seven fairies then offer their gifts of beauty, wit, grace, dance, song, and goodness to the infant princess. The evil fairy is very angry about having been forgotten, and as her gift, enchants the infant princess so that she will one day prick her finger on a spindle of a spinning wheel and die. The seventh fairy, who hasn’t yet given her gift, attempts to reverse the evil fairy’s curse. However, she can only do so partially. Instead of dying, the Princess will fall into a deep sleep for 100 years and be awakened by a kiss from a king’s son. This is her gift of protection.

The King orders that every spindle and spinning wheel in the kingdom to be destroyed, to try to save his daughter from the terrible curse. Fifteen or sixteen years pass and one day, when the king and queen are away, the Princess wanders through the palace rooms and comes upon an old woman, spinning with her spindle. The princess, who has never seen anyone spin before, asks the old woman if she can try the spinning wheel. The curse is fulfilled as the princess pricks her finger on the spindle and instantly falls into a deep sleep.

The old woman cries for help and attempts are made to revive the princess. The king attributes this to fate and has the Princess carried to the finest room in the palace and placed upon a bed of gold and silver embroidered fabric. The king and queen kiss their daughter goodbye and depart, proclaiming the entrance to be forbidden. The good fairy who altered the evil prophecy is summoned. Having great powers of foresight, the fairy sees that the Princess will awaken to distress when she finds herself alone, so the fairy puts everyone in the castle to sleep. The fairy also summons a forest of trees, brambles and thorns that spring up around the castle, shielding it from the outside world and preventing anyone from disturbing the Princess.

A hundred years pass and a prince from another family spies the hidden castle during a hunting expedition. His attendants tell him differing stories regarding the castle until an old man recounts his father’s words: within the castle lies a beautiful princess who is doomed to sleep for a hundred years until a king’s son comes and awakens her. The prince then braves the tall trees, cuts his way through brambles and thorns (which it has been told many died in trying to reach the princess), and enters the castle. He passes the sleeping workers and guards in castle and comes across the chamber where the Princess lies asleep on the bed. Struck by the radiant beauty before him, he falls on his knees before her. The enchantment comes to an end by a kiss and the princess awakens and converses with the prince for a long time. Meanwhile, the rest of the castle awakens and go about their business. The prince and princess are later married by the chaplain in the castle chapel.” Quoted from Wikipedia

Such folk or fairy tales do not arise from the thinking intellectual mind but are produced by dreaming and arise from the unconscious. Such stories are all symbolical of great truths expressed in simple stories – symbol is from the Greek word that meant ‘bringing things together’. So in this sense a symbolic story is a way of expressing the enormous meaning that stays in the shadow unless it is understood.

The story is about a girl child growing into womanhood. She is a princess, a special person because when we can see the whole person and not just the strange view that the conscious personality has of simply the surface being, it sees that everyone born extraordinary. If you doubt this view this video of a girl child who when viewed from the surface view was mentally backward, when it was discovered that within her was a wonder. See

So this wonder, still in her childhood years was blessed with many talents, for I learned in exploring the unconscious that we are all born with an immense potential that often remains latent because of the condition of our body, our education, our prevalent social teachings, or our belief that what authority figures and parents say is taken as truth. As Plato said so long ago, “Strange times are these in which we live when old and young are taught falsehoods in school. And the person that dares to tell the truth is called at once a lunatic and a fool”.

But this young woman pricks her finger and bleeds – in other words she has her first experience of menstruation/a period.

During this cycle females face a great adjustment in the start of menstruation. For a young woman this may be particularly potent for it confronts her with the fact that she is part of nature’s cycles, that her body is not totally her own and that Life in her has its own agenda. It connects her with the forces of death and renewal occurring within her during every menstruation. It connects her with the tremendous link with natural forces of mothering and the strength of womanhood and the female principle in nature. For a female is not simply a human being a human personality, but can be the very essence of the female principle, merging with the male principle. So tbeing a female holds in it all that experience, all those patterns of behaviour, whether of the mother wolf with her cubs, or the eagle rearing its young. To touch such enormous wealth of experience is to be penetrated by the holy; something so beyond the limitations of our own small personality enters us and leaves its imprint.

Because of the new range of feelings, many young women experience a different relationship with religion and life’s mysteries. All this, as one approaches the age of twenty-one, produces an individual with some sense of social and individual responsibility; or if not that, the beginning of a sense of a direction or life purpose. This might not be recognised as such at the time. But it is a time of searching for life purpose, independence, a realization of choices plus a testing of social and personal limitations as well as an awareness of a burgeoning sexuality. As this is can be a traumatic period of life for most of us, it is also likely to be a time of many unforgettable experiences.

But most young women do not allow any of the instinctive or unconscious material into what they feel is them, their personality. So in a sense they fall asleep for they lose sight of their enormous innate potential, and dare I say it, their holy womanhood. For at this time they are often so immerse into worrying about their appearance and their clothes that their real wonder has been lost.

We are capable of creating devils and angels, monsters and they are so real to us that many people have to use antidepressants to meet this stress. How do we do all that? I am seeing it as something like the seashell effect. You put ithe shell up to your ear and you actually hear sounds in it – but the sounds are actually those you are creating in your inner ear amplified by the shell.

Of course it isn’t a sham. It is all our own ability, but people can’t see how magical it is. Of course, they may be constantly creating such horrible demons or deadly scenes of fear, guilt or alienation – thus being a victim of their own imagination. This reminds me of my eldest son. Sleeping in the same bedroom as his brother and sister, he started telling them ghost stories to frighten them. They promptly fell asleep, but he was so frightened he had to call us to help him.

The story says that our inner faculties fall asleep too – the castle workers. That is not unusual because most of us live in a world of experience that leaves us almost blind and deaf, for it has been found that compared with our animal companions we are only aware of about 1% of visible light and 1% of audible sound.

Our human senses are pretty incredible – but we only see, hear, and smell a tiny fraction of what’s out there, for animals sense their world in ways far beyond our human capabilities. Presented by physicist Helen Czerski and biologist Patrick Aryee, say we can travel beyond the limits of human perception and can be astounded by the surprising, weird and complex ways that our planet’s animals sense the world around them.

That is one of the super senses that we lose when we only live in our thoughts, for our body, linking as it does with our unconscious awareness still has all these abilities. If you doubt that please look at

But it can be woken, as the story says, by a daring and courageous mind that is not terrified of death and being torn by brambles. So the story is not simply about women but about humans – men and women that have been ‘put asleep’ by being raised in the culture that has no understanding of the wonders, the beauty within us. For the story says that when we wake that sense of beauty, we wake also our wider awareness. See A Huge Change Happening

The block that prevents us from claiming our heritage can be by passed by having a passive attitude while awake (See – The Keyboard Condition). This allows for a little recognised phenomenon which, while awake and in a passive state, allows the intuitive process to break through as spontaneous movement, sound and emotion, exactly as with dreams. In the past, and still in the present, this spontaneous movements and speech are all things that happen when this dream process breaks through into consciousness. See Opening to Life.   


Many vampire fears or dreams are centred around all the vampire films now produced. Any fear of being possessed or attacked by an influence are actually a way of expressing one’s own fear of the unknown and unseen. There are sometimes also a response to the dreamer’s spontaneous life process being met and are interpreted as being taken over by a vampire, demon or even an alien. The reason is that we have now experience of such spontaneous interventions.

Example: I hurried away to find a police station to report this situation. When I found the police station I went in and said to them that they had some strange people in the town that seem to be like vampires, wanting people’s body or blood. There were four or five policemen in the police station, and they looked at me unsympathetically, their faces gradually changing. I began to recognise the same situation in them as with the dog and the man. They looked at me and told me to get out and mind my own business. They said that if I wasn’t from a country that would cause a fuss if I were to disappear, they would lock me in a cell and nobody would hear of me again.

I hurried out of the police station feeling, not terrified, but certainly anxious and worried about what was happening. I was still walking along the roads in this town that looked as if it were in Central Europe somewhere, not at all modern in its buildings or feeling. As I walked another dog began to follow me. This one looked aggressive and seem to be excited by my anxiety. I made the mistake of starting to hurry away, and the dog bit at my calf while my back was to it. I now turned to face the dog and it backed away but certainly did not run away. It was waiting to see what I was going to do. I had no weapon and could only stand and face it, wondering if the situation would now degenerate with other dogs or people starting to surround me. As I was thinking this, and noticing people watching from behind; stores or through windows, a young woman came toward me with a stout broom handle and drove the dog of. She took my arm and told me to hurry and come with her. She said I was in danger if I did not.

She took me to her home, which was very basic, stone walls, stone floor, and open fireplace. In her home she dressed my wound that was bleeding but not too badly, and would hopefully soon heal.

I asked her what was happening in this town that the people were so strange. She told me that the war and difficult times had done awful things to people giving them strange and extraordinary needs. She said they recognised in me something I did not realise I had, and wanted it from me. As she said this she was kneeling bandaging my leg and looked up at me, and I could see in her face the same hunger and strangeness as in the faces of the others.

She could see the recognition in my eyes and stared at me tears forming in her own eyes. “Please don’t be afraid of me,” she said. “I am needy too, but not in the awful way some of the townspeople are.”

She began to cry and look at me with great longing and earnestness. As she did so, to my astonishment her whole body and face began to change into that of a young girl of about 12 or 13. She stood up and reached her arms out to me to hold her. I could feel the pain and desperation, her need for love. I began to recognise this painful need was behind what I had glimpsed of her own inner vampire. I took her into my arms and held her. I felt a tremendous sexual stimulus, as if I were still holding the woman as well as the child. But somehow I knew that I must allow this feeling without acting upon it. And as I did so the girl relaxed in my arms as if she were exhausted and began to slip into sleep. I discovered her bedroom, tucked her into the bed and lie down beside her on top of the covers and also fell asleep. When I awoke in the morning she was still asleep, but now a young and very attractive woman again.

The above example is an excellent description of what makes a vampire in the inner world of dreams, and to some extent in the waking world.

But in the book Beggar Among the Dead by Hans-Ulrich Rieker, he describes a scene which he witnessed of a slinking human living among the sick in India living in extreme poverty going from person to person sucking their blood. It seems the answer is either love or lack of a caring society.

Gradually, as a child reaches the tremendous task of becoming independent of the mother and father, over the years, a tentative ego, or sense of individuality and separateness develops in the healthy child.  This can be seen in the child’s growing ability to be separated from the mother and family, and eventually to actually leave home. These are difficult points in life.  As this delicate separateness arises, the child frequently feels invaded by the being of the mother, father and others. Invaded in the sense that its own will, desires, feelings, are swamped by those of mother or father.  Very often, in finding these feelings during dreams or self-regulation, the image of a vampire, werewolf, witch, dragon or devouring monster or swamp arises to describe this aspect of our early relationship with our parents.

Also feeling that you are losing your very life force to someone or taking energy and life from someone else. Sometimes sex is felt as this. The umbilical connection in the womb is sometimes felt as the life giving connection that if cut off prematurely, is such a loss that expenditure of energy in sex may be felt as vampirism.

“Here was the foundation of my experience of connection with another being. My experience was that I have not grown beyond the point of only being able to receive. So, when my body grew and started the connection with another being through sex, the deepest part of me only knew how to connect in the process of receiving. It had not developed the point where it could in any way give. It had not developed anything to give. So, my sexual experience was one of being ripped apart, of being vampirised, of being sucked dry of the energy that I needed. As I saw this, as I understood this, I felt that perhaps if that part of me that I have now contacted could grow and develop, there may be a time when connection through sex would lead to a very different experience.”

In his book Dreams and Nightmares, Hadfield suggests that crab, spider and vampire dreams depict the internal bodily feelings connected with orgasm. The crab, he says, portrays the tension in the abdominal muscles which produce a gripping sensation. The relaxed, perhaps ‘washed-out’ feeling of fatigue following orgasm, are shown as the sprawling legs and soft underbelly of the spider image. Therefore the blood being sucked dry by the vampire figure is an excellent   description of what is experienced.

Werewolf Lycanthrope

Within ourselves there often lurk the most awful fears and feelings. Usually these monsters were hatched out of early childhood experiences at a time when we could not easily understand or deal with what was happening to us. Difficulties may have occurred when we felt overwhelmed by being anaesthetised, or by a demanding or threatening parent. Something felt as if it were overwhelming us or taking over who we were.

For instance, research has shown that the horror of some haunting and repetitive ghost dreams, had as their base the fact that while the person slept as a child a parent would creep into the bedroom on some errand. The child, hearing noises it couldn’t account for conjured awful fears. Our werewolves and walking dead are just as much creatures we have given life to. Unfortunately, our emotions are very real, and the monsters we create really do influence us, so need to be met and their twisted life taken from them and used in a more constructive way. See: Vampire; Animals.

 But the tales of a human being turning into a wolf are very old, and possibly started because most tribal people used to put on animal skins during hunting, rituals or battle. The picture above shows a Viking warrior with a wolf’s skin on, and on the right a Native American hunter wearing a wolf skin.

The picture shows hunters using deer skins to get closer to the deer

Wearing such skins often repressed the social taboos and the wearer could act like a wild animal, making them into fierce warriors or frightening human animals.  

The Holy Grail

When people think of sexual activity it is usually seen or even shown in films as a backward and forward movement with both sexes. Today it is often depicted as a frantic grabbing and ripping of clothes to get to it. You can’t say it is making love, it is better seen as having a quick shag.

Yet in both the experiences I had of what was obviously sexual there was no body movement, just a full and enveloping wonderful experience. That must give us direct information about sexuality. It leads me to believe that our basic sexual life is not stimulated by or produced by developing glandular activity but is in us from our long evolutionary past as a form of unconscious knowing; something that derives from a realisation deep in us that it is almost holy. By holy I mean something that is so beyond the limitations of our own small personality that enters us and leaves its imprint. Also, a common action that we take for granted that are actually the foundations of life on Earth. Being the foundations of our existence, they are seen as holy by our feeling self – such common things such as sex, eating, water, caring for our children, giving of ourselves, are all holy. The church treats eating and drinking as holy by making it a sacrament – disguising the fact that every act of eating is eating the body of Life and has sex also as a sacrament by the marriage rite. See Parenting is a spiritual path

Such realisations came to me slowly again through events I experienced. One such stands out for me because of the enormity of the impact on me. I remember my mother asked me to collect something from a woman she had met or knew. She told me the directions to the woman’s house which I knew well because there was no danger for children in those days, so I had wandered everywhere in Amersham. The house was a grand big place owned by what we knew as Toffs – a rich or upper-class person. The house was in spacious ground and the woman led me and a friend, Brian A. who I used to go everywhere with to a large barn. The lady of the place had stored what she wanted to give to my mother in a loft in the barn and the woman climbed up the ladder. There, beneath that stable loft, looking up I first glimpsed the top of a woman’s soft white thighs as she climbed the ladder to the loft. The beauty of her naked thighs I can never forget.

What was the beauty I saw? It was not a sexual feeling, so what was it? I was caught up in seeing the holiness that is a part of women, though hardly any women are aware of it. Today looking up women’s skirts is seen as a sign of pornography, but you can’t tell me that most children are perverts.

When I was in secondary school about eleven or twelve, we had an attractive young female teacher who had her table placed directly against our school desks. My desk was placed fairly near to the boy’s desk which was against the teacher’s table. And day after day, as I too did, we crawled under the desks to see if we could see up her skirt. Again, I cannot remember it being a planned sexual exploit, more of a compulsion to try to see that wonder.

Recently I saw a documentary about an Africa tribe that to avoid surprising attacks on them they built their house way up in treetops. The men explained to the film makers that the men always climb the long ladders first to avoid the temptation of looking up the women’s skirts.

I find it so awful as a male to see women in such short skirts showing so much and yet hiding what lately I called the Holy Grail. In a way I feel like it is sexual harassment for women to walk about tempting men to want them sexually. At one period of my life, I found it awful to be turned on sexually by so many women showing themselves like sexual temptresses. Male sexual responses are not learned, they are hard wired. Tests on researching unconscious men’s gaze found that the eyes first went to the face and then directly to the crotch. It was also found that men looking at photos of naked women showed their eyes dilated and admitted they felt a change. Women too when shown photos of naked men also experienced dilated eyes, but they denied any form of response. This suggest that women have learned to deny any sexual feelings about things they experience. A young Russian woman who felt she could do away with upskirting, without realising it showed exactly what men wanted to see, the crotch, the holy place.

In the book Naked Island by Russel Braddon, that is about the Japanese prisoner of war camp in Singapore, tells how before the Japanese took the island the soldiers were stripped naked for medical examinations. At one time all the men were paraded in that way and a woman came on the scene, immediately many men experienced an erection. That was without any attempt to get an erection by masturbating – it is hard wired.

Later I found that the holiness factor was much deeper than modern influences. The Twelfth-century pilgrims, the Crusaders and song writers were the first ones who thought of courtly love in a similar way to the way I discovered it. The whole notion of romance didn’t exist until medieval times and the troubadours. Romance is described in dictionaries as “a feeling of excitement and mystery associated with love.” It was this mystery that the ancient Crusaders sought. This mystery was felt and seen as what lies beneath the tremendous urge for sex and yet was more than that. These ancient people always painted the Holy Grail being held by a woman.

The Holy Grail had it start in the stories told by Denis de Rougemont, they said that by the end of the 11th, and throughout the 12th centuries, when the poets of southern France invented ‘l’amour courtois’ (courtly love), love emerged as an essential theme in the relationships between men and women. Courtly love was a brand new, even revolutionary idea, that was opposed to marriage and its sacrament. With this conception, true love only existed in a chaste form and was not linked to marriage, because marriage was only the glorification and sanctification of a physical sexual and ordinary love. In his famous thesis dedicated to the myth of love, Denis de Rougemont (1939) showed that chivalrous love towards a noble lady is mainly symbolic. This Lady in thoughts represents the spiritual and angelic part of the human being, the true self. In this way, the stories, and characters in early novels such as Tristan and Iseult merely reflect man’s adventure in the conquest of his own soul.

In the past they symbolised womanhood by a cup. It was not a particular woman’s personality that was seen as holy but her creative power. They realised that no personal woman could create a baby out of her body, for no person could control and direct the miraculous immense number of intricate steps that are in the creation of a babe. But at the base of a personal woman is the wonder of creation and it is this central aspect of woman they worship. Yet women, every female creature, is the source of all living beings. 

The Christmas Myth

Millions of people still see Christmas as an event that began about two thousand years ago, so why should it be seen as an archetype? Yet even a great thinker like Carl Jung sees it as a myth – “Such a myth, however, consists of symbols that have not been invented consciously. They have happened. It was not the man Jesus who created the myth of the god-man. It existed for many centuries before his birth. He himself was seized by this symbolic idea, which, as St. Mark tells us, lifted him out of the narrow life of the Nazarene carpenter.” Quoted from Man and His Symbols by Carl Jung.

The fact is that what we now call Christmas was celebrated in different time by different cultures thousands of years prior to the Christian version. It is all described below. That makes it a Cosmic event that we humans through the ages have been sensitised to, felt the wonder of it and celebrated it.

Below is a man’s description of meeting that Wonder.

“I found myself standing before large heavy floor to ceiling curtains. I moved to the curtains and pulled them apart. This revealed the immensity of a clear night sky, filled with brilliant stars. As I looked at this natural splendour, a star fell to earth, leaving me with a sense that something wonderful had happened that I must go in search of. Then there was a sudden shift, and I was now a herder of flocks, a shepherd, looking for the star that had come to earth. Others were searching too, and when we found what we were looking for, I was astonished to discover it was a baby.

A Baby

I was not in any way asleep, or in a trance. My evaluative rational self was keenly observing all that happened, but not interfering with what I was experiencing. Nevertheless, profoundly felt imagery and feelings flooded my awareness. I realised I was experiencing the New Testament story of the birth. But this did not seem to interfere with the flow of what poured into my feelings. My whole body felt the wonder of the baby and I fell to my knees before it. I knew as if intuitively, that all the cosmos had somehow come alive as this helpless vulnerable child. I was so overwhelmed, all I could say over and over, between sobbing cries was, ‘A baby’ – ‘A baby.’

The flowing emotions and the opened intuitive sense informed me that what I knelt before in tears was not a particular child. It was every baby ever born. For the first time I had been allowed to experience the enormity of birth, the holiness of every baby, though some babies despite having the highest in them are born with enormous heavy loads to deal with.

Suddenly the scene changed again, and I was standing with others by the side of a dusty unpaved road. People were excitedly waiting for someone, and I was curious to see who it was.

It was a man, and as he walked the road he saw me and came toward me. This part is difficult to describe, as I feel incapable of communicating the power of the event. The man was ordinary in appearance, but as he got near to me it seemed as if a great force surrounded him that penetrated me completely. The force was love, buffeting me like waves I could barely tolerate. The man stood before me and took my hands and said, ‘You are my disciple.’

At this, love so immense touched me that I fell backwards, the contact too painful for me to bear, and the man walked on.

I knew who he was. I also knew, because it was welling up from within me as sure knowledge that he was the man I had killed. It was his blood I had on my hands. It was his death I felt guilty of. But he, in some strange paradoxical way, was myself. He was the cosmic mystery I have been born as and with. He was the very best of myself I had killed, murdered. He was my youthful sexuality I had suffocated to death, helped by the tenets of a religion that was supposed to be teaching his way, the way of life, the way of recognising one’s cosmic link.

The impact of that meeting was extraordinary. Unable to stop the emotions surfacing, I felt impelled to move to each person in the group rubbing my hands on them. It seemed to me that a magical influence had touched my hands and I wanted everyone around me to receive some of that magic. Even years afterwards, when describing the event, the wonder of it can penetrate me again, and I am overcome by emotion.

The meeting presented Christ paradoxically as something exterior to me, and at the same time something that was a fundamental and integral part of my own nature. I believe many people today have also met Christ in this way.”

The birth of Christ is a cultural image depicting the meeting or birth of the Christ power within us, it is. the power of our own highest possibilities. It is the outreach to us of collective human love. It is an age-old symbol and can still stir us but we must remember that the story of Jesus was not new 2000 years ago, for 1400 years before that Mithra was born in a cave, also on the 25th December. He was too born of a Virgin. He travelled far and wide as a teacher and illuminator of men. His great festivals were the winter solstice and the Spring equinox (Christmas and Easter).

The Second Book of Enoch contains a section, called Exaltation of Melchizedek, which says that Melchizedek was born of a virgin, Sofonim (or Sopanima), the wife of Nir, a brother of Noah. The child came out from his mother after she had died and sat on the bed beside her corpse, already physically developed, clothed, speaking and blessing the Lord, and marked with the badge of priesthood.

According to tradition, Zoroaster’s mother, Dughdova, was a virgin when she conceived Zoroaster by a shaft of light. Attis was born to the virgin Nana on December 25 – Heracles was born on December 25 to a virgin. Romulus was born to Rea Sivia, a mortal Vestal virgin.

Siddartha who became the Buddha. Also involve virgin birth, for the story of Gautama Buddha’s life (567- 487 BC) starts at preconception when his mother, Queen Maya, is said to have dreamt that a six-tusked elephant pierced her side with one of its tusks. This produced an immaculate conception. She understood the dream to mean the resulting child would become a monarch whose domain was the world.

 Tammuz of Babylonia was born to a virgin, named Mylitta, on December 25.

Mary is an image of your own human situation and represents the possibility of a virginal mind and feelings.  Put simply this means that we drop preconceptions, we melt away fixed opinions, rigid attitudes, perhaps through prayer, meditation, or perseverance, and in that state one can receive a conception from Life itself – in other words a divine interception. “Such a myth, however, consists of symbols that have not been invented consciously. They have happened. It was not the man Jesus who created the myth of the god-man. It existed for many centuries before his birth. He himself was seized by this symbolic idea, which, as St. Mark tells us, lifted him out of the narrow life of the Nazarene carpenter.” Quoted from Man and His Symbols by Carl Jung

I believe today’s Christmas celebrations are a faint and buried memory of something that is as old as creation. To eat and drink enormous amounts are ways of forgetting what the above picture is about. The star shining down on the baby illustrates the cosmic influences there are behind the creation not only of the universe but of ourselves, of every baby born.

The animals in the manger show that we are part of a humble past and are still an animal that has reached self-consciousness. If we cannot see our dependence and link with the animal consciousness, we have missed self-understanding and our way in life.

The angels above the child are telling us, “There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” As Meeker tells us, “The fact remains that in spite of ‘science’ and …the professional debunkers, there is more, far more in the universe that we are totally in ignorance of. We are limited by our five senses. Once in a while we get a few fleeting insights on inexplicable phenomena, but that doesn’t mean the whole of the inexplicable should be rejected because ‘they cannot be duplicated in a laboratory.”

The Virgin and Joseph are reminders of what we can give birth to in our own life. Mary represents virginity of mind, living without preconceptions, Joseph the intellectual thinking mind, the carpenter, building with dead materials, old thoughts, and ideas. So, there is a virgin posture of the mind which is an attempt to bring about an inner state, an inner feeling of fertility and love towards your invisible and unknown potential – purity from preconceived ideas – the offering of your whole being as material for your potential to use in creating a new self – the act of supplication in which you let go of your thoughts, emotions and body, so they can be played upon as a piano or organ by Life. There should then arise a feeling of warmth toward and desire for the unseen Life, openness to any possibility Life may have in store for you, good or bad, allied with trust. If you have a temperament capable of this, then make it an act of love, a real devotion, an approach to one’s darling.

If you cannot be the parents of your own inner wonder, then perhaps you can kneel before the mystery than keeps you conscious, the miracle that you are as a breathing living being.

Lastly the wise men bringing gifts. They are that aspect of yourself or humanity who like this man had a vison of what the tiny baby has to offer:

“I seemed to be any person who had ever lived, a nameless representative of humanity, and yet a composite of all persons. Then with an awe that was almost overpowering, I had a momentary glimpse of what man would eventually evolve into, of the heights he would sometime reach, and of the development as yet unimagined. For the most part, that glimpse will forever remain indescribable.  For in this stage of evolution which far surpassed that of my actual self, serenity, tranquility, and joy continuously enfolded me. In addition, my thoughts became crystal clear, flowing quickly, yet as gently as a moving stream.”

It All Leads To

The Sacred Heart 

The Christian Mythology


Some of the force used was by the Christian church. “The early Christians used every means possible to conceal the pagan origin of their symbols, doctrines, and rituals,” Manly Hall says, “They either destroyed the sacred books of other peoples among whom they settled or made them inaccessible to students of comparative philosophy, apparently believing that in this way they could stamp out all record of the pre-Christian origin of their doctrines.”

“This is called the second library of Alexandria, the former having been destroyed under Julius Caesar. The nucleus of this one was the gift of Antony to Cleopatra, who added to it and improved it immensely, till it contained all the existing literature of the world; and–why, they are deliberately concocting Christianity out of the books there! and, so far as I can see, the Gospels are little better than Ovid’s Metamorphoses (historically, I mean),–so deliberately are they making up the new religion by replanting the old on the Jewish system.

 If they could be recovered we should have absolute proof of its concoction from Hindû, Persian, and other originals;–the interpolations, extracts, and alterations proving this. They show, too, that the name first adopted for the typical man was more like Krishna, and that Jesus was a later choice, 3 adopted at Jewish suggestion, in order to suit a Jewish hero. 2 Every detail of the Gospel history is invented, the number of the apostles, and all the rest. Nothing is historical in the sense supposed. I see the Serapeum destroyed; –not only the library but the temple, so fearful were they of leaving any trace of the concoction. It was destroyed by Christians at the instigation especially of Theodosius, Ambrosius, and Theophilus. 3 Their motive was a mixed one, each of the leaders having a different aim. The object of the concoctors themselves was to sustain and continue the ancient faith by transplanting it to a new soil and engrafting it on Judaism. And they accordingly fixed and accumulated upon Jesus all that had been told of previous Christs,–Mithras, Osiris, Krishna, Buddha, and others,–the original draft containing the doctrine of the transmigration of souls most explicitly and distinctly. 4 The concoction was undertaken in order to save religion itself from extinction through the prevalence of materialism — for the times corresponded in this respect exactly to the present.”

 Quoted from Kingsford, Anna. Clothed With The Sun

Anna Kingsford was a remarkable woman and doctor, who was also a great Seer.


The teachings on the inner path to Christ that follow are not uniquely my ideas. I followed clues left by disciples from the long past. Here and there in the world’s literature there are fragments and sentences referring to this path. So, I pursued this trail as it led into the jungle of ideas surrounding Christianity. I hacked a way through, and gradually, with loving persistence uncovered the ancient landmarks of this way. It is a path leading to the Mother Church the central core of human experience, as old as time, preceding any external religion. 

Looking back over the journey, something about it has deeply impressed me. The early Christians discovered something extraordinary. It completely changed lives, healed sickness, made people want to go out and tell others, and in some cases was worth dying for. And that has been true for me too as I took this path of discipleship.

 Those early Christians expressed what they found in language, and in imagery, that was understandable to them. What they found was something that worked. Just as, in a more recent age, the use of electricity was discovered and applied; and this discovery of electricity was the application of previously unknown natural processes. So. the Christian discovery was one of natural processes of the mind and emotions too. Unfortunately, as time has passed, the language in which those findings were expressed has come to mean less and less to many people. In fact, we may view their statements and perhaps referring to the realm of ‘beliefs’ or dogma rather than of practical principles.”

When the unfortunate tendency in humans began to organise Christianity, to place dogmas and rigid rules around it, Christianity had the misfortune to be scarred with battles between sects, intolerance of other races and cultures, and ruled by male authoritarianism.  Nevertheless, I believe there is something real in the sense defined above.  Through it an individual can arrive at a greater personal peace, and harmonise with their own nature, without having to join any sect or give themselves to a rigid set of beliefs.  They can also meet and converse with the Master and receive the teachings at first hand. This path has been known for centuries and practised by individuals and groups who were frequently persecuted by the organised church. In fact, the power and love that touched the early Christians has been innate in men and women from the beginning, and is lying dormant in each of us. This inner power is the Mother Church, not build with bricks. We enter it and are transformed by following the Christian pathway, the Christian discipline.

What I aim to do in the following paragraphs is to remind you of the original gospel statements, and then try to define them in terms of today’s view of the world, and today’s information about the mind and emotions. For I believe the original teachings refer to an extraordinary possibility in you.

Just as the process of electricity is open to verification with the right equipment, so the extraordinary possibility described by the early Christians is open to verification if you apply yourself in the right way. It doesn’t take belief in a lot of statements, but it does take your effort to try an experiment. It is a path leading to the Mother Church the central core of human experience, as old as time.

What follows is the whole story and it is very large, so to read on and to open the next chapter click Christian Mythology


This is about something you sense in yourself or others that is moved by other than human and conscious motives. It is like being asleep and sleep walking, there is no sense of any response there. Or at least they are moved by urges that control them and they are controlled by. This is something like we meet when we see people moved by habits, by propaganda, by religious bigotry or political brain-washing.

In a sense we are all zombies, or have a part of us that is a zombie. It is because we are all programmed and what we do is not from our real selves. If you find it difficult to believe read Programmed and childhood

But the basic of it seen from the inner world is that we live a life that is so repressive that we bury or kill parts of our own nature and beauty and then meet them as monstrous figures or fears.


A friend had recently visited my wife and I, and had asked if the house was haunted. A couple of nights later I dreamt that my wife was asleep beside me and I was sitting up in bed with my friend’s words in mind. So I challenged any such ghosts to show themselves, feeling I could handle them. Nothing happened so I lay down thinking I had solved the problem – there were no ghosts.

Quite soon afterwards, still dreaming, the sound of a door creaking open made me sit up. Then from behind me two black men who looked as if they had risen out of a grave with flesh peeling off them approached me. I quickly made the sign of the cross and said some holy words and the figures disappeared.

I lay back again thinking it was a good thing I knew how to get rid of them. But as soon as I settled to sleep again the door creaked open and the two figures appeared once more. This time all my hand waving and holy words had no effect on their advance, and their hands closed around my throat and I woke screaming in terror.

Yes they were zombies of the worse kind. My wife, feeling my fear, got up and we switched on all the lights.


That was about 1958, and as I knew nothing about exploring dreams at that time I did nothing about it. But soon afterwards I started practicing yoga. I realise looking back that it was the the breathing control and fasting that were part of what worked and helped me to meet what was behind the nightmare. I could see that each of these were ways of struggling with my instinctive drives.

I had repressed my sexual feelings so severely, that for eight of my teenage years and early twenties, I had no sexual release at all. I had killed and buried my youthful feelings and they had rotted inside me. Now in my early twenties, not knowing how to love – just having sex without any love – I had called up the terrible things I had created. That is what zombies are – the life in us that has been crucified. There are plenty around, and coming alive again was extremely painful.

The Living Dead   

The Gods

In the paradigm of the present western society there are no such things as gods – maybe for many not even God. See Archetype of the Paradigm

But from the point of view of dreams and from the cultural traditions of many other countries, gods exist. Even Christianity clearly mentions gods, even though it is denied. In Genesis it says “God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the birds of the sky, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth. God created man in his own image. In God’s image he created him; male and female he created them.” As it says, “let US make man.”

The word Elohim is used in the original script of this piece and it means, to quote from The Unknown God by F. J. Mayers, “Elohim” is a plural name, and yet in our bibles it is always treated as a “singular” one, and always used with a singular verb. In this verse, Elohim, in using the phrase “in our image,” etc., treats Its self as a plurality.” So the unknown God – ain soph (the unknown god) – in expressing Its self, becomes many. So there are many expressions of God. In one statement it calls this ‘The One in the many’. After all, God is beyond description and so can be an unknown paradox. In many dreams gods are also shown, and are seen as the consciousness resident throughout the cosmos, as it knows itself in various forms. And although we are used to seeing gods portrayed in human form of a mixture of animal, human forms and huge natural forces such as gravity, electrify, negative and positive magnetism, so  these are simply human ways of describing their attributes. They are often felt as beings of different dimensions, or sometimes are the consciousness behind the natural creative forces of our own lives and solar system.

But something most Christians do not known is that we need to remember Christianity as it is expressed today, was set in this way by the Roman Catholic church many years after Christianity started – The early Christians were named ‘Atheists Of The Ancient World’. Inhabitants of the Roman Empire had a variety of gods and goddesses, but there were people back then who would be considered early Christians. Ironically, these people were considered atheists by the ancient Romans because they didn’t pay tribute to any of the pagan gods.

But their refusal to acknowledge traditional pagan gods wasn’t the only reason early Christians were considered atheists. These Christians didn’t really practice an organized religion, had no temples or shrines, and no priests. As a result, these people were ostracized from society as salacious rumors regarding their lives would often float around.

But many people, who have explored their own depths, find God is not outside them, but is the very basic core of their being. We are in fact all holy – as it says in Genesis “God created man in his own image. In God’s image he created him; male and female he created them.”

Example: I experienced what I saw as interface between all that we are as our everyday waking personality; between all that we have gathered and understood and lived in this lifetime, and the immensity of what we are as a spiritual being. I saw the details of this and it is quite difficult to summarise or to explain in any way. But as clearly as I can it was like the processing of information so that all that you are formed is a sort of the pattern, a synthesise or a signal, and that signal called out of the immensity of the spiritual life what was relevant to you and your further development. Now that is a very clumsy description because even as I say it I sense an enormous subtlety of what I met and experienced. What I saw was that the interface is unique in every being. This is because every being is unique and creates their own pattern, as with fingerprints. And that pattern calls out of the infinite something different. So in this sense there are as many faces of God as there are human beings.

As I saw all this I realised that if one could help people to come to that point, to bring themselves to that meeting, then they would begin to receive that influence that frees them. It frees them by growing them, by giving them more of themselves.  See Healing Experience

The gods are recorded in most cultures who had entrance to the inner life that in modern humans is seen as the unconscious. So in today’s humans we are blind to this enormous awareness that includes the gods. We are so blind to what the gods are that when we portray them in drama or films they are shown as human beings who are in conflict with humans and each other. That is ridiculous.

The gods are the creative and destructive manifestations, energies or attributes of the one creative reality in the cosmos – the creative force behind the Big Bang. It is like the seven colours in the one light. Thus many ‘gods’, under the direction of the unifying ‘Clear Light’, created the being of man. This means that the many attributes of God, or the gods, are active in man’s being. Man is an image of these forces.

There are some modern humans who are not blind to this inner world.

“It took me a long time to enter deeply into this inner world, but when I did I met what I have called the Star Beings.I will simply say that I recognised them as what ancient cultures have called the gods. But they were in no way like the strange portrayals of the ancient gods we see in todays media; powerful caricatures of human beings with amazing powers. These beings did not have human form with crazy quirks, angers and desire for power that humans have. I experienced them as the spectrum of fundamental forces and energies that work together to create our universe.

However, these forces that usually we take as somehow inanimate or without awareness, like the force of gravity or the energy pouring out of the sun, I experienced as having awareness and intelligence. I knew them as existing in the water we drink and the air we breathe. I knew them as our real parents, of whose body we take into us to exist. I knew them as the beings we are constantly hurting through our destructive relationship with nature. They explained to me that we have not yet fulfilled our role, a role that placed us as the custodians of life on Earth. They also told me that the time of the Lion and the Bull is coming.”

Here is a quote from Plutarch’s Moralia in Sixteen Volumes, Vol. V, published by William Heineman

“All good things, my dear Clea, sensible men must ask from the Gods; and especially do we pray that from those mighty Gods we may, in our quest, gain a knowledge of themselves, so far as such a thing is attainable by men. For we believe that there is nothing more important for man to receive, or more ennobling for God of His grace to grant, than the truth. God gives to men the other things for which they express a desire, but of sense and intelligence He grants them only a share, inasmuch as these are His especial possessions and His sphere of activity. For the Deity is not blessed by reason of his possession of gold and silver, nor strong because of thunder and lightning, but through knowledge and intelligence. Of all the things that Homer said about the Gods, he has expressed most beautifully this thought: wisdom. I think also that a source of happiness in the eternal life, which is the lot of God, is that events which come to pass do not escape His prescience. But if His knowledge and meditation on the nature of Existence should be taken away, then, to my mind, His immortality is not living, but a mere lapse of time. Therefore the effort to arrive at the Truth, and especially the truth about the Gods, is a longing for the divine.”  

Evil Spirits Devils and Demons

The world ancient people’s lived in was one filled with spirits and demons, gods and goddesses, good and evil forces.

The many intangibles they were surrounded by, the immense uncertainties they faced, were quite usefully called spirits – invisible/mysterious yet potent powers that could act upon one for good or ill.

Spirits were invisible forces that could influence you or kill you. Today we call these same invisible forces bacteria or viruses and have ways to deal with them. But unfortunately we have taken the word spirits too often to mean something evil can hurt us. We can see that in the past we were attacked by illness/ bad spirits, but today’s evil spirits we haven’t yet recognised as our own huge anxieties, illness creating fears, stresses, emotional disasters in love, as the great evils that are attacking us.

But this view should not be seen a superstitious or from ignorance. The words devil and spirit simply meant an unseen and powerful force. Before the invention of the microscope disease was in fact an ‘unseen force’ that could kill you. The devil was a destructive force and spirits could be helpful or destructive. We discovered that people could be helped or even healed by what we now call placebos. The magic rituals and amulets were just that.

Such misunderstandings arose about many such ancient beliefs. For example, not eating pork, the need to have the males circumcised and also the warning not to touch dead bodies. Today we have proof why these were all taboo subjects. The pork is or was very evident, for if pork were not cooked at a great temperature the bacteria and viruses caused great illnesses. So such taboos arose out of everyday observation as the other taboos.

Touching the dead or ill we understand now because nurses and doctors wear rubber gloves and masks as protection against the evil of disease.

That’s how serious we are about dealing with disease – fully protected in both directions – giving and receiving.

Many ‘religious’ beliefs were created by living close together in small communities were people could watch the whole lives of several generations, and there where those who were geniuses of their time and took note of things. Such information was passed on to those who wanted to learn and so it was seen what effects arose from certain behaviours. So circumcision arose because it was seen that less illness was experienced or transmitted by circumcised males. This was brought to a head in Africa where men were seen to pass AIDs on to their sexual partners, and it was seen that circumcised males were not doing it so much. So, African authorities set up centres for males to be circumcised to stop the spread of the disease.

Such folk wisdom was seen as so important because of its truth that it became holy.





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